"'Cause even if it breaks your heart to be 'just friends', if you really care about someone, you'll take the hit."

people always leave... but sometimes they come back.

singles’ awareness day. it was not as bad as i thought. it actually went pretty well. i really thought that i would be totally bitter and hating it because of what happened last year. but not the case. when i got to school people were so surprised that i was wearing a skirt. I CAN’T BELIEVE I WORE A FREAKING SKIRT! people were literally announcing it to everyone. LITERALLY! i got some compliments so that made me happy.. one of the reasons why this day was not so crappy. but for some reason when i got to econ, i got brought down. it was so depressing. but then art cheered me up. from then on i felt pretty darn good. i helped get ready for the box lunch. i did not get to see the room until later. but when i saw it, it was so beautiful! our box lunch was special because it was not a normal one. we had two. kind of... we used the copy room for our “ghetto” one. it was just this cheap thing with techno music. we fed them cookies, mini burritos, california rolls, cheese, crackers, and water. the guys spent $85 on that. or so they thought. haha! they were trying to be happy but you could tell they were disappointed. but after a while, we told them that we were going to get them dessert and to close their eyes and get up. when you walk into lilybeth’s room the lights are off. there is a pathway you have to walk through of lights and candles. that led you to a candle lit table underneath icicle lights and paper hearts that were on the ceiling. the guys sat down where we put chocolate roses and they girls could sit anywhere else. the girls served the guys. there was roast, bread, pancit, california rolls, spaghetti, lasagna, enchiladas, and i think that is all. then dessert came... DESSERT!!! joanna brought those really good candy apples from her work. it was a green apple dipped in caramel, then dipped in white chocolate with graham cracker bits all over. yum... then we had berries with whipped cream. it was so sexy! haha! sarah made a seven layer cake. it had this brownie/cake layer and it had fudge and caramel, and whip cream, and all this other stuff. so friggin good! =) i was so full! we did not finish in time so people ditched english and bible to clean. it was pretty funny... we didn’t really know how well ms. rich takes bribes. but it was food. i got a lot of candy today.. but no flowers. whatever. =/ i went home and it was such an interesting night. i was talking to bryan about certain things. then chris IMed me about the most random thing. i was kind of scared but i felt like i was being more open than i have been in the past. i do not really know what northern is going to be like. i have a feeling i will be outside of my room a lot and just listening to music. bryan called me at around 11 pm because he had to vent or talk or something of that nature. we talked for about an hour and a half about all the drama. northern is going to be great. =/ so much drama. at least i am not really a part of it. once this thing blows up it will be so weird. i feel so out of place with the northern group this year. i think it will not be as fun as last year, but gotta make the best out of it. to quote bryan “i hate valentine’s day.”