i need someone to listen to me vent. =(

everything is different now, and i don't know what to do. =/

i miss being a kid.

two weeks. there are only two weeks left of school and i could have had a drama free year. but no! people decide that they are going to "joke around", if that's really true, and mess with my life. i can get emotionally drained really easily now since i have not had to deal with drama in such a long time. now i am get paranoid every time my phone rings or i get a text because i am scared of what people will tell me next. i am emotionally drained and i don't think i am up for the task of dealing with all this. i am not sure of what to believe and i'm scared of what might happen in the future. this was supposed to be a good weekend. i hope it still can be salvaged when i go to graduation on sunday. =/

connie is going to be living with us until the end of the year. it's fun! she bought us pizza today. thanks connie!

i finally finished my first journal of college. giselle really wanted to read it. i got her hook. =D we read about all the memories we have had. it's already the end of the year. all of us, including connie, got really sad. i am going to miss these girls this summer. i love them so much!

journals are so much fun to look back on.

i need to stop watching korean dramas, but they're so addicting! now every time i watch something i expect there to be subtitles.
i was looking at heidi's myspace and on her top 8 i am listed as "korean-washed." haha, i love it!

i am blessed to have such amazing friends that love and care about me as much as they do.

this week has been going really well and it's going to get even better. today i got a free thai dinner thanks to my love. haha. then we hung out around the la sierra campus and took the most random pictures ever. the highlight of my week was getting my stewie wrist band, thanks to mr. daryl carreon! i love my friends. it turns out that everyone and their mother is coming this thursday. byron, sheila, ryan austin, joanna, and rachel are coming. it's going to be an awesome day on thursday! more people come visit! =D

i planned for this weekend to be uneventful but sometimes things don't go as planned. i was supposed to sit at home and do nothing but sleep and bum out. instead i went out with jenelyn and watched "the da vinci code." it was a really good movie and actually stuck to the book, even though they left some parts out. it's ok though because they kept all the necessary things in. the book is of course better than the movie. i think that book did a much better part with the ending than hollywood did. surprisingly hollywood did not make the romance portion much more than it was. acutally, they made it less. how strange. now i am at home and plan to go back to bumming out before i have to go back to la sierra and deal with another week of school.

old friends + korean bbq + ice cream + cameras = good times.

ronan: that wardorbe must be worth over $1000.
me: okay antique road show.

megan: jennifer, i missed you.
me: i know.

megan and i taking a video of us dancing..
megan: we should stop that.
me: yeah, before we start making porn or something.

ronan: even though it's not hot, i'm burning.

megan (referring to jed's bed sheets): see, these are acceptable.
me: yeah, if you are a navajo.

jed: so where would i find an expert?
me: i don't know. i've never needed one.

i love when giselle talks in her sleep. it is like a mini show for briggitte and me. we go next to her bed to see what she will do or say next. today's show featured giselle speaking in spanish, english, and tagalog. in one part giselle said briggitte's name so briggitte responded. all of a sudden giselle starts talking in tagalog. man, i love my roomies!

yeah, so the past 36 hours have been pretty horrible. school has been at it's all time high stress level and various things don't make it any better. i'm glad i'm at home right now because that means i will actually have a good nights rest. i must endure.

i'm a little instigator. ;D

this weekend was incredibly fun but having only 8 hours of sleep in a 72 hour time slot is not a good idea. i love my friends! =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEIDI!
the past 24 hours has been a complete roller coaster ride. i don't think that someone should have to go through ten different ranges of emotion in that amount of time. now i am so tired because i only got three hours of sleep last night. i am just waiting to get back to the dorm and take a long long nap.

tonight briggitte and i have gone back in time to first half of first quarter. we went to run around the track, we went to a short worship at towers, she plucked her hair, i blogged, and listened to "songs for a new world" and we are the only ones in the room. aww, we both miss those times. =(

me: danny, can you make korean food?
danny: no.
briggite: then what are you good for?

when i went to eat ramen on friday i opened my chopstick wrapper and found only one chopstick inside. does that mean anything like bad like or something? eh, i don't know.
i got back to the dorm today and i felt a little emo but not the normal emo. i felt like listening to filipino songs or songs that were sung by filipino people since most of those songs are all love songs. love songs are never my emo pick but i just felt it today. man, these mood swings are taking me to places.

