"hey, it's cyclops from x-men."
i got my license. i did not really care until i realized i got it before gian. that is the only thing that is making me happy about it. whee. after i got home i went to megan's house to hang out with bryan and megan. we cooked pasta, actually megan cooked it, and baked cookies. but the cookies were overcooked and got really hard. it was so sad. but we went outside and had a cookie fight. megan threw one on my left boob. it hurt!! then we threw some cookies over her wall and into the street. we watched "the notebook" but stopped it at 8 so we could watch "so you think you can dance." megan got really into it. some of the people on that show are hilarious! after the show we went back to watching the movie. i love "the notebook." it is so sad. =( aww.. this was the last time support group will hang out until november, at least. =/
i have been wondering about friendships and the future a lot lately. how many of the friends you have now will be your friends in the next five years? i mean like they are actually in your daily life. only jenelyn and kristina are the only two people i know will be there in the next five years. that is really sad. i know that i am going to drift from people. it is bound to happen. but how many of those people can you drift from but when you see them again it is like you guys missed a day? how many friends can you still have those deep conversations with and be completely honest with without feeling like if you are honest then your friendship will not be the same? and then there are those people that you were really good friends with but something happened or you drifted but now you want to be friends but it seems like you can't since you are going to different colleges and you do not know how to even begin talking to them again. ok. i'm done. this is depressing me.
Thursday, August 18, 2005
"my humps, my humps, my humps, my humps, my lovely lady humps." blackeyedpeas
this weekend was soo much fun! after church jen and i went to the mall becaus she had to get khaing's present and buy something to wear for tonight. we ended up staying there longer than we should have. jen bought a lot of clothes but they were really cheap. i got three necklaces and a top. charlotte russe has really good sales! we went to to pick up laura at her church and headed to khaing's house. khaing was rushing because we had to get to the "restaurant." it took us forever to get there and the damn road rage drivers did not help at all. khaing said that we had to park in the hotel area and we would walk to the restaurant. after, khaing told us that we were not really eating at a restaurant and that her surpirse for us was that she bought a hotel room for the night. i found out on wednesday when steph told me. she did not khow she was supposed to keep it a secret. we got up to our hotel and looked around. it was so big and cool! they did not have a lock on the mini bar.. OoOoo.. we told everyone that was coming that the restaurant was in the hotel. but when they got there we took them to the room and SURPRISE! we wanted to go get some food so we went out for a while. it was so traffic so we went back to the hotel. while we were pulling into the vallet we saw rihanna! we were bound to see someone famous. we all got ready to go CLUBBIN! khaing was stressed out because there were parking issues and people were getting lost and coming late. we finally got to club dv8. there were not too many people when we got in. at first we all sat down in a booth but eventually khaing got us to dance. i did not like a lot of the music they played that night. after about an hour of dancing my butt started to hurt. we orderd some water from the waitress and all the girls were looking at her boobs. they were up and together! i want her boobs.. i was dancing with the girls and then ryan austin comes and starts dancing with me. then ryan cawin comes and starts dancing with me. all of a sudden this random guy starts dacning with me. i guess he thought that ryan and ryan were just some random guys too. i gave him a look and he left. it was so weird! i had another encounter with this other guy but i do not know how to explain it. but there was this other guy that was dancing with khaing and byron saved her from him. then he went around to erin but she went away. then he went to jen and she just yelled "NO! OH NO!" and ran away. it was so funny! i got molested by khaing. haha! we stayed until the club closed and went to denny's. there was drama about denny's or ihop and the girls that marvin and ryan met. on our way to denny's we were making a left turn and this stupid xterra almost rammed into us. we think he was drunk. joanna and steph met us there. i had such a headache beecause i did not eat for 14 hours. i was so hungry that i started acting crazy. but then we all acted like retards so it was not so bad. we got back to the hotel at around 3:35 am. khaing opened her presents. kris, chan, and santos got her this really but ball-like stuffed animal hamster. it was so cute! then we all just sat and talked and blah. marvin brought some tequilla and vodka and some people took shots. steph really wanted to see me do it. heehee.. i fell asleep around 7:30 am and woke up at 10 am. not much sleep. we all got ready to leave. after some people left, khaing came across some of her own drama. on the ride back to khaing's house jen, rach, and i listened to khaing get mad. it was scary and funny at the same time. we brought rachel to her house and we stayed there for a little while. jen, khaing, and rachel were all venting about all their boy problems. i felt kind of out of the loop because i had nothing to say. we decided to go on a starbucks run to talk about more boy issues but ended up eating at bj's. after everyone shared their issues they all started piling on all these questions for me to answer. i felt cornered. they asked me this one question but i kind of felt like i lied a little. we brought rachel home and i went home. i am so tired of dancing!!
this weekend was soo much fun! after church jen and i went to the mall becaus she had to get khaing's present and buy something to wear for tonight. we ended up staying there longer than we should have. jen bought a lot of clothes but they were really cheap. i got three necklaces and a top. charlotte russe has really good sales! we went to to pick up laura at her church and headed to khaing's house. khaing was rushing because we had to get to the "restaurant." it took us forever to get there and the damn road rage drivers did not help at all. khaing said that we had to park in the hotel area and we would walk to the restaurant. after, khaing told us that we were not really eating at a restaurant and that her surpirse for us was that she bought a hotel room for the night. i found out on wednesday when steph told me. she did not khow she was supposed to keep it a secret. we got up to our hotel and looked around. it was so big and cool! they did not have a lock on the mini bar.. OoOoo.. we told everyone that was coming that the restaurant was in the hotel. but when they got there we took them to the room and SURPRISE! we wanted to go get some food so we went out for a while. it was so traffic so we went back to the hotel. while we were pulling into the vallet we saw rihanna! we were bound to see someone famous. we all got ready to go CLUBBIN! khaing was stressed out because there were parking issues and people were getting lost and coming late. we finally got to club dv8. there were not too many people when we got in. at first we all sat down in a booth but eventually khaing got us to dance. i did not like a lot of the music they played that night. after about an hour of dancing my butt started to hurt. we orderd some water from the waitress and all the girls were looking at her boobs. they were up and together! i want her boobs.. i was dancing with the girls and then ryan austin comes and starts dancing with me. then ryan cawin comes and starts dancing with me. all of a sudden this random guy starts dacning with me. i guess he thought that ryan and ryan were just some random guys too. i gave him a look and he left. it was so weird! i had another encounter with this other guy but i do not know how to explain it. but there was this other guy that was dancing with khaing and byron saved her from him. then he went around to erin but she went away. then he went to jen and she just yelled "NO! OH NO!" and ran away. it was so funny! i got molested by khaing. haha! we stayed until the club closed and went to denny's. there was drama about denny's or ihop and the girls that marvin and ryan met. on our way to denny's we were making a left turn and this stupid xterra almost rammed into us. we think he was drunk. joanna and steph met us there. i had such a headache beecause i did not eat for 14 hours. i was so hungry that i started acting crazy. but then we all acted like retards so it was not so bad. we got back to the hotel at around 3:35 am. khaing opened her presents. kris, chan, and santos got her this really but ball-like stuffed animal hamster. it was so cute! then we all just sat and talked and blah. marvin brought some tequilla and vodka and some people took shots. steph really wanted to see me do it. heehee.. i fell asleep around 7:30 am and woke up at 10 am. not much sleep. we all got ready to leave. after some people left, khaing came across some of her own drama. on the ride back to khaing's house jen, rach, and i listened to khaing get mad. it was scary and funny at the same time. we brought rachel to her house and we stayed there for a little while. jen, khaing, and rachel were all venting about all their boy problems. i felt kind of out of the loop because i had nothing to say. we decided to go on a starbucks run to talk about more boy issues but ended up eating at bj's. after everyone shared their issues they all started piling on all these questions for me to answer. i felt cornered. they asked me this one question but i kind of felt like i lied a little. we brought rachel home and i went home. i am so tired of dancing!!
your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night. this idle hour just wont pass. ive never missed you this much, never thought i would. didnt think youd feel so far away.. i miss our midnight rides on highway 18, 18 is gone. so go past the lights and all the excuses. you could have left "sincerely yours." dont you think it's obvious that i want to say more? cause anything too daring to say to you will be said in this letter, then burned away. so you never realize, im here. im thinking of your vague reply so i can understand why we put this at rest, why we forget to say that we were leaving, say that we were sorry. the past remains unspoken as this vacant night is dying.. this cold air brings such a distance to us such a painful distance. im still waiting for you to say you hate me now, so i dont have to hold on to this burning heart. this burning heart is getting old.
MIDNIGHThighwayDAPHNElovesDERBY
MIDNIGHThighwayDAPHNElovesDERBY
Sunday, August 07, 2005
"i'm a bastard!" -kevin deoso
friend drama is funny. all the drama going on is finally out in the open. people hold some weird grudges for a long time! i'm sure it's not over but at least everyone knows what's going on. I HAD SUSHI!! kabuki has good calamari stuffed eggplant. yum! and tempura california rolls rock! their banana tempura with green tea ice cream and caramel is really good! gian thought our waitress was got. "the waitress what hot!!" then the guys went to pc bang while kristina and i went to blockbuster to rent a movie that we did not even get to watch. we went to buy mochi at trader joe's. the green tea was not very good. it tastes like the ginger wasabi ice cream they have at cold stones. we went to dennis' house to play ping pong. dennis and kristina are cute together but.. GAG! haha. i want to go back sy's house and play badminton, air hockey, and pool. =)
friend drama is funny. all the drama going on is finally out in the open. people hold some weird grudges for a long time! i'm sure it's not over but at least everyone knows what's going on. I HAD SUSHI!! kabuki has good calamari stuffed eggplant. yum! and tempura california rolls rock! their banana tempura with green tea ice cream and caramel is really good! gian thought our waitress was got. "the waitress what hot!!" then the guys went to pc bang while kristina and i went to blockbuster to rent a movie that we did not even get to watch. we went to buy mochi at trader joe's. the green tea was not very good. it tastes like the ginger wasabi ice cream they have at cold stones. we went to dennis' house to play ping pong. dennis and kristina are cute together but.. GAG! haha. i want to go back sy's house and play badminton, air hockey, and pool. =)
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned. i would like to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay. and true, it may seem like a stretch, but its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away and i am missing you to death when you are out there on the road for several weeks of shows and when you scan the radio, i hope this song will guide you home. they will see us waving from such great heights, "come down now, "they'll say. but everything looks perfect from far away,"come down now," but we'll stay... i tried my best to leave this all on your machine but the persistent beat it sounded thin upon listening and that frankly will not fly, you will hear the shrillest highs and lowest lows with the windows down when this is guiding you home.
such great heightspostalservice
such great heightspostalservice
Saturday, July 16, 2005
you say that loves goes anywhere
in your darkest time
it's just enough to know it's there
when you go i'll let you be
but you're killing everything in me
polaris jimmy eat world
all you need is love is a lie cause
we had love but we still said goodbye
now we're tired, battered fighters
and it stings when it's nobody's fault
cause there's nothing to blame at the drop of your name
it's only the air you took and the breath you left
split screen sadness john mayer
you can find me
if you ever want again
i'll be around the bend
and if you never stop when you wave goodbye
you just might find if you give it time you will wave hello again
and that's the way this wheel keeps working now
i believe that my life's gonna see
the love i give returned to me
wheel john mayer
i tried my best, i gave my all
sometimes my best wasn't
good enough for you
sometimes i let you go
sometimes i hurt you so
i know that i can be
the meanest person in the world
so i apologize to you
and to anyone else that i hurt too
i may not be the perfect soul
but i can learn self-control
so pardon me, pardon me,
pardon me my friend
there's not one else to blame
for all the broken hearts
are scattered on the field of war
pardon me weezer
when everything is wrong
i come talk to you
you make things alright
when i'm feelin' blue
you are such a blessing
and i won't be messing
with the one thing that
brings light to all my darkness
you're my best friend
and i love you
and i love you
yes i do
there is no other one
who can take your place
i feel happy inside
when i see your face
i hope you believe me
cause i speak sincerely
and i mean it when i tell you
that i need you
i'm here right beside you
i'll never leave you
and i feel the pain you feel
when you start crying
my best friend weezer
music is great.
in your darkest time
it's just enough to know it's there
when you go i'll let you be
but you're killing everything in me
polaris jimmy eat world
all you need is love is a lie cause
we had love but we still said goodbye
now we're tired, battered fighters
and it stings when it's nobody's fault
cause there's nothing to blame at the drop of your name
it's only the air you took and the breath you left
split screen sadness john mayer
you can find me
if you ever want again
i'll be around the bend
and if you never stop when you wave goodbye
you just might find if you give it time you will wave hello again
and that's the way this wheel keeps working now
i believe that my life's gonna see
the love i give returned to me
wheel john mayer
i tried my best, i gave my all
sometimes my best wasn't
good enough for you
sometimes i let you go
sometimes i hurt you so
i know that i can be
the meanest person in the world
so i apologize to you
and to anyone else that i hurt too
i may not be the perfect soul
but i can learn self-control
so pardon me, pardon me,
pardon me my friend
there's not one else to blame
for all the broken hearts
are scattered on the field of war
pardon me weezer
when everything is wrong
i come talk to you
you make things alright
when i'm feelin' blue
you are such a blessing
and i won't be messing
with the one thing that
brings light to all my darkness
you're my best friend
and i love you
and i love you
yes i do
there is no other one
who can take your place
i feel happy inside
when i see your face
i hope you believe me
cause i speak sincerely
and i mean it when i tell you
that i need you
i'm here right beside you
i'll never leave you
and i feel the pain you feel
when you start crying
my best friend weezer
music is great.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
i took the temperament test and i am definitely PHLEGMATIC!
my only hope is letting go.
and with you i am truly in my element..
what's best is not right.
..we were both selfish, but i think i was more. and i would like to thank you for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. we were young and dumb but it still was fun. i guess these things just tend to fall apart. and i hope you feel the same. and i would like to thank you for showing me a part of the world that i have never seen. i was young and i dumb but it still was fun, and forever indebted to you. you seemed like such a big part of my life and my heart..
this weekend was fun. i went out with steph on saturday. it was such a random and spontaneous day.. it was like "you wann go to the grove?" "ok." "let's go to ross" "cool. sure." "hey do you want to go to santa monica?" "YA!" "so how do we get there?" good times. then i went out with bryan and megan on sunday. we went to the grove and watched a lot like love. it reminded me a lot of school people. then we went to 3rd street promanade in santa monica. after we rode the ferris wheel on the pier. megan was freaked out! then we drove around FOREVER trying to find a place to eat. we ended up going to the olive garden in glendale. good times..
my only hope is letting go.
and with you i am truly in my element..
what's best is not right.
..we were both selfish, but i think i was more. and i would like to thank you for showing me a part of myself that i have never seen. we were young and dumb but it still was fun. i guess these things just tend to fall apart. and i hope you feel the same. and i would like to thank you for showing me a part of the world that i have never seen. i was young and i dumb but it still was fun, and forever indebted to you. you seemed like such a big part of my life and my heart..
this weekend was fun. i went out with steph on saturday. it was such a random and spontaneous day.. it was like "you wann go to the grove?" "ok." "let's go to ross" "cool. sure." "hey do you want to go to santa monica?" "YA!" "so how do we get there?" good times. then i went out with bryan and megan on sunday. we went to the grove and watched a lot like love. it reminded me a lot of school people. then we went to 3rd street promanade in santa monica. after we rode the ferris wheel on the pier. megan was freaked out! then we drove around FOREVER trying to find a place to eat. we ended up going to the olive garden in glendale. good times..
Thursday, May 05, 2005
i finally realized that you were never meant for me.
damn. daphne loves derby has such depressing lyrics! but i love it so.
we got ohno's two days in a row! and today's was free because the people screwed up our order yesterday. so yummy! freshman are so much fun! victor can do the ocho ocho soo well! he is in the adobo group with dana and dan and he even has his own little ube shake. ncie. and andrew has the halo halo shake. they are so funny! i am glad i am in this advisee. they crack me up!! =D
picnic is going to suck because we are not going to win anything! all of the people that do participate can't even go! what crap! stupid senior year! but i am really looking forward to grad nite. PAR-TAY!
damn. daphne loves derby has such depressing lyrics! but i love it so.
we got ohno's two days in a row! and today's was free because the people screwed up our order yesterday. so yummy! freshman are so much fun! victor can do the ocho ocho soo well! he is in the adobo group with dana and dan and he even has his own little ube shake. ncie. and andrew has the halo halo shake. they are so funny! i am glad i am in this advisee. they crack me up!! =D
picnic is going to suck because we are not going to win anything! all of the people that do participate can't even go! what crap! stupid senior year! but i am really looking forward to grad nite. PAR-TAY!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
steph (eating a lemon): this is sour!
me: it's a LEMON!
i am at my cousin's house and i am really bored.. so i thought "i should BLOG!" so here i am blogging. but now i have another dilemma.. what to blog? oh! my panda's back! i put it back a long time ago but for some reason i felt like i needed to put that here. i missed it sooo much! it is my favorite panda! it can be a pillow and it is perfect for hugging. and it is not too hard or too soft. so yeah. i got was eating at some chinese restaurant and my fortune said "a refreshing change is in your future." then last friday i got panda express and i got a fortune that said "you will find happiness in mind and heart." well then... we were in art and byron kept singing starting line songs. "PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME WITHOUT SAYING GOOD-BYE!" (i am saying the most random things on this blog!) i was listening to a mix cd that bryan gave (one of the seven gazillion that i have from him!! thanks though!) and now there are a bunch of lyrics stuck in my head. "for all this i'm better off without you." i don't know who sings that or what it is called. i really like this one monica song.. "don't you touch her like you used to touch me... don't you love her like you used to love me." such a sad song! well, graduation is in a month! crap. "here's to the nights we felt alive. here's to the tears you knew you'd cry. here's to good-bye. tomorrow's gonna come too soon." i am going to cry FOR SURE! i just hope that i do not do it while walking at graduation. there are so many people that are being mr. brightside. it seems like that is all everyone is lately.. "this is my devilish jealousy, which i pray God may be false, but it makes a very hell in my mind, which the God of heaven remove, or i shall be very unhappy." samuel pepys is not alone.. even though he lived like 300 years before us. I JUST CAN'T LOOK IT'S KILLING ME AND TAKING CONTROL! i know that i have felt that recently. the last two or three days of northern made me mr. brightside. it really took over wednesday and thursay. but northern was still fun. and the guys room did not smell as bad as last year! then again they had like five air fresheners in there. and damn guys! when girls are in a room puts some pants and a shirt on! freakin a! the last day was pretty cool because we got a lot of time in the city. i know my way around the place so well. i love it! i got to walk around alone and shop and just be by myself. that was fun! i don't know what else to write about northern except that last year was better! haha! BAA '04! we had more free time last year.. that is ozzie's system. bryan has this charlie brown thing and there is one panel that reminds me of me. it is like this one girl talking to this boy and asking if he is basically better than charlie brown. and he is but she does not understand why she like charlie brown more. it's like that song.. kind of. "he's everything you want. he's everything you need. he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be. he says all the right things at exactly the right time but he means nothing to you and you don't know why. you're waiting for someone to put you together. you're waiting for someone to push you away. there's always another wound to discover. there's always something more you wish he'd say." haha! sorry bryan.. but it's not like it matters anyway. i guess that is all. peace out, yo!
me: it's a LEMON!
i am at my cousin's house and i am really bored.. so i thought "i should BLOG!" so here i am blogging. but now i have another dilemma.. what to blog? oh! my panda's back! i put it back a long time ago but for some reason i felt like i needed to put that here. i missed it sooo much! it is my favorite panda! it can be a pillow and it is perfect for hugging. and it is not too hard or too soft. so yeah. i got was eating at some chinese restaurant and my fortune said "a refreshing change is in your future." then last friday i got panda express and i got a fortune that said "you will find happiness in mind and heart." well then... we were in art and byron kept singing starting line songs. "PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME WITHOUT SAYING GOOD-BYE!" (i am saying the most random things on this blog!) i was listening to a mix cd that bryan gave (one of the seven gazillion that i have from him!! thanks though!) and now there are a bunch of lyrics stuck in my head. "for all this i'm better off without you." i don't know who sings that or what it is called. i really like this one monica song.. "don't you touch her like you used to touch me... don't you love her like you used to love me." such a sad song! well, graduation is in a month! crap. "here's to the nights we felt alive. here's to the tears you knew you'd cry. here's to good-bye. tomorrow's gonna come too soon." i am going to cry FOR SURE! i just hope that i do not do it while walking at graduation. there are so many people that are being mr. brightside. it seems like that is all everyone is lately.. "this is my devilish jealousy, which i pray God may be false, but it makes a very hell in my mind, which the God of heaven remove, or i shall be very unhappy." samuel pepys is not alone.. even though he lived like 300 years before us. I JUST CAN'T LOOK IT'S KILLING ME AND TAKING CONTROL! i know that i have felt that recently. the last two or three days of northern made me mr. brightside. it really took over wednesday and thursay. but northern was still fun. and the guys room did not smell as bad as last year! then again they had like five air fresheners in there. and damn guys! when girls are in a room puts some pants and a shirt on! freakin a! the last day was pretty cool because we got a lot of time in the city. i know my way around the place so well. i love it! i got to walk around alone and shop and just be by myself. that was fun! i don't know what else to write about northern except that last year was better! haha! BAA '04! we had more free time last year.. that is ozzie's system. bryan has this charlie brown thing and there is one panel that reminds me of me. it is like this one girl talking to this boy and asking if he is basically better than charlie brown. and he is but she does not understand why she like charlie brown more. it's like that song.. kind of. "he's everything you want. he's everything you need. he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be. he says all the right things at exactly the right time but he means nothing to you and you don't know why. you're waiting for someone to put you together. you're waiting for someone to push you away. there's always another wound to discover. there's always something more you wish he'd say." haha! sorry bryan.. but it's not like it matters anyway. i guess that is all. peace out, yo!
Friday, April 29, 2005
it is our last night at northern... aww! i can't believe i actually blogged twice on this trip. how weird! there have been a lot of things going on in my mind. i have all these mixed emotions about things. like i want to talk to certain people but i have too much pride to start. i should get passed that but i do not want to deal with it. i have felt so many emotions on this trip. i have been sad, mad, happy, anxious, and sick to my stomach. we went up to twin peaks today and i was so sad. it is better when you have someone to share those kinds of experiences with. ugh...
ok. i am in the guys room and i am fuel to blog. fucking people piss me off! it's my own damn fault for everything.. wel l not everything. i have learned that nothing is ALL my fault.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
one more month of school left. that is one of the few things that gets me through the tough days because i know that i will never have to see them again or feel any of this shit again. i can move on with my life forever and never look back.
today was kind of fun though. i got to walkt around sf and be like a city girl. it was so fun!
WE SHOULD GO TO NEW YORK! it would be so fun! just walk around aimlessly and be stupid. we will be 20 so that means that we cannot drink yet and we won't be tempted to go into clubs. haha! we should! we REALLLY should! and we should watch a musical. two years...
ok. i am in the guys room and i am fuel to blog. fucking people piss me off! it's my own damn fault for everything.. wel l not everything. i have learned that nothing is ALL my fault.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
one more month of school left. that is one of the few things that gets me through the tough days because i know that i will never have to see them again or feel any of this shit again. i can move on with my life forever and never look back.
today was kind of fun though. i got to walkt around sf and be like a city girl. it was so fun!
WE SHOULD GO TO NEW YORK! it would be so fun! just walk around aimlessly and be stupid. we will be 20 so that means that we cannot drink yet and we won't be tempted to go into clubs. haha! we should! we REALLLY should! and we should watch a musical. two years...
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
I JUST CAN'T LOOK IT'S KILLING ME AND TAKING CONTROL!
damn it... this northern trip is really fun but there are just some parts that i cannot take. i really wish megan was here. she would know what to do to make me feel a little better. ugh! just one more month.
i was talking to people about long distance relationships and i do not think that they can work unless you have a solid foundation first. but you can't really establish that if you are away from each other. it is not the same to talk to someone on the phone and to talk to them in person. and if you want a long distance relationship to work you cannot just have it start off as one. spending time with that person is important and a foundation cannot be made in just a short amount of time. even if you are friends for a loooong time it does not matter. there is a BIG difference in being someone's friend and being in a relationship with them.
I HATE THIS! I HATE FEELING THIS WAY! SOMEBODY SAVE ME...
damn it... this northern trip is really fun but there are just some parts that i cannot take. i really wish megan was here. she would know what to do to make me feel a little better. ugh! just one more month.
i was talking to people about long distance relationships and i do not think that they can work unless you have a solid foundation first. but you can't really establish that if you are away from each other. it is not the same to talk to someone on the phone and to talk to them in person. and if you want a long distance relationship to work you cannot just have it start off as one. spending time with that person is important and a foundation cannot be made in just a short amount of time. even if you are friends for a loooong time it does not matter. there is a BIG difference in being someone's friend and being in a relationship with them.
I HATE THIS! I HATE FEELING THIS WAY! SOMEBODY SAVE ME...
Monday, April 18, 2005
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with...
"I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away....
nothing in this world worth having comes easy
margaritas without alcohol is like sex without a partner.
i like those quotes. whee! that last one was because i was telling erin and them that i regretted not getting a real margarita in ensenada. then she came up with that. and then rachel said “because it is virgin!” haha! get it get it?
khaing, jen, and i were talking about boys and how they can get over things more easily than girls. (this was right after masaki and khaing broke up.) they do not forget about it. they can just move on a lot faster than girls can, which is VERY true. but there are exceptions, of course.
i have been thinking about this for a while now and i meant to blog it before but i never got a chance. or maybe i did but i was just too lazy... i will just come out and say it, she can’t fill my shoes. and i know that if it was the other way around i could never fill her shoes. and that helps me a lot. i know that i was special in some way and that no one can ever duplicate or replace me. that goes for anyone. so, yay! =)
i am really craving that hersey pie from burger king. dang it! i wish i went out to eat today but they left so quickly. maybe tomorrow.
have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you couldn’t? or more like shouldn’t. AAAHHH! blah.