this week was a horrible week for me but the weekend compensated for it. friday night giselle and daryl came to my house. giselle was so happy to be at my house for some reason. we went to little tokyo and ate some ramen. ramen, yum. we went to this vintage store near there. too bad everything there is way too overpriced for me to ever buy. then tonight i went out with laura and khaing. i went crazy at urban outfitters. i got a lot of cute things though. we ate at cheesecake factory. i am so full but it was worth it.

and thanks to everyone who have tried to make my week more bearable for me. it helped more than you know. =D

i want ths shirt!

yesterday was my emo day but at night it got a lot better. daryl called me and asked if i wanted to go to cerritos to get some shaved ice. giselle, daryl, and i went to this place called guppy's. we ordered shaved ice with condensed milk, strawberries, and mango. it was huge! us three had a hard time finishing it but we conquered that shaved ice! we went to the drive-in and watched the end of "benchwarmers" and all of "ice age 2." giselle and i daryl fell asleep during "ice age" so i felt like a retard laughing by myself. it was a good movie though. those things made my day. =D
but today on the other hand was HORRIBLE! i had lab and it was the longes most terrible lab in the history of labs! i was so hungry because i had not eaten for 20 hours and when i got back to the dork i found out i got my rag. then giselle and i watched a korean movie that made me so mad. worst day ever!

i haven't blogged in a while so i am going to recap on the past couple of days.
4.20 was a very interesting day. i don't need to toke to have fun but i guess some people do. i went to loma linda and hung out with a bunch of filipinos and briggitte. haha. i have not laughed so much in a long time.
friday i went to victoria gardens with the roomies, jay, and osias. in the car we were listening to emo music, rolled down the windows, and yelled. good times. danny's party was that night. koreans are funny when they are drunk or high. we spent the night at andy's house. that experience only further proves that koreans are funny when they are drunk or high.
my plan for saturday was to wake up and do homework. instead i went to LA and didn't get back until late. i watched "silent hill" with daryl, vince, and wayne and we ate at max's. good movie and good food. there was a lot of drama that went on saturday, luckily none of it had to do with me. =D
sunday i went to loma linda and ate at bj's with the filipinos. ryan is so hilarious that it's ridiculous!
and now for today. it was not a very good day. i am glad that today i can register for summer school and i found out i got a 98 on a test i didn't study for. giselle was really emo today which in turn made me a little emo, kind of. giselle and i sat in the room and talked for a long time. aww, roomies/cousins! but today was interesting, to say the least.
i want next month to come already. gaah.

my english class is a curse for me. grr.

I LOVE SUNDAYS!! =D

me: secrets don't make friends.
giselle: secrets don't make boyfriends.
^hahaha

i was talking to bryan and he told me that 70% of college people find the person they are going to marry during their sophomore year, at least for adventists. i said that i hope i am part of the 30% that don't. i told my roomies this conversation. everyone i tell that i am not going to get married disagrees with me and says that i am going to get married for sure. my mom doesn't even believe i won't get married. oof! anyways, i unknowingly have a gravitational pull towards korean guys and because of that everyone thinks i am going to marry a korean guy. well, giselle was wondering how a korean and filipino baby would look like. she started building it up in her head and came to the conclusion that they would be really cute. so she tells me to do it, have a korean filipino baby. yes, let me just go find some korean guy to mate with and have a child with. like it's that easy! i just started laughing and saying sarcastic comments. i can't believe that marriage has become a serious part of the vocabulary for people my age. that's a scary thought.

THE CURSE HAS BEEN LIFTED! I'M CURED! HOORAY! =D

i have experienced ALL of my classes now. i hate this quarter.

microbiology MTRF 9-10: it's an ok class, i just have to study the material daily.
history/philosophy MTRF 10-11: i hate this mother f***ing class!! i hate it so much that it made me cuss. s***!
english MWF 11-12: easiest class and certain people (heehee) make the class, and my life, more interesting.
spanish TR 3-5: easy class but the teacher freaks me out. he is overly nice. creepy.
microbiology lab W 12-3: it's a long lab period and the teacher is very picky on how she wants things to be done. i'm scared of screwing up but it will be fun.