"I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away....
nothing in this world worth having comes easy
margaritas without alcohol is like sex without a partner.
i like those quotes. whee! that last one was because i was telling erin and them that i regretted not getting a real margarita in ensenada. then she came up with that. and then rachel said “because it is virgin!” haha! get it get it?
khaing, jen, and i were talking about boys and how they can get over things more easily than girls. (this was right after masaki and khaing broke up.) they do not forget about it. they can just move on a lot faster than girls can, which is VERY true. but there are exceptions, of course.
i have been thinking about this for a while now and i meant to blog it before but i never got a chance. or maybe i did but i was just too lazy... i will just come out and say it, she can’t fill my shoes. and i know that if it was the other way around i could never fill her shoes. and that helps me a lot. i know that i was special in some way and that no one can ever duplicate or replace me. that goes for anyone. so, yay! =)
i am really craving that hersey pie from burger king. dang it! i wish i went out to eat today but they left so quickly. maybe tomorrow.
have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you couldn’t? or more like shouldn’t. AAAHHH! blah.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
and maybe what's good gets a little bit better, and maybe what's bad gets gone. let's hope so...
i am at erin's house right now for debut practice. i like blogging on other people's computers because they are a lot faster than mine. haha! but when i blog it is always like at 2 am. we are trying to cut up our shirts for the hip hop thing. i think it will look hot but i dunno. i am really tired. we danced for about four hours today. grr... but cruise is in two days! wOOts!
i was making my bed yesterday and i felt kind of weird not putting my favorite panda on top of it. i mean i have not been doing that for a few weeks now but it just seemed sad. i was talking to jen about it and she asked me if i could just put the panda there and not think about the sentimental value of it. i do not know about that right now but i think later on i will be able to. i love that panda! it is the bestest panda ever! EVER! it got me through some tough times. haha! but seriously, i miss it. i want it back. but i know i can't have it on my bed just yet.
chorale and bell choir did their thing at white memorial today. i was telling bryan that i could not believe i felt awkward in my own church. it was so weird. i'm feelin' it! but at potluck khaing was asking me about something that chandler said during "friends" and i told her to ask bryan because he was chandler. then khaing goes "why are you chandler? you're not funny!" haha! aww.. it's ok, bryan. i think you're funny in that sarcastic way. i mean i think you are funny because you are sarcastic not that i am being sarcastic by thinking you are funny. get it? ok. i am sure you do.
oh! i had the weirdest dream last night! we were finishing up our "pride and prejudice" essays in class like we did in friday (in real life) and i finished writing it three minutes before class ended. but then i realized that i still had to type it out for some reason but i did not have time. i do not type that fast. so i look under my desk and all i have to use to type out my paper is a typewriter, the manual kind. so i was freaking out about my paper. and to top it off ms. rich passed back a bunch of papers while we were taking the test so i could not figure out which ones were part of my essay or not. then we had a bible extra credit thing. it was weird. it was me, this guy i do not know, michelle, some other girls, and chris. we had to play basketball and every point you made you got one point of extra credit. but it was brutal! everyone was getting hit on the face and getting into fights. it was crazy! and then my dream ended because khaing texted me. then i went back to sleep then my alarm woke me up, then i went back to sleep and jed called me, then i went back to sleep then bryan called me. after that i gave up on sleeping and just got ready to go to church.
oh! i think i am getting into naruto! it is really good. i want more episodes. and jen made me play a game. then i found out later that it was maple story. how weird! i like it. but i do not think i will be getting into that anytime soon. my computer is too slow for that. haha! i am going to go cut up my shirt for hip hop. bye!
*i hope you find that one person worth fighting for.
i am at erin's house right now for debut practice. i like blogging on other people's computers because they are a lot faster than mine. haha! but when i blog it is always like at 2 am. we are trying to cut up our shirts for the hip hop thing. i think it will look hot but i dunno. i am really tired. we danced for about four hours today. grr... but cruise is in two days! wOOts!
i was making my bed yesterday and i felt kind of weird not putting my favorite panda on top of it. i mean i have not been doing that for a few weeks now but it just seemed sad. i was talking to jen about it and she asked me if i could just put the panda there and not think about the sentimental value of it. i do not know about that right now but i think later on i will be able to. i love that panda! it is the bestest panda ever! EVER! it got me through some tough times. haha! but seriously, i miss it. i want it back. but i know i can't have it on my bed just yet.
chorale and bell choir did their thing at white memorial today. i was telling bryan that i could not believe i felt awkward in my own church. it was so weird. i'm feelin' it! but at potluck khaing was asking me about something that chandler said during "friends" and i told her to ask bryan because he was chandler. then khaing goes "why are you chandler? you're not funny!" haha! aww.. it's ok, bryan. i think you're funny in that sarcastic way. i mean i think you are funny because you are sarcastic not that i am being sarcastic by thinking you are funny. get it? ok. i am sure you do.
oh! i had the weirdest dream last night! we were finishing up our "pride and prejudice" essays in class like we did in friday (in real life) and i finished writing it three minutes before class ended. but then i realized that i still had to type it out for some reason but i did not have time. i do not type that fast. so i look under my desk and all i have to use to type out my paper is a typewriter, the manual kind. so i was freaking out about my paper. and to top it off ms. rich passed back a bunch of papers while we were taking the test so i could not figure out which ones were part of my essay or not. then we had a bible extra credit thing. it was weird. it was me, this guy i do not know, michelle, some other girls, and chris. we had to play basketball and every point you made you got one point of extra credit. but it was brutal! everyone was getting hit on the face and getting into fights. it was crazy! and then my dream ended because khaing texted me. then i went back to sleep then my alarm woke me up, then i went back to sleep and jed called me, then i went back to sleep then bryan called me. after that i gave up on sleeping and just got ready to go to church.
oh! i think i am getting into naruto! it is really good. i want more episodes. and jen made me play a game. then i found out later that it was maple story. how weird! i like it. but i do not think i will be getting into that anytime soon. my computer is too slow for that. haha! i am going to go cut up my shirt for hip hop. bye!
*i hope you find that one person worth fighting for.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
you know what kind of pisses me off, when someone has never heard a some before and then tried to sing along with it and they are just trying to guess the words. i am trying to enjoy the effin song but they are kind of ruining it for me. yeah. that pisses me off.
if there is anything going on i would really like to know. i do not like it when people try to hide it. it is eventually going to come out if there is something going on. but if there is and it is being hidden from me i will be even more pissed off than if you just told me. actually, if you just told me i would be better off. i am passed my bitter stage. i want them to be happy. but if they cannot respect me enough and just tell me if anything is going on, if there is anything, then fuck em! if you don't respect me then why should i give a fuck! DON'T EFFIN HIDE IT FROM ME! damn! and if there is something happening, then please have a little mercy on me and do not flaunt it around me. have some compassion for someone who has been hurt and is trying to move it. i think that is all the venting i have for today. =)
cRUise! wOOts! i can't wait! i am kind of scared about what megan has to tell me about what she did in the toilet. it is about her poop. i am scared. now i have to think about something to freak her out because i know that after she tells me i will not be able to sleep or eat. haha! i hope i have a lot of fun on the cruise! but the next day after we get back i have to go to erin's debut and do five dances. fudge! but we get to sleep in a hotel. wOOts! and the day after that... well, people that i talk to know what is going to happen. double wOOts for that! SO EXCITING! i know there is going to be a lot of drama during the cruise. but that is ok. i have my friends around me and they are the best! i <3 you guys! =)
if there is anything going on i would really like to know. i do not like it when people try to hide it. it is eventually going to come out if there is something going on. but if there is and it is being hidden from me i will be even more pissed off than if you just told me. actually, if you just told me i would be better off. i am passed my bitter stage. i want them to be happy. but if they cannot respect me enough and just tell me if anything is going on, if there is anything, then fuck em! if you don't respect me then why should i give a fuck! DON'T EFFIN HIDE IT FROM ME! damn! and if there is something happening, then please have a little mercy on me and do not flaunt it around me. have some compassion for someone who has been hurt and is trying to move it. i think that is all the venting i have for today. =)
cRUise! wOOts! i can't wait! i am kind of scared about what megan has to tell me about what she did in the toilet. it is about her poop. i am scared. now i have to think about something to freak her out because i know that after she tells me i will not be able to sleep or eat. haha! i hope i have a lot of fun on the cruise! but the next day after we get back i have to go to erin's debut and do five dances. fudge! but we get to sleep in a hotel. wOOts! and the day after that... well, people that i talk to know what is going to happen. double wOOts for that! SO EXCITING! i know there is going to be a lot of drama during the cruise. but that is ok. i have my friends around me and they are the best! i <3 you guys! =)
Thursday, March 10, 2005
some people do not see what is in front of them. instead they want something that they cannot have. there are so many other people that want them and can treat them so much better. but they are so blinded by this other person that they cannot even see these amazing people that would give them everything and not treat them like shit! change subject... today was so awkward. i went into ms. iversen’s room and there were only four of us in there. it felt so weird. even with more people it felt weird. and then i saw them together and they walked by me and i felt so awkward. i was so excited for the cruise. and then today we had a class meeting where they passed out the list of who was in who’s group. that is when i started to dread going to cruise. i do not want to see that. but today made me realize that even if it is awkward for me and i am still getting hurt a little, i still love and care about him. and i want him to be happy, even if that means me having to go through all of that. but still, it pains me so much to see, hear, and read certain things. and every time that happens it is like a sharp stab to my heart.
i know i did the right thing.
i know i did the right thing.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Okay, so I came over here to ask you to dance, but I'm kind of concerned. I mean, we could hit it off really well, end up having a few drinks, next thing you know you're giving me your number because I'm too shy to ask for it, I finally get up the nerve to call and we take in a movie, have some dinner, I relax, you relax, we go out a few more times, get to know each other's friends, spend a lot of time together, then finally have get past this sexual tension and really develop this intense sex life that is truly incredible, decide our relationship is solid and stable, so we move in together for a while, then a few months later get married, I get a promotion, you get a promotion, we buy a bigger house. You really want kids, but I really want freedom, but we have a kid anyway, only to find that I am resentful, the sparks start to fade and to rekindle them we have two more lovely kids, but now I work too much to keep up with the bills, have no time for you, you're stressed and stop taking really good care of yourself, so to get past our slow sex life and my declining self-confidence I turn to an outside affair for sexual gratification. You find out because I'm careless and a lousy liar, you throw me out (justifiably so) and we have to explain to the kids why mommy and daddy are splitting up. That's just too sad. Think about the children. For God's sake, if you dance with me and we hit it off, let's just keep it sexual, because we both know where it's going.
i just really wanted to share that lovely pick up line. i love it! i feel like i have not blogged in a long time. blah!!! lately i have been feeling like i made a mistake. i guess i just miss how things were before. i miss the talking and hanging out. but i know that if i undid what i recently did, nothing would change. it would just be the same. but was i wrong? should i not have done that? only time will tell. thinking about jr/sr is... uuuhhh. i do not mind AT ALL that i do not have a date. just the whole situation is making me dread going. i am really not looking forward to it. things could happen. and i do not know how i am going to handle it if it does. and to make things worst/interesting, northern is a week later. but at least at northern i know i can go off on my own for long periods of time to get away from everything. i know that whenever there is free time in the city, i will probably be somewhere else and not with the group. i know that i do not belong there or at least with the people going. i kind of regret not trying out for chorale. i am sure i would have more fun there. but there is nothing i can do about it now. i just have to make the best of it. i can get through this. i know i can. lksdjflksaksdfasjfkjsdjsdfjsda;fjsdkfljaskljdfkasjdf;asdkf! it is kind of sad that my friends do not talk to me about some things anymore. i do not know why. it just sucks. but it is their business so i really can’t say much about this. whatever.
i just really wanted to share that lovely pick up line. i love it! i feel like i have not blogged in a long time. blah!!! lately i have been feeling like i made a mistake. i guess i just miss how things were before. i miss the talking and hanging out. but i know that if i undid what i recently did, nothing would change. it would just be the same. but was i wrong? should i not have done that? only time will tell. thinking about jr/sr is... uuuhhh. i do not mind AT ALL that i do not have a date. just the whole situation is making me dread going. i am really not looking forward to it. things could happen. and i do not know how i am going to handle it if it does. and to make things worst/interesting, northern is a week later. but at least at northern i know i can go off on my own for long periods of time to get away from everything. i know that whenever there is free time in the city, i will probably be somewhere else and not with the group. i know that i do not belong there or at least with the people going. i kind of regret not trying out for chorale. i am sure i would have more fun there. but there is nothing i can do about it now. i just have to make the best of it. i can get through this. i know i can. lksdjflksaksdfasjfkjsdjsdfjsda;fjsdkfljaskljdfkasjdf;asdkf! it is kind of sad that my friends do not talk to me about some things anymore. i do not know why. it just sucks. but it is their business so i really can’t say much about this. whatever.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
i want you out of my life. this is hard for me to say but i need to do this. i do not know what to believe anymore. you tell me that there is nothing going on. but your words do not match your actions. i am not the only one that sees this. and others also agree with me. but you tell them the same thing you tell me. but i do not know anymore. the first time you told me, i trusted you. then i asked you again but i was not sure if i should trust you. i decided to believe it. maybe i just wanted to believe what i wanted to believe. but if i asked you again now, i know i will not believe you. the little trust i had in you is now gone. i cannot afford to have my heart broken by you again. it will hurt too much. once was enough. but that was not all i got. i know you never deliberately tried to hurt me. but the fact still remains that you did. even if you said that you wanted me back, which i am just stating as a hypothetical situation since i am sure you would never say this, i would not change my mind about wanting you out of my life. you do not deserve me. you had your chance and you blew it. you knew that i still had feelings for you, but you didn’t seem to care. you said that you were sorry that i was in pain. but it does not seem like it. you seem to be sorry because you are the one causing me the pain. if it was anyone else that was causing me pain, i bet you would not even care since it does not have anything to do with you. my heart is far too weak to run for you this long. but you probably don’t care at all. i used to want you in my life so much. but now that desire is long gone. we said that we would “try to be friends.” look how well that turned out. we went from best friends to nothing at all. but now i know i can live without you. i am probably better off because my heart will not longer ache. i am doing this so i can tell you how i feel and move on. i know that we are not in each other’s lives but saying this to you will make it official. i need you to know how i feel and i need to know how you feel. but most importantly, i need to know the truth. if there is anything that you are trying to hide, i need to know. please do not try to spare my feelings. you have not done it anytime lately so why do it now. please tell me the truth. if you cared for me anytime in your life then please tell me the complete and honest truth. i can’t stand being left in the dark, especially while i am getting hurt in the process. so please tell me. but after that i want you out of my life. i need you out of my life.
damn. it hurts. why do these things happen to me? why do i have to feel this way? it is like God said, “ok jennifer. you were happy all freshman year, sophomore year, and most of junior year. now it is time for you to be miserable. i have to balance it out. it would not be fair for you to be happy all the time. ok. here comes the misery.” i know that it is really not like that but that is just how it feels like. maybe this is happening to me so i can be stronger. i am getting stronger. what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, right? this has been the worst week i have ever had in my life. i can honestly say that. i had so much drama with my friends. so much! then more problems with my nonexistent love life. at least one thing is fixed. but i hate how this hurts so much!
damn. it hurts. why do these things happen to me? why do i have to feel this way? it is like God said, “ok jennifer. you were happy all freshman year, sophomore year, and most of junior year. now it is time for you to be miserable. i have to balance it out. it would not be fair for you to be happy all the time. ok. here comes the misery.” i know that it is really not like that but that is just how it feels like. maybe this is happening to me so i can be stronger. i am getting stronger. what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, right? this has been the worst week i have ever had in my life. i can honestly say that. i had so much drama with my friends. so much! then more problems with my nonexistent love life. at least one thing is fixed. but i hate how this hurts so much!
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
Monday, February 28, 2005
i have been getting hurt so much lately. before i went to puc i got a paper cut on my finger. and it is in the creases where your fingers bend so every time i bent my finger or something came in contact with it, it would hurt like a mother! then after puc i was taking a shower and i saw two bruises on my leg. i probably got it from puc but i do not know how. then i got a cut from who knows where. and on friday i was “trying to be slick” and a got a splinter on my finger. but the worst injury i got was also the most embarrassing. i went to ozzie’s room to give him a check for northern. when i was opening the door, jessie and kyle were coming. so when i opened it, jessie pushed it back so it would not hit him. and since i am short the door knob hit me on my boob. it hurt so bad! you do not even know the pain! it is probably like when a guy gets kicked in the nuts. but i would not know. after that i was talking to phil. bryan walked in and i told him that i got hit in the boob. at first he thought that phil did it. but when i told him that it was the door knob he started laughing. so did megan. yeah. i know i am short! so what. but now i have a bruise on my boob. it is the worst bruise i have ever gotten in my life. that is not good. cancer! let’s hope that never happens. so much pain.
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
i have been getting hurt so much lately. before i went to puc i got a paper cut on my finger. and it is in the creases where your fingers bend so every time i bent my finger or something came in contact with it, it would hurt like a mother! then after puc i was taking a shower and i saw two bruises on my leg. i probably got it from puc but i do not know how. then i got a cut from who knows where. and on friday i was “trying to be slick” and a got a splinter on my finger. but the worst injury i got was also the most embarrassing. i went to ozzie’s room to give him a check for northern. when i was opening the door, jessie and kyle were coming. so when i opened it, jessie pushed it back so it would not hit him. and since i am short the door knob hit me on my boob. it hurt so bad! you do not even know the pain! it is probably like when a guy gets kicked in the nuts. but i would not know. after that i was talking to phil. bryan walked in and i told him that i got hit in the boob. at first he thought that phil did it. but when i told him that it was the door knob he started laughing. so did megan. yeah. i know i am short! so what. but now i have a bruise on my boob. it is the worst bruise i have ever gotten in my life. that is not good. cancer! let’s hope that never happens. so much pain.
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
Friday, February 25, 2005
from "The Idler" No. 23. Saturday, 23 September 1758
Life has no pleasure higher or nobler than that of friendship. It is painful to consider that this sublime enjoyment may be impaired or destroyed by innumerable causes, and that there is no human possession of which the duration is less certain...
Those who would gladly pass their days together may be seperated by the different courses of their affairs; and the friendship, like love, is destroyed by long absence, though it may be increased by short intermissions. What we have missed long enough to want it we value more when it is regained; but that which has been lost till it is forgotten, will be found at las with little gladness, and with still less if a substitute has supplied the place...
i am so sad. this is how it is going to be during college. but this is how it is for me with some people right now. =(
Life has no pleasure higher or nobler than that of friendship. It is painful to consider that this sublime enjoyment may be impaired or destroyed by innumerable causes, and that there is no human possession of which the duration is less certain...
Those who would gladly pass their days together may be seperated by the different courses of their affairs; and the friendship, like love, is destroyed by long absence, though it may be increased by short intermissions. What we have missed long enough to want it we value more when it is regained; but that which has been lost till it is forgotten, will be found at las with little gladness, and with still less if a substitute has supplied the place...
i am so sad. this is how it is going to be during college. but this is how it is for me with some people right now. =(
Thursday, February 24, 2005
i don’t care. i shall wear my heart on my sleeve. or my blog. whatever. i am tired of having feelings for someone when i know that it will and can never happen. you see them everyday and you know you shouldn’t be thinking certain things. but “some of us prefer illusion to despair.” (i like referring to bryan’s blog.) i have to stop myself from thinking that it could, might, will. NO! it won’t! i really need a slap on the face (and not from megan) so i can just stop. i know it will NEVER happen. i just want it to stop COMPLETELY. i am tired. i can’t take it anymore. i do not want to worry anymore. hearts heal, don’t they? four months of school left. maybe then... i can’t believe i am actually considering going to PUC. when i went up there i felt really comfortable. i am not usually like that. maybe i am just “coming out of my shell.” but it was so much fun! especially when it was just me and megan at the dorm. if we roomed together it would be so fun! but i do not know. day after day i am considering it more and more. i wish that i could take LSU’s nursing program and put it at PUC. then i would go there for sure! but the chance of that happening is zero. =( i will just have to choose then. this is so hard! i have a roommate for LSU already. but i love PUC. I LOVE YOU ANGWIN! haha. it is so beautiful up there. if i go to LSU i can visit bryan at PUC and we can eat at giunis. he promised. this is so hard! i really do not know what school to go to. i went to PUC college days so i could miss school. i never thought i would actually like it up there! waa! i am in a pickle. i don’t want to grow up. PUC? LSU? help.
partyboybryan87: i'm watching scrubs
xxji2z3n1ferxx: gay!
partyboybryan87: and turk and carla picked a date for their wedding
partyboybryan87: april 24th
oh yeah. we are leaving on april 24, 2005 for northern. great.
everything reminds me...
partyboybryan87: i'm watching scrubs
xxji2z3n1ferxx: gay!
partyboybryan87: and turk and carla picked a date for their wedding
partyboybryan87: april 24th
oh yeah. we are leaving on april 24, 2005 for northern. great.
everything reminds me...
Sunday, February 20, 2005
yay! i am at puc.. i am not going here for college though. but bob and ivy are. and megan might. bryan is so happy. megan's a maybe!!! jennifer's not. FISHES! CHICKEN! i felt pretty comfortable when i got here. that is pretty weird because i have never really been here for a whole 24 hours. but it was realy comfortable. bryan was scared for a while but then he was with his people (haha) he got really comfortable. it is his home. anyways... classes were really boring. i knocked out because we only got a few hours of sleep. we had to switch rooms last night. we are staying with brig's cousin and pastor chung's cousin. they are so nice! they have so much food! i love it! we went to the jelly belly factory. bryan passed on his arm pain to me while we were on the bus. we both got kind of pissed off because the people were being such big asses! damn! the tour was so boring. we were going to get ice cream but we decided to wait until northern. i do not think i am going on the tour when we go to northern. i am just going to get ice cream and hang out at the cafe. the bus ride back was better. jelly bean fights! haha... today was interesting. i never go to breakfast. but i think tomorrow we actually will. stacey knocked out durning church. my cousin came. it is his birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! well i guess it was yesterday because it is 2 am at the moment. whee! but the highlight of my trip, so far, was the dating game! bryan and megan were one of the contestants! bryan won! he won a date with adrin.. i think that is how you spell her name. megan did not win though. it was so great! =) the tsunami releaf concert was good. there was rapping and hip hop dancing which was surprising to bryan. and now i am at the dorm. our hosts are not here. they are par-taying. haha! megan, bob, ashley, and brig are knocked out. ivy left already. i do not really know what to say now. oh! i learned some korean! i can carry a short, and i emphasize the word SHORT, conversation with bryan. yay for me! well that is all for me. peace out! =)
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
"'Cause even if it breaks your heart to be 'just friends', if you really care about someone, you'll take the hit."
people always leave... but sometimes they come back.
singles’ awareness day. it was not as bad as i thought. it actually went pretty well. i really thought that i would be totally bitter and hating it because of what happened last year. but not the case. when i got to school people were so surprised that i was wearing a skirt. I CAN’T BELIEVE I WORE A FREAKING SKIRT! people were literally announcing it to everyone. LITERALLY! i got some compliments so that made me happy.. one of the reasons why this day was not so crappy. but for some reason when i got to econ, i got brought down. it was so depressing. but then art cheered me up. from then on i felt pretty darn good. i helped get ready for the box lunch. i did not get to see the room until later. but when i saw it, it was so beautiful! our box lunch was special because it was not a normal one. we had two. kind of... we used the copy room for our “ghetto” one. it was just this cheap thing with techno music. we fed them cookies, mini burritos, california rolls, cheese, crackers, and water. the guys spent $85 on that. or so they thought. haha! they were trying to be happy but you could tell they were disappointed. but after a while, we told them that we were going to get them dessert and to close their eyes and get up. when you walk into lilybeth’s room the lights are off. there is a pathway you have to walk through of lights and candles. that led you to a candle lit table underneath icicle lights and paper hearts that were on the ceiling. the guys sat down where we put chocolate roses and they girls could sit anywhere else. the girls served the guys. there was roast, bread, pancit, california rolls, spaghetti, lasagna, enchiladas, and i think that is all. then dessert came... DESSERT!!! joanna brought those really good candy apples from her work. it was a green apple dipped in caramel, then dipped in white chocolate with graham cracker bits all over. yum... then we had berries with whipped cream. it was so sexy! haha! sarah made a seven layer cake. it had this brownie/cake layer and it had fudge and caramel, and whip cream, and all this other stuff. so friggin good! =) i was so full! we did not finish in time so people ditched english and bible to clean. it was pretty funny... we didn’t really know how well ms. rich takes bribes. but it was food. i got a lot of candy today.. but no flowers. whatever. =/ i went home and it was such an interesting night. i was talking to bryan about certain things. then chris IMed me about the most random thing. i was kind of scared but i felt like i was being more open than i have been in the past. i do not really know what northern is going to be like. i have a feeling i will be outside of my room a lot and just listening to music. bryan called me at around 11 pm because he had to vent or talk or something of that nature. we talked for about an hour and a half about all the drama. northern is going to be great. =/ so much drama. at least i am not really a part of it. once this thing blows up it will be so weird. i feel so out of place with the northern group this year. i think it will not be as fun as last year, but gotta make the best out of it. to quote bryan “i hate valentine’s day.”
people always leave... but sometimes they come back.
singles’ awareness day. it was not as bad as i thought. it actually went pretty well. i really thought that i would be totally bitter and hating it because of what happened last year. but not the case. when i got to school people were so surprised that i was wearing a skirt. I CAN’T BELIEVE I WORE A FREAKING SKIRT! people were literally announcing it to everyone. LITERALLY! i got some compliments so that made me happy.. one of the reasons why this day was not so crappy. but for some reason when i got to econ, i got brought down. it was so depressing. but then art cheered me up. from then on i felt pretty darn good. i helped get ready for the box lunch. i did not get to see the room until later. but when i saw it, it was so beautiful! our box lunch was special because it was not a normal one. we had two. kind of... we used the copy room for our “ghetto” one. it was just this cheap thing with techno music. we fed them cookies, mini burritos, california rolls, cheese, crackers, and water. the guys spent $85 on that. or so they thought. haha! they were trying to be happy but you could tell they were disappointed. but after a while, we told them that we were going to get them dessert and to close their eyes and get up. when you walk into lilybeth’s room the lights are off. there is a pathway you have to walk through of lights and candles. that led you to a candle lit table underneath icicle lights and paper hearts that were on the ceiling. the guys sat down where we put chocolate roses and they girls could sit anywhere else. the girls served the guys. there was roast, bread, pancit, california rolls, spaghetti, lasagna, enchiladas, and i think that is all. then dessert came... DESSERT!!! joanna brought those really good candy apples from her work. it was a green apple dipped in caramel, then dipped in white chocolate with graham cracker bits all over. yum... then we had berries with whipped cream. it was so sexy! haha! sarah made a seven layer cake. it had this brownie/cake layer and it had fudge and caramel, and whip cream, and all this other stuff. so friggin good! =) i was so full! we did not finish in time so people ditched english and bible to clean. it was pretty funny... we didn’t really know how well ms. rich takes bribes. but it was food. i got a lot of candy today.. but no flowers. whatever. =/ i went home and it was such an interesting night. i was talking to bryan about certain things. then chris IMed me about the most random thing. i was kind of scared but i felt like i was being more open than i have been in the past. i do not really know what northern is going to be like. i have a feeling i will be outside of my room a lot and just listening to music. bryan called me at around 11 pm because he had to vent or talk or something of that nature. we talked for about an hour and a half about all the drama. northern is going to be great. =/ so much drama. at least i am not really a part of it. once this thing blows up it will be so weird. i feel so out of place with the northern group this year. i think it will not be as fun as last year, but gotta make the best out of it. to quote bryan “i hate valentine’s day.”