I GOT MY SHOES! YAY! =D
and watch "v for vendetta" and "inside man." both amazing movies.

it's the first day of third quarter and i have already broken all the rules i set for myself for this last quarter, or at least most of them. i said i was not going to go out at night, but i did. i was not going to stay out past 1 am, which is curfew, but i did. i was not going to get a memo anytime soon, i did not since i managed to sneak in after 1 am. i was not going to procrastinate on any of my homework, but i am even though it is due friday. i was trying to cut back on chocolate but i ate a butterfingers bar. aah, college life is great.

today i met up with bryan at the mall. we went to eat out at in-n-out after somewhat getting lost. part of the conversation goes as follows:

bryan showing off his mouth full of food..
me: that's hot!
bryan: thank you.
me: wow, i haven't said that in a long time.
bryan: that's because you haven't seen me in a long time.

then we went back to the mall and walked aimlessly in circles. we went to borders and i bought a classical piano music cd. now my roomies and i have something to study to. =D we ran into adam and michelle at the coffee shop and jessica came along after a while. now i have to go to khaing's house so we can go to mike's house. peace.

i was watching the "scrubs" episode where carla finds out she is pregnant. i find it strange that carla celebrates her newly found pregnancy at a bar. hmm.

it's been a year since i got my ear pierced. wow.

and this reminds me of me (but i think only my roomies will get it):

i think this is cute:

i finished my second quarter of college on wednesday, march 22, 2006 at 11:28 am. whee!

i met jeri lee. cool beans.

less than three weeks worth of trash trash trash..

friday night was interesting, to say the least. i went to the a party at danny's house. it was the last party of the quarter and i knew a lot of people were going to be there so i did not want to miss out on seeing my fellow LSUers getting drunk off their asses. the house was crazy. you could not even dance because you couldn't move. so many people were there. i thought danny was the only owner that was going to be there but lilly, cindy, and wayne were there. at least danny wasn't manning the house all by himself. when we said hi to danny, he was already drunk. i must say that i like drunk danny a lot better than sober danny. he is nicer and less of a cocky jerk. a few minutes after i got there i saw four guys carrying a passed out asian chick outside so they could take her to the hospital. i unknowingly placed my sweater in the weed room so by the time i went to go get it my sweater smelled like weed. people were falling on the floor and beer was getting spilled all over the carpet. the party was getting a little too crazy so cindy and lilly tried kicking some people out. we went outside for a little bit when cindy comes out yelling at this girl, anita, that would not leave and was being a bitch. anita hit cindy and ran away. cindy got really pissed off so she went after her. anita got cindy in the face really good. briggitte and giselle were trying to pull off cindy. andy and saj eventually got them off each other. that chick fight was crazy! danny came out and told us to leave because cops were coming and we are minors. while walking to the car we saw three other fights. an asian guy got knocked out by a big white guy. you could hear the punch from where we were standing. after that we speed out of there. we went to ken's house to chill. someone told us that ten other fights broke out after we left. wow, what a way to end the quarter. and no matter what anyone says, it pays to be 100% sober. you don't miss a thing! =D

giselle went into my closet to talk to jay since it is quiet in there. i guess she found one of my bras so she ran into the other room where the rest of us were and she was wearing my bra as a hat. gee, thanks. and now my closet is tainted with flirting and lovey dovey talk. GROSS!

i miss my friends.

i got the two most interesting comments today from kristina:
-jenni! i was pooping today and i thought about you! (aww, how sweet.)
-jenni! i had a dream that i went to the zoo to feed the pandas but it pooped on its paw and threw it at my face instead. it was awesome! (aah, my poop powers are stronger than i thought. it reaches people's dreams as well. wOOt!)

we have way too much fun in our dorm. briggitte is correct, "guys would love to be in our room." good times and sorry. haha!

i wish someone would tell me the truth.

RIP ANDREW LANCE LUNA. you were an amazing pianist, nice guy, and had an interesting personality. thanks for the extra piano competition and for giving me someone to look up to during rectials. you will be miss and God be with your family. =/

i heart honey bunches of oats and BRIGGITTE! thank you roomie. =D

=(

"what's up thug. that's all for now. keep it real, homes." thank you dennis. kristina, your boyfriend is special. that is like the fifth note. they are pretty funny though.

i did not plan to go out today but things seemed to be looking up for me. kristina came over. we talked a little and ate. then she went to go get her hair cut. it's very short but very cute. we shopped at forever 21. we got hungry again so we went to pho 79. i heart pho. i have been craving it for a long time so i finally got some. we walked around a alhambra. there is a store called nucleus. they had a tote with angry little girls on it. it had the asian girl burning a boy and it said "love is friendsip set on fire." I WANT IT! khaing told us about a really good dessert place near there. the service was great. the lady was so nice and they boxed the dessert so nicely. not to mention that the dessert was amazing. we went to starbucks to eat our dessert and get a drink. i saw an old elementary friend there. kris and i hung out for a while. it's fun hanging out with friends you haven't hung out with in a long time. good times. =D

i want this bag real bad!! IT'S REVERSABLE! =O

you know that ugly feeling you get at the pit of your stomach? yeah, i got that.
the more i think about it, the angrier and sadder i get. whomp. =/

anything to avoid homework..

WHAT WERE YOU DOING-
1 MINUTE AGO: talking to people online
1 HOUR AGO: taking a shower
1 day AGO: watching a movie
1 YEAR AGO: probably crapping

I LOVE: pandas
I HATE: panda killers
I FEAR: not getting into llu
I HIDE: my money
I DRIVE: a camry, at least when i can
I NEED: oxygen
I KNOW: more things than you do
I THINK: i am on crack

FIRSTS & LASTS..
First piercing: left cartilage
First credit card: VISA last year
First enemy: justin m in kinder
First instrument: piano
Last big car ride: what is a big car ride? wednesday?
Last movie seen: donnie darko
Last food consumed: pesto tortellini
Last CD played: sunsets and car crashes by SPILL CANVAS =D
Last drink drank: water
Last alchol drank: so long ago.. vodka?

SHORT ANSWER..

I AM: a girl
I WANT: sleep
I HAVE: feet
I WISH: i could fly
I WONDER: why i am not sleeping
I DANCE: to everything
I SING: beautifully
I CRY: when someone pokes me in the eye
I AM NOT ALWAYS: in my right mind
I WONT: do drugs


FAVORITES--

NUMBER: 5
COLOR: turquoise
DAY(S): wednesdays, i think
MONTH: december and february
SEASON: autumn and spring
DRINK: water

IN THE LAST 2 DAYS, HAVE YOU...

CRIED? nope
A LOT? i didn't cry
HELPED SOMEONE? yes
GOTTEN SICK? a little
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?? no
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
WRITTEN IN A DIARY?: yes, but it is called a journal. J-O-U-R-N-A-L
HAD A SERIOUS TALK?: yes.. good times
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes
KISSED SOMEONE?: if i did, i don't remember

yesterday we went to claire's because giselle wanted to go earring shopping. i looked at their nail polish selection and they had some weird colors. i wanted to try the green one on because it was so GREEN. then i saw the turquoise one and of course i wanted to try that one on. since i already had two weird colors on, i decided to paint the rest of my hand with different colors. people's reactions to my nails are priceless. everyone agrees that they look like candy. yum. i think i am going to start doing this everytime i go to claire's. =D
on a weirder and sicker note, i farted in one room and heidi heard it in the other room and all the doors were closed. i'm proud of myself.

it's so ironic how things end up. i guess you never know what will happen until it actually does.

MY LIFE BIOGRAPHY

Chapter 1: You

Intials: JGFM
Middle name: grace or febre.. not really sure
Sex: female
Date of birth: feb 4
Current location: riverside
Height: 5 feet
Hair length: middle of my back
hair color: black
Piercings: one.. left cartilage
tattoos: nope

Chapter 2: The Background

Do you live with your parents? not all the time. i'm a dormer at angwin
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Do you have any siblings?: no
What pets do you have?: no, unless you count my invisible pet panda. haha


Chapter 3: Favorites

City: los angeles is all i can think of right now
Ice cream flavor: cookies n creme
Season: autumn
Clothing brand: hmm.. hollister, ae, forever21, anf (sometimes), aero, lux, urban outfitter brand, wet seal stuff
Shampoo/conditioner: panteen
Old nickelodeon show: rugrats
Color: TURQUOISE! wOOts!
Cheesy pick-up line: can i be your big bird to your bert&ernie.. nice giselle
Flower: sampaguita.. only the ones who REALLY know me know that. =D

Chapter 4: Do you...
Sing in the shower?: yes
Write memos on your hand?: oh yeah
Call people back?: yes
Have your driver's license?: yep
Believe in love?: sure do
Sleep on a certain side of the bed?: if you are laying on the bed and looking at the ceiling, i sleep on the left
Think you're attractive?: oh hex yeah! =P
Wear glasses or contacts?: glasses
Have any weird pet peeves?: clumpy eyelashes with mascara

Chapter 5: Have You Ever ...