Thursday, February 10, 2005
wow. haven’t blogged in a while. today was pretty fun. i was really giddy. i do not know why. i love art! it is my favorite class. all of the stress that i have just seems to disappear when i paint. west was being kind of retarded in art. it was so funny! when i was walking to physics i got kind of pissed off because i saw something. i was telling bryan that boys are gay and they lie and all that. then i went outside with bryan and jon jon. i was venting to them about how boys are gay. which is ironic considering that they are guys. =) we did not really do much in physics. i am pretty excited about the projects we have to do. ((this blog seems kind of boring. will anyone even read this?)) the freshmen did really well in chapel! victor can sing! he is so cute. he is like a little brother. they have so many talented people in their class. i talked to adam about his issues. aww! boys and girls suck! i got chocolate in chapel. yay! we watched this weird show in precal. i dunno. at least we did not have to do work. i talked to megan and bryan at lunch. MEGAN CAN GO TO PUC! i am so happy. she tried to tell me a million times but for some reason i did not get it. i got so sad. we were talking about our yearbook page. so many memories. four years went by so fast! i am going to cry on graduation day that is for sure. i gave blood! squeezing the ball every five seconds was probably the hardest thing! but i get a pint, or 12 oz in california, of free ice cream at baskin robins. but the highlight of my day was when i was walking to my locker and ms. rich was in front of me. then connie yelled from the balcony “hey ho!” and i was just like “hey...” i didn’t want to say “hey slut!” i was kind of scared ms. rich heard connie but i highly doubt it. ah megan, if you read this, i hate you! hahah...
Monday, December 27, 2004
december 26, 2004 was the best day after christmas i have ever had! my parents dropped me off at glendale galleria. i thought that i would be shopping alone but when i got to american eagle, gian popped out of nowhere and kevin was there with him. we went to abercrombie. i was looking through the sales table and i found a bag hidden in there. it was so cute! i did not know whether to buy it or not. i checked if it was on sale and IT WAS! but i was still unsure. i aksed gian and kevin if i should get is and they talked me into it. that bag was the best impulse buy i have ever done! they wanted to eat so i just went along with them. we ate at itchiban. philadelphia rolls are so good! then i went by myself to shop. i got these bags for only $10. then i went to american eagle and got the hoodie i have been wanting for a long time. christmas money is great! i came across those soft pillow carts. so i bought one for someone and a smaller one for our white elephant game later on that night. i was so tired of walking. so i went to borders to wait for jen to pick me up. i saw jen, teo, and andrew there. weird. i wrapped my presents and jen and i went to kevin's house. i was in a pissy mood but not too pissy. we played the white elephant game. i got this checkers thing. then for the secret santa, teo got me and he got me my phantom of the opera cd. yay! we ate. the prime rib was soooooooo good! and so was the strawberry chessecake. =) i was getting out of the car when jen dropped me off at home when i saw someone that looked like jed. so i called his name and it was jed. that was so werid! he wa there with ronan, xyra, and their cousin jasmine. they came to my house. xyra was taking pictures of the view from my balcony. then we went to their aunt's house which they were sleeping over at that night. we watched this filipino movie called "all my life." it was so long! then we watched "shaolin soccer." that has got to be the weirdest movie i have ever seen! it was fun! i went home at about 1 am. it was a tiring day. but so worth it!
Thursday, December 23, 2004
and two months later...
haha! sorry about that. i guess blogging just isn't my thing. today i went to watch the nutcracker at uci. it was better than i expected. on our way there my cousin was telling me about a wedding she went to recently. her friend was getting married. before that, him and his fiance were picking out wedding bands. she liked this white gold one with diamonds that was $1000. but he said he could not afford it so they got a cheaper one. and on the wedding day when it was time to exchange rings he pulled out the white gold with diamonds wedding band. she was so surprised and happy. it was so cute! and he played the yukaleli or however you spell it and sang since he is part hawaiian. that is so cute! anyway... my family ate out somewhere and my mom and her sister got into a fight. i have never seen my mom get into a fight with her siblings. it was kind of scary.. the food was good though! (happy family, megan!)
these past two months have been good. i got to reconnect with a friend but i think that is over. the pattern is usually that we talk a lot for a short time then we don't talk for about two months or so.. then the cycle continues. i guess i should be used to it by now but everytime it happens i get sad. =( hindi bali.. mahal ko siya parin.. pero mag kaibigan lang kami.. err. is it just timing? i don't know. i have been trying to figure it out for the longest time and i just can't.
i have some new information that has gotten me on edge for the past month or so. can't say what but it just has. it makes me wonder so many things. ah.. just thinking about it makes me feel sick. it is nothing gross.. it is just one more thing for me to worry about.
on a lighter note.. IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS! TWO MORE DAYS! i cannot wait! i am actually more excited for the day after christmas because i get to go shopping and i get to hang out with my friends. i miss kristina.
jenelyn's cousin is having her baby tonight or early tomorrow morning. i am so excited! i can't believe it has been nine months! i think she is naming it makayla or something like that.
i guess that is all i have to say. for not blogging for two months, i don't have much to say. haha! bye!
haha! sorry about that. i guess blogging just isn't my thing. today i went to watch the nutcracker at uci. it was better than i expected. on our way there my cousin was telling me about a wedding she went to recently. her friend was getting married. before that, him and his fiance were picking out wedding bands. she liked this white gold one with diamonds that was $1000. but he said he could not afford it so they got a cheaper one. and on the wedding day when it was time to exchange rings he pulled out the white gold with diamonds wedding band. she was so surprised and happy. it was so cute! and he played the yukaleli or however you spell it and sang since he is part hawaiian. that is so cute! anyway... my family ate out somewhere and my mom and her sister got into a fight. i have never seen my mom get into a fight with her siblings. it was kind of scary.. the food was good though! (happy family, megan!)
these past two months have been good. i got to reconnect with a friend but i think that is over. the pattern is usually that we talk a lot for a short time then we don't talk for about two months or so.. then the cycle continues. i guess i should be used to it by now but everytime it happens i get sad. =( hindi bali.. mahal ko siya parin.. pero mag kaibigan lang kami.. err. is it just timing? i don't know. i have been trying to figure it out for the longest time and i just can't.
i have some new information that has gotten me on edge for the past month or so. can't say what but it just has. it makes me wonder so many things. ah.. just thinking about it makes me feel sick. it is nothing gross.. it is just one more thing for me to worry about.
on a lighter note.. IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS! TWO MORE DAYS! i cannot wait! i am actually more excited for the day after christmas because i get to go shopping and i get to hang out with my friends. i miss kristina.
jenelyn's cousin is having her baby tonight or early tomorrow morning. i am so excited! i can't believe it has been nine months! i think she is naming it makayla or something like that.
i guess that is all i have to say. for not blogging for two months, i don't have much to say. haha! bye!
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
i figured out who replaced me. at first i was not certain who it was. it was a group of people. but there is one person that totally replaced me. well not totally. but then again, we shall see. on a different topic... doesn’t it piss you off when people lie to your face? for example, someone says they want to be your friend but they do not do anything about it. if they do not want to be your friend they should just tell you instead of lying to your face. if it were me, i would rather have someone tell me the truth instead of thinking that we may have a friendship and just sit there waiting for it to happen. i am fine talking to someone. but when they have a problem talking to you, they should tell you why so you do not spend time wondering what will happen. that really makes me mad! and it is not like there are any feelings left! so what is the freaking problem! man! if i blogged earlier today i think i would be so much more worked up about this. but i am calm right now. ugh! i am so frustrated! yeah. i am replaced. things we used to do they now do. i just want to know if i am wasting my time.
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
i had SATs today. boo! surprisingly my head did not hurt. that is a first. then rachel and i went to target. i bought my cool turquoise butterfly chair. i am so happy! it was only $10. it used to be $20. we went to starbucks. i tried the espresso brownie. yum! then we went to yoshinoya. i was so hungry! after taking the SATs my brain was in much need of food. we went to rachel's house so erin could pick us up. rachel and darren talked on the phone. gag! haha! just kidding! erin and noemi came. we got to mark's house and practiced. erin's cousin came. the habanera was so hard! but we are halfway done so it is all good. we did the haukilau or however you spell it. that song is stuck in my head! it has been for the entire day! now we're going, to the haukilau...
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
in the eye of the storm by max lucado
there is a window in your heart through which you can see God. once upon a time that window was clear. your view of God was crisp. you could see God vividly as you could see a gentle valley or hillside. the glass was clean, the pane unbroken. you knew God. you knew how he worked. you know what he wanted you to do. no surprises. nothing unexpected. you knew that God has a will and you continually discovered what it was.
then suddenly the window cracked. a pebble broke the window. a pebble of pain. perhaps the stone struck when you were a child and a parent left home - forever. maybe the rock hit in adolscence when your heart was broken. maybe you made it into adulthood before the window cracked. but then the pebble came... whatever the pebble's form, the result was the same - a shattered window. the pebble missiled into the pane and shattered it. the crash echoed down the halls of your heart. cracks shot out from the point of impact, creating a spider web of fragmented pieces.
and suddenly God was not so easy to see. the view that had been so crisp had changed. you turned to see God, and his figure was distorted. it was hard to see him through the pain. it was hard to see him through the fragments of hurt. you were puzzled. God wouldn't allow something like this to happen, would he? tragedy and travesty weren't on the agenda of the God you had seen, were they? had you been fooled? had you been blind?
the moment the pebble struck, the glass became a reference point for you. from then on, there was life before the pain and life after the pain. before your pain, the view was clear; God seemed so near. after your pain, well, he was harder to see. he seemed a bit distant. your pain distorted the view - not eclipsed it but distorted it. maybe these words don't describe your situation. there are some people who never have to redefine or refocus their view of God. most of us do.
i just thought that that was a pretty cool description. and that is how i feel now. my relationship with God is so off right now. it has been for a while. things are just so different. there are times when i feel like i should reconnect but after a while i just do not care anymore. but even though i am so distant from God he still seems to be leading me in subtle ways. like the college i wanted to go to. well, my life feels kind of off. there are a lot of fun things happening but things just seem off. i do not know what it is. there are just some things that i miss and wish could get back. but if i push then i do not think i will ever see it again. but if i do not do anything about it then it will never happen either. but it cannot just be me that does it. it takes two to tango.
there is a window in your heart through which you can see God. once upon a time that window was clear. your view of God was crisp. you could see God vividly as you could see a gentle valley or hillside. the glass was clean, the pane unbroken. you knew God. you knew how he worked. you know what he wanted you to do. no surprises. nothing unexpected. you knew that God has a will and you continually discovered what it was.
then suddenly the window cracked. a pebble broke the window. a pebble of pain. perhaps the stone struck when you were a child and a parent left home - forever. maybe the rock hit in adolscence when your heart was broken. maybe you made it into adulthood before the window cracked. but then the pebble came... whatever the pebble's form, the result was the same - a shattered window. the pebble missiled into the pane and shattered it. the crash echoed down the halls of your heart. cracks shot out from the point of impact, creating a spider web of fragmented pieces.
and suddenly God was not so easy to see. the view that had been so crisp had changed. you turned to see God, and his figure was distorted. it was hard to see him through the pain. it was hard to see him through the fragments of hurt. you were puzzled. God wouldn't allow something like this to happen, would he? tragedy and travesty weren't on the agenda of the God you had seen, were they? had you been fooled? had you been blind?
the moment the pebble struck, the glass became a reference point for you. from then on, there was life before the pain and life after the pain. before your pain, the view was clear; God seemed so near. after your pain, well, he was harder to see. he seemed a bit distant. your pain distorted the view - not eclipsed it but distorted it. maybe these words don't describe your situation. there are some people who never have to redefine or refocus their view of God. most of us do.
i just thought that that was a pretty cool description. and that is how i feel now. my relationship with God is so off right now. it has been for a while. things are just so different. there are times when i feel like i should reconnect but after a while i just do not care anymore. but even though i am so distant from God he still seems to be leading me in subtle ways. like the college i wanted to go to. well, my life feels kind of off. there are a lot of fun things happening but things just seem off. i do not know what it is. there are just some things that i miss and wish could get back. but if i push then i do not think i will ever see it again. but if i do not do anything about it then it will never happen either. but it cannot just be me that does it. it takes two to tango.