Worn braces? no
Broken a bone?: no
Had stitches?: no
Punched someone in the face?: accidentally
Skipped school?: yes
Taken painkillers?: tylenol
Gone SCUBA diving?: no
Been stung by a jellyfish?: nope
Been stung by a bee?: no
Thrown up in a restaurant?: no
Written a letter to Santa Claus?: yep
Sworn in front of your parents?: yeah
Had detention?: yeah
Been sent to the principal's office?: yes..twice
Been called a bitch?: yeah
Been called a Hoe?: in the nicest way possible
Played ding dong ditch?: no

Chapter 6: Random

If you could take back one thing, what would it be?: no comment
Do you prefer blonde hair or brown hair?: brown
If you were on death row, what would your final request be?: to fly away and become invisible =D

heidi (while writing her paper on abortion): abortion is illegal, right?

i am so sad. it's raining and i am drinking tea and listening to daphne loves derby. i'm in a rut. =(
everyone seems to be sad, or most of the people i talk to. our dorm room is depressing. giselle and i are sad for an unknown reason, briggitte is sick, and heidi is.. i don't really know about heidi. i feel looooooooow.

traffic on the 91 freeway is caused a male korean driver. TAKE THAT DANNY YOON! =O

if you want crappy things to stop happening to you, don't accept the crappy things that happen. demand something better. -grey's anatomy

giselle was doing this online thing where you type in a person's name and it says their stripper name or something like that. my porn star name is nurse naughty. how appropriate.. haha. and my boobs names are bert and ernie. HAHA! that one is the best! i changed my myspace name to bert&ernie and i told heidi to look at it. then my profile song started playing and it was the sesame street theme song. wOw! how ironic. i guess i'm just good like that. heehee

i physically feel like crap. and my mental and emotional states aren't far off either. blah.

i slept from 7 pm to 11 am. 16 hours! i have good reason though. my saturday night was time for me to recoop from my weekend which started on thursday. i am so tired! i might just go back to sleep again. haha! =D

0530, 0330, ?

-moving one foot per hour
-crazy dancing chick
-high five go go dancer!
-briggitte wants pizza
-dawn of the dead
-joyce
-freaky khaing
-the heidi dance
-hella
-gian? wow.
-OOOOOOOOOOOOOH!
-is that ice?
-giselle takes forever!
-denny's trip
-silent treatment
-home is in wisconsin
-FREE WATER AND ICE!
-XX
-how come the pony didn't sing? because his voice was a little horse.
-country _________ bowl
-5:31 am

=D

this week is the BEST!!
tuesday: one class - comm
wednesday: one class - drawing
thursday: two classes - comm and a&p
friday: two classes - comm and a&p
that is less than half of my normal classes and NO LAB.
WOOT!

i should be essaying but..

Your senior year in High School is supposed to be the best year of your life. Let's see how much you remember

Who was your best friend(s)?:
bryan and megan

Who did you have a crush on?:
no one.. i think, hmm..

What sports did you play?:
none

What kind of car did you drive?:
none, well i drove me dad's camry

It's Friday night, where were you at?:
uh, online?

Were you a party animal?:
party? what is that?

Were you in the "In Crowd"?
there is not "in crowd" at sga.. it's just one BIG group.. i heart my friends! =D

Ever skip school?:
i wanted too..

Ever smoke?:
nope

Were you a nerd?:
OF COURSE! come on now, it's me!

Did you get suspened/expelled?:
no

Can you sing the Alma Mater?:
i don't think we have one

Who was your favorite teacher?:
ozzie.. wOOt!

Favorite class?:
physics because there were a lot of crazy moments!

What was your schools full name?:
san gabriel academy

School mascot?:
eagle

Did you go to Prom?:
i went to BANQUETS! and what, huh!

Where did you work?:
i had no job

If you could go back and do it over...Would you?
some parts but mostly no

i'm not going to lie. i'm kind of jealous. poop. but it is a funny situation.

yes! this is the best week ever! today i only had one class and my lab for thursday got cancelled. and i don't have anymore homework for the week either! WOOHOO! =D you know you're jealous.

i only had one class today. i love it. now it is time to bum out.. =D

prime example of when we are cracked out (tired):

heidi: pray that i do well on my bio test tomorrow.
me: ok. dear heavenly father, please help heidi do well..
heidi: no! don't pray out loud or else it won't come true.