Friday, September 03, 2004
i just got back from my first behind the wheel experience. it was an interesting experience. at first i thought that we were just going to an empty parking lot and practice. but then i got behind the wheel and started driving around the steet. i was pretty freaked out considering the fact that I HAVE NEVER DRIVEN BEFORE IN MY LIFE! the closest thing i got to being behind the wheel was sitting down in the driver's seat because i was tired. well we drove, and drove, and drove... my butt started to hurt after about two hours of driving. we went over the time limit by thirty minutes. it was really traffic that is why. i hate traffic! grr... we went through residential areas and local streets. on our way home my instructor told me to go onto the freeway. i was like "why?" do people normally go on the freeway the very first time they drive, ever?!?! it was pretty scary. but i have decided that i like going fast! woohoo! but i could not really go that fast because there were too many cars. but that is ok. next time.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
it is the last day of vacation. i am so sad. this vacation was probably the best vacation that i have had! i went out so much! at least once a week. there was even one point where i did not sleep over at my house for three consecutive saturday nights. that was fun! i am surprised my parents let me. they are getting to be more lenient with me. yay! so when i drive i will probably never be home. but that is ok. they can get used to me not being home since i am going away for college. well this summer has been excellent! i shall miss you summer 2004. i bid you farewell!
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
"pieces of me" by ashlee simpson
it was a long hot day. jen and i went to school at around 2 pm because she had to give some of the teachers something. then we went to the west covina mall. i bought a messenger back and jen bought a back pack. we looked at the earrings at claire's. then we went to ikea to get stuff for my room. i got a lot of frames for cheap and got these cool blue vases that i am going to put flowers in. i finally got a cd rack. my mom will be so thrilled. i bought jen some of those cookies that taste like ferrera rocher. yum. then we went to lsu. we hung out with kristina and laura at the learning center. pearl was there too. but she is only there for the summer then going back to puc. erin came and we went to applebees to eat. it was so good! i really do not want to go into detail. it was just really fun! then we said bye to each other. jen and i left. she helped me with my stuff. she said bye to my dad. this may be the last day i see jen. aww! i am so sad!
it was a long hot day. jen and i went to school at around 2 pm because she had to give some of the teachers something. then we went to the west covina mall. i bought a messenger back and jen bought a back pack. we looked at the earrings at claire's. then we went to ikea to get stuff for my room. i got a lot of frames for cheap and got these cool blue vases that i am going to put flowers in. i finally got a cd rack. my mom will be so thrilled. i bought jen some of those cookies that taste like ferrera rocher. yum. then we went to lsu. we hung out with kristina and laura at the learning center. pearl was there too. but she is only there for the summer then going back to puc. erin came and we went to applebees to eat. it was so good! i really do not want to go into detail. it was just really fun! then we said bye to each other. jen and i left. she helped me with my stuff. she said bye to my dad. this may be the last day i see jen. aww! i am so sad!
Monday, August 16, 2004
Sunday, August 15, 2004
yesterday i went to my cousin's house after church. we ate and watched "13 going on 30." good movie! my auntie gave me a coach bag but i do not know if it is real or fake. but that is ok. then my dad took me to khaing's house for her party. i do not really want to talk about it. let's just say it was interesting. yeah.
well today i went to the mall with my family. i got some stuff. not much to say. sorry but i do not feel like writing. i will blog later, maybe.
well today i went to the mall with my family. i got some stuff. not much to say. sorry but i do not feel like writing. i will blog later, maybe.
Friday, August 13, 2004
wow! i totally did not realize that it was FRIDAY THE 13 until i came home and read phil's away message. oOOoo... scary day.
but it was not too scary for me. i went out with the pTc chicks today. we met up at west covina mall to buy our care bear shirts at hot topic. i hate their return policy! but whatever. i will just get a better shirt. after the mall we went to this filipino restaurant. i forgot what it was called. but it was cool because kristina and i were talking to them in tagalog. but erin and jen were just like "yeah. uh huh." funny stuff. then we went to tkt to take pictures. (we are not going to take all pTc pictures anymore because jen cannot be there.) we had to wait for a little bit so we decided to eat. the food was soooo good! i love filipino food! maybe it was because i have not had it in a long time. but none the less, it was de-li-shay-us! we decided to cut our wardrobe in half. so we only wore two different outfits. we wore jean and our care bear shirts and the other one was black dresses. well it was not all black. but yeah. we all have our own care bear character. i am bedtime bear. so i had a shirt and the bear. it was pretty cool. they are in our colors too. of course we made fun of jen and gave her a guilt trip about leaving us. then we waited for our pictures and ate. then we went to ikea. there are so many things that i want to get for my room! yay! i am excited! fantastic day! woot! =)
but it was not too scary for me. i went out with the pTc chicks today. we met up at west covina mall to buy our care bear shirts at hot topic. i hate their return policy! but whatever. i will just get a better shirt. after the mall we went to this filipino restaurant. i forgot what it was called. but it was cool because kristina and i were talking to them in tagalog. but erin and jen were just like "yeah. uh huh." funny stuff. then we went to tkt to take pictures. (we are not going to take all pTc pictures anymore because jen cannot be there.) we had to wait for a little bit so we decided to eat. the food was soooo good! i love filipino food! maybe it was because i have not had it in a long time. but none the less, it was de-li-shay-us! we decided to cut our wardrobe in half. so we only wore two different outfits. we wore jean and our care bear shirts and the other one was black dresses. well it was not all black. but yeah. we all have our own care bear character. i am bedtime bear. so i had a shirt and the bear. it was pretty cool. they are in our colors too. of course we made fun of jen and gave her a guilt trip about leaving us. then we waited for our pictures and ate. then we went to ikea. there are so many things that i want to get for my room! yay! i am excited! fantastic day! woot! =)
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
well, things are back to the way it has been for the past six months. i cannot believe it has been six months. well almost six months, at least. i guess i will just have to get used to this. one more year... sigh.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KHAING SABE!
me so full! i went out with jen, khaing, and masaki for khaing's birthday. jen and i picked up khaing at paseo after she got off work. it is so gay that she had to work during her birthday. stupid boss! we went to watch "little black book." masaki met us there. i liked the movie. it is not a typical love story. i recommend you watch it. then we went to pizza hut and khaing ordered pizza. we went back to her place to eat. we watched the teen choice awards. then we had ice cream cake. ice cream cake. yum. i ate so much! we all did! i am going to go watch "bruce almighty" and run. bye suckers!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KHAING SABE!
me so full! i went out with jen, khaing, and masaki for khaing's birthday. jen and i picked up khaing at paseo after she got off work. it is so gay that she had to work during her birthday. stupid boss! we went to watch "little black book." masaki met us there. i liked the movie. it is not a typical love story. i recommend you watch it. then we went to pizza hut and khaing ordered pizza. we went back to her place to eat. we watched the teen choice awards. then we had ice cream cake. ice cream cake. yum. i ate so much! we all did! i am going to go watch "bruce almighty" and run. bye suckers!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
i am tired. i had to wake up at 7:30 am to call my piano teacher and to reschedule. i tried to go back to sleep. i got a little rest. my dad woke me up at 9:30 am to get ready to go to anaheim to get uniforms. i was so out of it. it took us about thirty minutes to get to the true grits store. we were there for a while, trying on uniforms. i hate uniforms. but i am kind of glad that i do not have to pick out what to wear everyday. well i still do but now my options are limited, which makes it easier for me. we then went to jack in the box to eat lunch. then we went to sga to buy my bible book. i had to ask pastor peeke who my bible teacher is. jo, lori, and i were confused. we got to choose our bible classes or something like that. well i was going to tell holly what i wanted when i saw chris there. that was so uncalled for! my heart started beating really fast because i was so scared! my mom was there and people were saying his name. i was so scared that she was going to say something to me. but she did not. phew! well then, we went to hawaii supermarket to buy some things. then we went home. it was such a hot day today! but it is nice and cool in my house. yay!
Sunday, August 08, 2004
back to LA county. this weekend has been fun! church was pretty boring. but then we went to the cafe and they started talking about college. it was so weird! only kevin and i are the only ones left in high school. boo! but that is ok. we will have our time. it is all good. anyways, jen and i left for riverside at around 6 pm. we got starbucks on our way there. woohoo! i have not had starbucks in a while. i feel bad for erin because she has to drive an hour everyday to get to school and back home. she should just dorm. but that is not her decision. well we got to riverside. i played frisbee with kevin and daryl. the other people talked to erin’s neighbor, sam. i do not know him but i think i met him before. erin, kristina, and teo came and we ate. then we had to pick up kristopher at LSU. we went to the drive in movie. it was so cool! i can finally say that i have been to a drive in movie. jenelyn kept calling it a drive thru movie. aiya. we watched “collateral.” good movie. i would recommend it. we stayed at the drive in for a little bit longer and then us girls took kristina home. erin and i were going through all the lollipops that kristina had to find the flavors we liked. strawberry. yum! we went back to erin’s place. there was this cat that would not leave. stupid cat! dogs are better! haha! derek and mylene were there. we started watching “fahrenheit 9/11” but then we ended up playing poker. we played for about four hours or so. kristopher and i were the last ones left. we decided to just forget about it. i think i played well. heehee! we watched “shrek 2!” funny movie! we did not sleep until 6 am. us girls just talked about different things. i could not sleep for a while because it was waaaay too hot and daryl was snoring so loud! but i got about a good four hours of sleep. we woke up and ate. then we did some karaoke. jen was being so stupid! we ended up not helping kristina with her dorm. oh well. jen and i went home. it was so freaking hot! well not i am home now and i am really not tired. so yeah. jen and i are going to paint tomorrow. i am excited! if i like it i think i will hang it in my room. but we shall see. PIECES!
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
well my week has been pretty boring. after i got home from jen's house on sunday i started to read but then fell asleep. i only got about four hours of sleep saturday night. then i read "the little prince." it was a pretty good book. then on monday i read "the reader." it is a pretty erotic book. haha! damn it! i hate my keyboard!!! i cannot type correctly. screw this! that was all i needed to say anyway. bye!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
GIRL'S NIGHT OUT! WOOHOO!
i am at jenelyn's house right now. i did not want to go home so i slept over. well it is not like that... we had a girl's night out and i knew that we would be getting home late. so i asked jen if i could sleep over so that i would not have to go home and face my parents calling me all night and asking me when i would get home. it was easier this way. well since i am already blogging i might as well tell you about my day.
saturday. i actually went to church! holy crap! but i did not get to enjoy it much because my neck and my back were bothering me. i should really go to a chiropractor and get my back looked at. i do not want to be like phil.. haha! love you phil! anyways, i was with jenelyn. we were looking for the guys but none of them picked up their cell phones. stupid boys! so jen convinced me to come with her and her family to eat out at cocary. on our way out of the parking lot we saw the guys coming out of the hospital. that was the last we saw of them.
jen and i got to her cousin's house. starleth does not look pregnant at all. maybe a little. but she looks more fat than pregnant. everyone thinks so, so do not think i am this horrible person. even she says so. we rode with katherine's boyfriend, eddie. he drives pretty crazy. we got to cocary in alhambra. as we were looking for a space to park, one opened up. but there was this other car, a benz, that was trying to go after it as well. it was pretty stupid considering that we were there first and had the right of way. but they still tried to get it. it is a good thing that eddie has a small car because as soon as the car pulled out of the parking space, eddie just went for it. we were so scared that we were going to get into a fight or that when we got back to the car it would be all scratched up.
cocary was good. jen and i both said that we were not going to eat anything but we ended up eating something. their chicken was pretty good. i was new to the whole "cooking it yourself" thing since the last time i did that jessica did it for me. but it was pretty fun. we went back to jen's cousin's house and jen took me home. i had to kill about four hours so i did not know what to do. i eventually just fell asleep. i woke up and got ready to go out.
jen came a little early since she was pretty bored. we went to paseo where khaing works. khaing has a job! she sells himalayan salt crystal lamps on a cart at paseo. nice. the lamps are so freaking expensive. no offense khaing. but they are! $50 is the cheapest that they have. when we got to paseo jen and i looked around at some of the stores. then we went to see khaing. khaing told us to make reservations at islands so that we would not have to wait when she got off work. i had the hardest time going up the stairs. stupid exercises! after making the reservations at islands we ran into javier and patrick. WEIRD! we talked to them for a little bit and went back down to khaing. it was good seeing school people! jen and i looked at odd sunglasses. they had ones that were shaped as swans. nice. shephora has this really good lip gloss. it is really thick and only $10. it may sound expensive but once you try it you will think that it is a bargain. moving on... after khaing got off work we went to islands. erin met up with us there. we ordered our food and talked. jen actually finished her burger! that is amazing! we paid the bill.