I LOVE MY ROOMIES! even with all their issues. haha!

YAY! WE HAVE MORE KOREAN FOOD! HOOTIHOOT! =D

oof! boo for second thoughts and for ruined plans! =( i'm pretty stupid for complaining about something that hasn't even happened yet. BUT STILL!! grr..
SDJFAFJIOEWJFKKASLFKJSDFEWROIJAFKNVKSADNV;AJKFAJFOIWEJFKVNDSVAOIDFJVWEJGIJ!!!!!!!!!!!!

i had a lot of fun today. steph came to pick me up so we could hang out. we went to west covina to eat at chevy's. my family, steph, and bryan were all right. chevy's is really good. i really like their chips. we went shopping for a little bit. steve and barry's is hella cheap. last time i went there everything was $10 or less. this time it was $7.98 or less. bryan and steph, we got ripped off! haha! we walked around the mall for a couple of hours. we got some jamba juice and decided to watch a movie. there aren't any good movies out so we went to citadel. wow, the mall and citadel in one day. that is a landmark for steph and me. outlets are fun! it was a very productive shopping and catching up day. wOOt!

Firsts and Lasts..
FIRST REAL BEST FRIEND:
jenelyn ramos

FIRST SCHOOL:
white memorial

FIRST CELL PHONE:
freshman year?

FIRST FUNERAL:
i don't know

FIRST PET:
2 german shepherds and one japanese something

FIRST BIG TRIP:
to america.. haha!

FIRST FIGHT:
3rd grade

FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH:
probably someone from 90210

FIRST JOB:
church job

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS:

LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED:
stephanie shibata

LAST CAR RIDE:
with steph

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
thursday watching "crash"

LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED:
crash.. SO GOOD!

LAST FOOD YOU ATE:
steak quesadillas from chevy's

LAST SHIRT WORN:
baby blue ae aloha shirt

LAST PHONE CALL:
mom

LAST TEXT MESSAGE:
khaing

LAST THING YOU TOUCHED:
keyboard

LAST TIME AT THE MALL:
today

LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FOR SOMETHING:
today

LAST THING YOU DRANK:
water

LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART:
uh..

LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY:
today
_____________________________________________________________________

these are supposedly 30 questions that no one would EVER think to ask.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
my hair is a mess

2. How much cash do you have on you?
$87.. i can't believe i actually have cash, that never happens

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
four

4. Favorite planet?
earth

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
laura

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
i hate all my ring tones

7. What shirt are you wearing ?
ae shirt

8. Do you "label" yourself?
no

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
i'm not wearing shoes

10. Bright or Dark Room?
normal lighting

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
i heart my roomie, heidi!

12. When was the last time you listened to "last Christmas"?
uh, christmas

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
dreaming

14. What did your last text message say that you received say?
i have my costume corset on right now and i cnat breathe good gosh.

15. Where is your letter box? mail box?
downstairs in front

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
hella?

17.Who told you he/she loved you last?
the roomies =D

18. What was the last fluffy thing you touched?
a pillow

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
none

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
digi cam

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
19 is looking like a good year =D

22. Your worst enemy?
i dont have one.. i think

23. What is your current desktop picture?
the picture giselle made me.. heehee

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
hi

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
i'm not sure. i'm always saying how i wish i could fly but a million bucks is pretty tempting too

26. Do you like someone?
i like you!

27. The last song you listened to?
a mariah carey song, the older ones, the better ones

28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet for them?
yes

29. If you could punch 1 person in your life right now, who would it be?
no one

30. What is the closest object to your left foot?
a printer

uh oh! trouble and drama is a brewing.. dun dun DUN!

kristina, look at my myspace pictures! you'll LOVE it. heehee! =P

OH MY GOSH! the best thing just happened to me! i got the bestest birthday present today. kristina came from loma linda, like she does every thursday, and she handed me a present. POP ROCKS!! strawberry, watermelon, and tropical punch flavors. wOOts! i have been wanting pop rocks for months and now i finally got some. POP ROCKS!! score! =D

what? WHAT!?!? haha, let me go laugh my butt off!