jen and i went to khaing's house. for some reason i was really hyper on the way there. we were going to watch "anchorman" at khaing's house since she has the dvd but jen was too tired so we went back to her house. she showed me some of her old baby pictures. it's a boy! haha! just kidding. then we read some of the things that i wrote in her scrapbook. i cussed a lot! actually i only said s***. i do not know why. well now i am here, online, since jen is sleeping. i was reading people's blogs and xangas. very interesting. bryan's was probably the most interesting to me. he goes shopping quite a bit and buys CLOTHES and NECKLACES. WTF is that! i am telling you, he is becoming more and more feminine everyday. it scares me a little. but i saw it coming. and bryan, i still love you, no matter what choice you make. hahaha!
well i am going to go now because it is getting late and i am getting sleepy. good night everybody! or to the three or four people that actually read my blog. =( pieces!
i am at jenelyn's house right now. i did not want to go home so i slept over. well it is not like that... we had a girl's night out and i knew that we would be getting home late. so i asked jen if i could sleep over so that i would not have to go home and face my parents calling me all night and asking me when i would get home. it was easier this way. well since i am already blogging i might as well tell you about my day.
saturday. i actually went to church! holy crap! but i did not get to enjoy it much because my neck and my back were bothering me. i should really go to a chiropractor and get my back looked at. i do not want to be like phil.. haha! love you phil! anyways, i was with jenelyn. we were looking for the guys but none of them picked up their cell phones. stupid boys! so jen convinced me to come with her and her family to eat out at cocary. on our way out of the parking lot we saw the guys coming out of the hospital. that was the last we saw of them.
jen and i got to her cousin's house. starleth does not look pregnant at all. maybe a little. but she looks more fat than pregnant. everyone thinks so, so do not think i am this horrible person. even she says so. we rode with katherine's boyfriend, eddie. he drives pretty crazy. we got to cocary in alhambra. as we were looking for a space to park, one opened up. but there was this other car, a benz, that was trying to go after it as well. it was pretty stupid considering that we were there first and had the right of way. but they still tried to get it. it is a good thing that eddie has a small car because as soon as the car pulled out of the parking space, eddie just went for it. we were so scared that we were going to get into a fight or that when we got back to the car it would be all scratched up.
cocary was good. jen and i both said that we were not going to eat anything but we ended up eating something. their chicken was pretty good. i was new to the whole "cooking it yourself" thing since the last time i did that jessica did it for me. but it was pretty fun. we went back to jen's cousin's house and jen took me home. i had to kill about four hours so i did not know what to do. i eventually just fell asleep. i woke up and got ready to go out.
jen came a little early since she was pretty bored. we went to paseo where khaing works. khaing has a job! she sells himalayan salt crystal lamps on a cart at paseo. nice. the lamps are so freaking expensive. no offense khaing. but they are! $50 is the cheapest that they have. when we got to paseo jen and i looked around at some of the stores. then we went to see khaing. khaing told us to make reservations at islands so that we would not have to wait when she got off work. i had the hardest time going up the stairs. stupid exercises! after making the reservations at islands we ran into javier and patrick. WEIRD! we talked to them for a little bit and went back down to khaing. it was good seeing school people! jen and i looked at odd sunglasses. they had ones that were shaped as swans. nice. shephora has this really good lip gloss. it is really thick and only $10. it may sound expensive but once you try it you will think that it is a bargain. moving on... after khaing got off work we went to islands. erin met up with us there. we ordered our food and talked. jen actually finished her burger! that is amazing! we paid the bill.
jen and i went to khaing's house. for some reason i was really hyper on the way there. we were going to watch "anchorman" at khaing's house since she has the dvd but jen was too tired so we went back to her house. she showed me some of her old baby pictures. it's a boy! haha! just kidding. then we read some of the things that i wrote in her scrapbook. i cussed a lot! actually i only said s***. i do not know why. well now i am here, online, since jen is sleeping. i was reading people's blogs and xangas. very interesting. bryan's was probably the most interesting to me. he goes shopping quite a bit and buys CLOTHES and NECKLACES. WTF is that! i am telling you, he is becoming more and more feminine everyday. it scares me a little. but i saw it coming. and bryan, i still love you, no matter what choice you make. hahaha!
well i am going to go now because it is getting late and i am getting sleepy. good night everybody! or to the three or four people that actually read my blog. =( pieces!
Thursday, July 22, 2004
hmmm... i thought that things were different. but all of a sudden it changed. it was so familiar and comfortable. we were both laughing and talking about the weirdest things. that lasted for about two days. then it went back to the same thing. maybe it was too soon to start talking again. or maybe this is just how it is going to be from now on. after a long time of not talking at all we talk online for a little bit. then it all fades away and they just stop talking to me. but i like the familiarity of our conversations. so comfortable and fun. we actually laughed. and they were geniun laughs. i thought things were different. i guess not.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
i have gone back to my old routine of blogging... every once a month or so. and it is time for me to blog once again. how is everyone doing? summer treating you well? it is hard to believe that it is more than half way through. july seems like a really boring and hot month for me. but i went to the getty museum last friday. it was beautiful! the garden is a really nice place to sit. if i could i would just sit there for hours. i do not have much to say so i am going to cut this short. bYe!
Saturday, July 03, 2004
i have to get my camera sent! boo! stupid LDC screen! anyway, friday was ok. i was supposed to go to the beach with erin, khaing, jen, kristina, and other people but i could not. oh well. my day accomplished a lot. my dad and i went to glendale. i rushed to american eagle and got a bag that i have been eyeing for a while. it went on sale so i bought it. then my dad and i went to circuit city and bought my stereo since my old one cannot read cd's anymore. my dad had to drop off something to one of his patients. then we went to kmart since i had to buy a disposable camera since i have to get my digital camera fixed. good thing the cameras were on sale. then i went home and cleaned. my mom and i had a fight. whatever. i do not care anymore.
my saturday was boring! i went to church and then to the cafe. my family came over to celebrate my mom's birthday and my uncle's birthday. but to be honest, it seemed like it was mostly for my mom. i talked to my cousins. eric drew a panda for me. i am going to make it my background. for the rest of the night my family karaoked. yep. it is a typical filipino get together.
my saturday was boring! i went to church and then to the cafe. my family came over to celebrate my mom's birthday and my uncle's birthday. but to be honest, it seemed like it was mostly for my mom. i talked to my cousins. eric drew a panda for me. i am going to make it my background. for the rest of the night my family karaoked. yep. it is a typical filipino get together.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
i went out with steph today. we spent our time at japanese village. we ate at some restaurant. the sushi was only $3.50. that is not bad. but if you think about it, it is about $.60 per roll. that is a lot! steph and i went to this book store and she got some cool japanese stickers. she gave me the one that had pandas on it so i could put it on my phone. yay! we went to the block that had japanese village on it. we went to a bunch of different stores. steph bought be a chocolate cream puff. yum. steph was going to get these cute little slippers. i liked the pink ones and the turquiose ones. then we went to this anime store that had toys and posters and all this other stuff. steph and i found a box that had 5 items for $5. so we were looking for a bunch of items that we wanted to buy. i got a pencil and keychain and steph got a pen and some other thing. then we split pins. we went to this market where we got wash clothes that we were going to make into bags. it is cool! i also got those melon gummy candies. those are so good! after that, we went to this other place. it was small and did not have that many things in it. steph liked this cute little wallet. i told her to get it. then i saw this little hello kitty bag that was shaped as a hamburger. it was so cute! and it was only around $3. steph and i decided to come back and get them. but steph did not get the wallet because she did not have enough money but i got the bag. yay! i am happy! today was a fun day! i got to hang out with steph. woot! peace out.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JENELYN JOY RAMOS!
today was pretty good. i did not really do anything during the early afternoon hours but i did later on.
jen came to my house around 4:30 pm and we left for west covina mall. we got there and i returned some things from american eagle. then we looked around more. forever 21 had a 2 for $9 sale on camis so jen and i got some. express had a big sale. there was a turquiose polo there for only $10. nice. but they did not have my size. oh well. kristina met up with us there. then jen got cheese on a stick from hot dog on a stick. (that sounds funny.) i bought two camis and a shirt from ae for only $7. nice.
kristina, jen, and i left to get starbucks. kris and i split a venti. they gave us two grandes. that is a lot! but i am not complaining. kris was telling jen the wrong directions to chili's because they were not ready yet. by the way this was a surprise party for jen. she thought it was only going to be laura, khaing, erin, kris, me, and her. but then a bunch of other people were there. jen was getting annoyed. but then we got there. she was so surprised. jen is the easiest person to surprise because she is kind of slow. (i love you jen!)
we got inside and said hi to people. rachel and i matched like crazy! we were both wearing jeans, pink polos with a white tank top under, and heart necklaces. cool! we took pictures. then we ate. it was fun! i laughed for the stupidest things. we were there for a long time! after we took pictures and got the check all done, we stayed outside for like thirty minutes just talking. i was trying to get ryan jealous by hugging rachel and all this stuff. we took weird pictures. it was so fun! so many people were there! i missed all of them and i got to see them today! yay! well all said our good-bye's and we our seperate ways. today was so fun! aww yay!
today was pretty good. i did not really do anything during the early afternoon hours but i did later on.
jen came to my house around 4:30 pm and we left for west covina mall. we got there and i returned some things from american eagle. then we looked around more. forever 21 had a 2 for $9 sale on camis so jen and i got some. express had a big sale. there was a turquiose polo there for only $10. nice. but they did not have my size. oh well. kristina met up with us there. then jen got cheese on a stick from hot dog on a stick. (that sounds funny.) i bought two camis and a shirt from ae for only $7. nice.
kristina, jen, and i left to get starbucks. kris and i split a venti. they gave us two grandes. that is a lot! but i am not complaining. kris was telling jen the wrong directions to chili's because they were not ready yet. by the way this was a surprise party for jen. she thought it was only going to be laura, khaing, erin, kris, me, and her. but then a bunch of other people were there. jen was getting annoyed. but then we got there. she was so surprised. jen is the easiest person to surprise because she is kind of slow. (i love you jen!)
we got inside and said hi to people. rachel and i matched like crazy! we were both wearing jeans, pink polos with a white tank top under, and heart necklaces. cool! we took pictures. then we ate. it was fun! i laughed for the stupidest things. we were there for a long time! after we took pictures and got the check all done, we stayed outside for like thirty minutes just talking. i was trying to get ryan jealous by hugging rachel and all this stuff. we took weird pictures. it was so fun! so many people were there! i missed all of them and i got to see them today! yay! well all said our good-bye's and we our seperate ways. today was so fun! aww yay!
Sunday, June 27, 2004
*WARNING! to those who have not watch and are planning to watch the notebook you may not want to read part of this entry.
good weekend. i ditched church. oh well. the guys made this new game with the cards in their wallets. it was pretty stupid!
at around 7 pm jen came to pick me up. then we got khaing at her house. jen drove us to erin's house at riverside. we were all so loud! oh well. we got to erin's house. i rang the door bell and i see a man's legs. i could not figure out who it could have been. then the door opens wider and it was masaki! khaing's face was hilarious! we went inside and ate. then we went to the theaters to watch the notebook. wow! that was a good movie!
*i started to cry when allie's mom was saying that noah and allie were not meant to be together because they were different. i totally knew what they were feeling! then the end was so sad but sweet at the same time. they died together. aww!
after the movie ended you could hear people snuffling or whatever you call it. it was funny! khaing, erin, jen, kris, and i went to tgif's. i felt so weird because it was happy hour and everyone else that was there was 21 or over. it took forever for them to give us our food. the stawberry lemonade was good! we told the waitress that it was jen's birthday. well it is! or at least it will be. haha! we got this ice cream cookie sundae. yum!
we went back to erin's house. erin's hair is scary! it is just sitting in her closet and seems like it is going to jump on you and eat you! we watched down with love. it is a pretty good movie! i liked it. the twists were unprobable but funny. we all went back up to erin's room but we did not sleep. i hate sleeping in between jen and khaing! they hit each other and i am in the middle. and khaing pokes me and jen uses me as a tandayan. we started talking about gay marriage and cloning and stuff. it was pretty interesting.
we all woke up late. but that is ok. we had to leave because erin had to go somewhere. jen, khaing, and i took kristina home. we stayed at her house for a while. i waded in the pool for a while. then khaing, jen, and i went to ikea. there are so many things i want to get there! yay! i am so excited that i get to redecorate my room this summer! woohoo!
good weekend. i ditched church. oh well. the guys made this new game with the cards in their wallets. it was pretty stupid!
at around 7 pm jen came to pick me up. then we got khaing at her house. jen drove us to erin's house at riverside. we were all so loud! oh well. we got to erin's house. i rang the door bell and i see a man's legs. i could not figure out who it could have been. then the door opens wider and it was masaki! khaing's face was hilarious! we went inside and ate. then we went to the theaters to watch the notebook. wow! that was a good movie!