i have a squishy butt and kinky hair.. stupid.
briggitte transformed me from a calm hippie to a seductive librarian. =P

happy singles awareness day! valentines day this year was not too bad. i wore my i heart stewie shirt! =D i only had two classes today which makes me very happy. after lunch i went tanning with briggitte next to the pool. that felt pretty good. i bummed out in the room watching "family guy" and "wedding crashers" while painting. heidi dragged me along to the basketball game but i am very glad that she did. whee! giselle and briggitte came a little later. chedda came to pick us up. ronson and matt were at michelle's house cooking dinner. christina, taylor, and sarah came a little later. it was a delicious dinner. the dessert was soo good! =P the ambience kind of got ruined when we decided to watch "red eye" for our entertainment. but after the movie, chedda got thet guitar and started singing jack johnson songs and "you and me" by lifehouse. that was nice. i already loved the song "belle" but chedda got me to love it even more. he was practicing his guitar skills because he needed to impress this one girl. she seems really nice. we all sat around the fire place and hung out for a little while. amy picked us up. i don't mean to sound racist, but i spent a lot of time with white people today. i was actually a minority. pretty funny. vday grossed me out the most when i walked back to my dorm and saw four couples making out. i am still kind of anti-vday so..

tonight i watched "a walk to remember." it was never a "wow" movie for me. i liked it but it did not melt my heart whenever i thought about it. but tonight that all changed. it is such a good movie, but it makes me so sad. aah, movie nights are fun!

oof! all of the post cards on postsecret are about love and valentines day. stupid valentines day!!

my fortune says: you are guided by silent love and friendship around you.
whee!

adrian torres, you crack me up!! good times. =P

tonight i went to sga for the gaa vs. sga game. we came late and only saw the guy's varsity game. for most of the game we were down by at least nine points. but we won in the end! wOOt! we won all three games. go sga! there were so many glendalians there! we came back to the dorm and got socks for bowling. bowling was from 10 to 12:30 but we did not stay the whole time. it was an interesting day..

a friend of mine sent me an online test. i found this portion of the test particularly interesting.

think of someone you care about and reminds you of each color.
yellow - jenelyn
orange - kristina
red - khaing
white - bryan
green - megan

after you put down the names, they tell you what the colors mean.
yellow - someone you will never forget
orange - someone you consider a true friend
red - someone you really love
white - your twin soul
green - someone you will remember for the rest of your life

we were watching "moulin rouge" and i picked out my favorite part in the whole movie. actually, i have two. the first one is when they are in the elephant and "your song" comes on. the second one is in the end when they sing "come what may" and they reunite or whatever. aww, i love that movie.

it's over 80 degrees in february. southern california is so weird.

last night giselle and i stayed up talking, like roomies do, and we found out that we are cousins! i have a roomie is my cousin. that is very strange and cool at the same time. wOOt! =P

connie and i went on an outing to the mall and we found the strangest things happening. connie is usually the one that buys things and i just kind of stand there and look at the clothes knowing i won't buy them. connie would ask me if a certain item was worth it or if it was cute or whatever. i usually gave the financial advice on our runs to the mall but today it was different. connie told me not to buy a particular item because it was "not worth it." what! financial advice from connie?!?! what is the world coming to? connie was being really thrifty. she usually has no problem spending $30 for an item but today she would not even spend $10. i had no problem spending money because i got birthday money. connie and i shop together so much that we rub off on each other.. maybe a little too much. haha!

- dedicated to connie luu.. what's wrong with us?

do you feel pain? because i sure do. =/

smurfs talking..
smurf 1: hey, did you have a good time last night?
smurf 2: smurftacular!
smurf 1: yeah, i saw you leave with smurfet.
smurf 2: yeah, as soon as we got out of the bar, she started smurfing me.
smurf 1: shut the smurf up!
smurf 2: yeah!
smurf 1: right in the smurfing parking lot?
smurf 2: smurf yeah!
smurf 1: oh that is freaking smurf!
^just gotta love family guy..

i got a note at the front desk that said "i'm watching you" and it had no name on it. hmm, i wonder who it is from.

and so begins my last year of teendom..

thank you everyone who wished me a happy birthday on the phone, myspace, facebook, text messages, and in person! =D

guys, pay very very VERY close attention to this entry. it may very well save your butt when you get into a relationship.

taken from khaing's myspace blog:

50 ThiNgS GiRLs WiSH GuYs KnEw
1. Dont tell us when you think other girls are hot.
2. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
3. If you dont act like soap-opera guys, dont expect us to dress like Victoria Secret models.
4. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.
5. There is no such thing as too much spooning.
6. We think about you all the time.
7. This is how we see it . . . Don't call = Don't Care.
8. Which also means that if we dont call, take the hint.
9. We like you to be a little jealous . . . but overly possessive is not necessary.
10. Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.
11. Always introduce us to your girl friends as your girlfriend!
12. Foreplay is not an option . . . its a prerequisite.
13. We're allowed to be late . . . you are not.
14. Eye contact is key.
15. Dont take longer to get ready than we do.
16. Laugh at our jokes.
17. Three words . . . honesty, honesty, honesty.
18. Girls can be groupies. guy groupies are stalkers.
19. Never, ever, ask us if we are PMSing!!!
20. Do not start with us. you will not win.
21. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? we didnt think so.
22. If you ask nicely, we usually answer the same way.
23. We will never have enough clothes or shoes.
24. Not all girls eat like birds, some of us eat like you!
25. Open the door for us no matter where we are . . . even at our house and getting into the car.
26. We love surprises!
27. We liked to be kissed softly, not with an iron tongue.
28. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.
29. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes . . . NEVER whitey-tighties!
30. Clean your room before we come over.
31. Always brush your teeth before you see us . . . a fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.
32. We are always thinking about you.
33. Even though you are sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we are.
34. If you do not go all the way with us, dont tell your friends you did. If you DO go all the way, dont tell your friends you did!
35. Be aware of all male relatives... they will kick your butt at the drop of a hat, some will do it without the hat!
36. Sometimes "NO!" really means "NO!"
37. "Wife Beaters" are not an adequate form of fashion.
38. Some girls are fine with paying half on the first date, but after that youre on your own!
39. Sensitive guys are great . . . but crying more than we do in a movie just isnt right.
40. Dont let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.
41. It takes a special kind of stupid guy to forget birthdays.
42. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a girl.
43. "Fat Chicks" have feelings too, so dont make fun of them.
44. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to . . . YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!
45. The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable . . . we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.
46. Just because a girl doesnt pick up on the first ring doesnt mean shes not waiting by the phone.
47. A girl doesnt want to hear shes hot, what she wants to hear is that shes beautiful.
48. Dont say you love me if you dont mean it, we might do something stupid, like believe it.
49. Dont lie to us . . . we will catch you.
50. When the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my best friends know everything about you.

last night i got in bed and felt crappy. then the girls came back from ice skating. i can't ice skate so i didn't go. all of them felt crappy too! briggitte, giselle, heidi, and i all had issues and felt like crap. it's so weird. we seem to do everything together: travel as a pack, get our periods at the same time, feel crappy about similar things at the same time. giselle suggested that we pull an all nighter and watch "donnie darko." we didn't stay up all night but we did watch the movie. it's trippy! we fell asleep around 4:30ish. my roomies are the best! i love those girls! i'm really happy with my current living arrangement. it's so much fun and strangly i get more homework done faster ever since they moved in. there is so much laughter, farting, venting, and stupidity in our "home." i'm glad those girls are my friend. aww, friends forever! =D

it's 12 am and i'm feeling kind of emo. i am not quite sure why. i had a pretty good day, i went out with friends, we had long talks, but still this emo feeling. i haven't felt this way in a long time so i'm not sure what to do.
random thought: the age 19 is the most pointless year. it is the last year of your teenage life, but it's still pointless, at least to me. in 24 hours i start me pointless year. whomp.
i don't know what to write. i thought this would somehow help but i just feel frustrated.

giselle: jen, this is going to sound weird but i like your boobs.
me: what!?!
giselle: i like that they are so big. i have never had a friend with boobs as big as your's.

then she leaves me a comment on myspace:


stewie likes your boobies too... :D

i finally gave in.. i took a nap.

my roomies keep calling me a hippie, and jon too. i take a drawing class and every time i have to draw, they make fun of me and call me a hippie. i guess there are other factors like being the one that recycles, but i guess i am the hippie of the group. wOOt.

people don't blog/xanga anymore. that makes me sad. =(

i am proud to say i am the individual responsible for getting my roomies addicted to "family guy."

wow. people disclose waaaaay too much information about their sex lives.

i vastly underestimated how many people have sex at my school, specifically drunken one night stands. =/