*i started to cry when allie's mom was saying that noah and allie were not meant to be together because they were different. i totally knew what they were feeling! then the end was so sad but sweet at the same time. they died together. aww!
after the movie ended you could hear people snuffling or whatever you call it. it was funny! khaing, erin, jen, kris, and i went to tgif's. i felt so weird because it was happy hour and everyone else that was there was 21 or over. it took forever for them to give us our food. the stawberry lemonade was good! we told the waitress that it was jen's birthday. well it is! or at least it will be. haha! we got this ice cream cookie sundae. yum!
we went back to erin's house. erin's hair is scary! it is just sitting in her closet and seems like it is going to jump on you and eat you! we watched down with love. it is a pretty good movie! i liked it. the twists were unprobable but funny. we all went back up to erin's room but we did not sleep. i hate sleeping in between jen and khaing! they hit each other and i am in the middle. and khaing pokes me and jen uses me as a tandayan. we started talking about gay marriage and cloning and stuff. it was pretty interesting.
we all woke up late. but that is ok. we had to leave because erin had to go somewhere. jen, khaing, and i took kristina home. we stayed at her house for a while. i waded in the pool for a while. then khaing, jen, and i went to ikea. there are so many things i want to get there! yay! i am so excited that i get to redecorate my room this summer! woohoo!
Saturday, June 19, 2004
i found my new song:
half crazy by musiq
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lala la
Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
we used to chill we used to hang
we used to do some many things together
half crazy by musiq
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lala la
Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
we used to chill we used to hang
we used to do some many things together
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Monday, June 14, 2004
senior year is supposed to be fun. but i was thinking about it and i do not think it will be that fun for me. i mean the rest of the year will be good except for the major events where you ask people or people ask you to go with them. i do not know who to ask to sadies. and no one is going to ask me to the christmas banquet and jr/sr. man. i am depressed now. =/
Sunday, June 13, 2004
it seems like i look at people's blogs just to see if they have anything interesting i can do on it, like quizzes or games. haha!
i feel like i have a lot to say. well, this weekend was pretty good. i had a lot of fun with my friends.
saturday. i did not go to church. i went to the cafe instead. oh well. we talked about daryl's party. it is coming up so soon! jonathan sy was there. i have a feeling he is going to be hanging around with us a lot. it is pretty strange for some of us because jonathan and teo had major differences before and now they are the best of friends.
after the cafe kristina and i went to my house to change. i did not know what to wear so vince and daryl had to wait for us for thirty minutes. vince thought that it was weird because kris and i were switched. i was wearing pink and she was wearing turquiose. nice.
we had to go to daryl's house so he could change. that was the first time i have been to his house. it is pretty nice. his room is a typical boy's room. i should have figured.
kris and i wanted to go shopping so we went to glendale galleria. did some shopping but decided to wait until later when we would go back. all of us were really hungry so we got animal style fries and in-n-out. yummy! i bought it for kris and me. but kris bought me a strawberry shortcake scone at starbucks. yay! i got a caramel frap.
then we walked to the exchange to watch "harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban." as we were walking daryl had his arm around my neck. then we started talking about "spots" and he starts moving down my back. it was so scary but at the same time funny. we bought our tickets and snuck in our food. the movie was scary! i liked it.
we walked back to american eagle and bought some stuff. i got two shirts and a polo. but i think i am going to return one of the shirts. we went to mark's house for the party.
i felt bad because we were supposed to be there at 1 pm to help set up and prepare but we got there at 7 pm. that is way passed filipino time! i had to be searched in order to get in. it was pretty weird. but i never had to get searched again.
at first the party was, well, crap. but then more people came and it got started! bryan, jessie, chris, and this girl were there for jina because she had someone's keys. briggitte, jina, steph, jo, and luong came. chris and i did not talk. not even eye contact. awkward. more people came. i hung out with kris most of the night. kristopher's mom made her famous salad. she makes the best salad ever! the dj had been playing for a while and i started getting into it. jen was crazy! her dancing makes me laugh so much! she grabbed kris and i so we danced. after that we only stopped to rest for a little bit then went back to dance. briggitte and them saw me dancing. it was funny. i got steph to dance. we did the robot.
byron stepped on my toe. at first i thought nothing of it. then i felt something wet on my slippers. i was bleeding. it was on the middle toe of my right foot. kris was freaking out more than me. and teo was getting so grossed out. it was not even that bad!
i danced more. there was this one time i was dancing with daryl. then this guy comes up behind me and dances. i did not even know him. he left and the other guy came. it was the weirdest thing ever! i tried to get jonathan to dance but he just would not. i danced with megan. it was pretty funny! masaki was dancing dirty with khaing. shame shame shame! the party ended at 12 am. i danced for three hours at the party. sheesh! i talked to people and said bye to everyeone. teo and erin took me home. i still think it is weird how they are a couple now. i do not know. i am just not used to it.
sunday. i had a recital today. i actually got a big trophy this year! yay! i am happy. but i still got 2nd place. brian is so good! geez!
jonathan's party was today. i feel bad that i could not got. i wanted to. we were going to play tic tac toe and badminton. i think i would have had fun. but it is not my fault i did not have a ride home. so jonathan cannot get mad at me. haha!
this weekend was so good! i find myself wanting to dance when i get a chance to. but i need to get into the music first.
i am going to see ms. saigon on thursday with kristina, her mom, and maybe jen. yay! i am so excited! i have been wanting to see that for so long! my family went when they were at new york and lea salonga was still in it. i would prefer seeing it if lea salonga and gian's uncler were in it but they are not. oh well. wow! i blogged a lot! nice. =)
i feel like i have a lot to say. well, this weekend was pretty good. i had a lot of fun with my friends.
saturday. i did not go to church. i went to the cafe instead. oh well. we talked about daryl's party. it is coming up so soon! jonathan sy was there. i have a feeling he is going to be hanging around with us a lot. it is pretty strange for some of us because jonathan and teo had major differences before and now they are the best of friends.
after the cafe kristina and i went to my house to change. i did not know what to wear so vince and daryl had to wait for us for thirty minutes. vince thought that it was weird because kris and i were switched. i was wearing pink and she was wearing turquiose. nice.
we had to go to daryl's house so he could change. that was the first time i have been to his house. it is pretty nice. his room is a typical boy's room. i should have figured.
kris and i wanted to go shopping so we went to glendale galleria. did some shopping but decided to wait until later when we would go back. all of us were really hungry so we got animal style fries and in-n-out. yummy! i bought it for kris and me. but kris bought me a strawberry shortcake scone at starbucks. yay! i got a caramel frap.
then we walked to the exchange to watch "harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban." as we were walking daryl had his arm around my neck. then we started talking about "spots" and he starts moving down my back. it was so scary but at the same time funny. we bought our tickets and snuck in our food. the movie was scary! i liked it.
we walked back to american eagle and bought some stuff. i got two shirts and a polo. but i think i am going to return one of the shirts. we went to mark's house for the party.
i felt bad because we were supposed to be there at 1 pm to help set up and prepare but we got there at 7 pm. that is way passed filipino time! i had to be searched in order to get in. it was pretty weird. but i never had to get searched again.
at first the party was, well, crap. but then more people came and it got started! bryan, jessie, chris, and this girl were there for jina because she had someone's keys. briggitte, jina, steph, jo, and luong came. chris and i did not talk. not even eye contact. awkward. more people came. i hung out with kris most of the night. kristopher's mom made her famous salad. she makes the best salad ever! the dj had been playing for a while and i started getting into it. jen was crazy! her dancing makes me laugh so much! she grabbed kris and i so we danced. after that we only stopped to rest for a little bit then went back to dance. briggitte and them saw me dancing. it was funny. i got steph to dance. we did the robot.
byron stepped on my toe. at first i thought nothing of it. then i felt something wet on my slippers. i was bleeding. it was on the middle toe of my right foot. kris was freaking out more than me. and teo was getting so grossed out. it was not even that bad!
i danced more. there was this one time i was dancing with daryl. then this guy comes up behind me and dances. i did not even know him. he left and the other guy came. it was the weirdest thing ever! i tried to get jonathan to dance but he just would not. i danced with megan. it was pretty funny! masaki was dancing dirty with khaing. shame shame shame! the party ended at 12 am. i danced for three hours at the party. sheesh! i talked to people and said bye to everyeone. teo and erin took me home. i still think it is weird how they are a couple now. i do not know. i am just not used to it.
sunday. i had a recital today. i actually got a big trophy this year! yay! i am happy. but i still got 2nd place. brian is so good! geez!
jonathan's party was today. i feel bad that i could not got. i wanted to. we were going to play tic tac toe and badminton. i think i would have had fun. but it is not my fault i did not have a ride home. so jonathan cannot get mad at me. haha!
this weekend was so good! i find myself wanting to dance when i get a chance to. but i need to get into the music first.
i am going to see ms. saigon on thursday with kristina, her mom, and maybe jen. yay! i am so excited! i have been wanting to see that for so long! my family went when they were at new york and lea salonga was still in it. i would prefer seeing it if lea salonga and gian's uncler were in it but they are not. oh well. wow! i blogged a lot! nice. =)
| J | Jolly |
| E | Emotional |
| N | Natural |
| N | Nerdy |
| I | Insane |
| F | Fashionable |
| E | Exciting |
| R | Responsible |
Name Acronym Generator
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Friday, June 11, 2004
You are going to marry Brad Pitt. He is always
friendly to anybody he ever meets and he is
very talented as an actor. He is also very
sincere and friendly. He will respect you until
the day he dies. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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^it is funny because it is true. =)
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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your shit.
What swear word are you?
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Dragon:
Dragons are very mysterious creatures who often
live alone in caves with hoards of gold. You
keep yourself from others and contain many
armoured plates for defence. However, you will
be kind to others if they are kind to you. You
are very thrifty and rarely waste any money.
What Mythological Creature Are You (Many Results and Beautiful Pics)
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You are totally in love.You try to hide it but you
cant.You are nice and pritty in your own way
and you are a bit of a daydreamer.Have fun and
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Are you in love?
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^i guess it is true.
Your half- angel. Not exactly human, but not quite
angel, you walk on earth freely. Half-Angels
have no wings, but tend to show some signs.
Some ways to notice these are that the girl
never menstrates, she cannot bleed, and her
touch seems to give of a glow. No one really
knows how half-angels are born. Some say that
when a child is born, one of the angels blesses
her with her gifts. Others say that they are
cursed creatures, because half-angels cannot
die, while their familly and friends around
them do. Hlaf-Angels are very beautiful and
Kind, and have the power to speak to animals,
but at the same time, sad that they are this
way. Some Half-Angels love being human. Being
able to see, smell, hear, taste,and feel are
all miracles to them. They crave to be more
human-all the time.
What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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Choose your Dramatic Death (Now w/pics!!)
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^i think the boobs match.. don't you think? hahaha!
vacation sucks ass! i have not done anything so far. but then again it is only the first week of vacation. last night i stayed up until 3:30 am to clean. do not judge me! cleaning calms my nerves. haha! then i cleaned somemore today and i am going to clean more tonight because there are stuff everywhere. i need to get out of the house! but there is a party tomorrow so i will probably go to that. i might to go the party on sunday but most likely not. we will see. i have a freaking recital on sunday! i cannot wait until i do not have to take piano anymore. one more year...
i was cleaing my room today and i realized that in one year i will not be living here anymore. this is my last year to live at home because i will be going off to college. i may come home during vacations and stuff but that is not my full time home. it scared me a little. it scares me now. after my last year here i will be moving out for good and living in my own apartment or some other type of home. I AM SO EXCITED!
on a different note, my dad walked into my room and asked me when i was going to learn how to drive. then he tells me that i am going to learn this summer. my parents really want me to drive. it is because of my dad and our little situation. when i get my license i know that i am going to have to drive myself everywhere. but that is fine with me. =)
LET'S GO OUT, PEOPLE! I AM SO FUCKING BORED!
i was cleaing my room today and i realized that in one year i will not be living here anymore. this is my last year to live at home because i will be going off to college. i may come home during vacations and stuff but that is not my full time home. it scared me a little. it scares me now. after my last year here i will be moving out for good and living in my own apartment or some other type of home. I AM SO EXCITED!
on a different note, my dad walked into my room and asked me when i was going to learn how to drive. then he tells me that i am going to learn this summer. my parents really want me to drive. it is because of my dad and our little situation. when i get my license i know that i am going to have to drive myself everywhere. but that is fine with me. =)
LET'S GO OUT, PEOPLE! I AM SO FUCKING BORED!
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
things from people's aim profiles:
to do something totally crazy for someone because it hurts you inside that your not with that person. because you have that image in the back of your mind that one day you two will be together. to do everything humanly possible just to get noticed or to humiliate yourself just to get one glance and a smile. and that in the end you found out what you only believed, that the juice is worth the squeeze. that by doing the unthinkable you can achieve the unreachable and that is more perfect that love in itself, it is love with meaning. - bkxbawler
girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough . As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die - forbidden pinoi
There are these two twin old men that go into the same bar everyday. The bartender at the bar hates one of the twins, but the only way he could tell the difference between the one he hates and the one he likes is because the one that he hates drinks very slow, but the one that he likes drinks fast. So one day the bartender decides to kill the one that he hates. So when they came in that day he put the same amount of the drink in their cups, the same amount of ice, and the same amount of poison. The twin that he hates dies and the other lives. How can this be?
They come at night without being called and are lost in the day
without being stolen. What are they?
to do something totally crazy for someone because it hurts you inside that your not with that person. because you have that image in the back of your mind that one day you two will be together. to do everything humanly possible just to get noticed or to humiliate yourself just to get one glance and a smile. and that in the end you found out what you only believed, that the juice is worth the squeeze. that by doing the unthinkable you can achieve the unreachable and that is more perfect that love in itself, it is love with meaning. - bkxbawler
girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough . As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die - forbidden pinoi
There are these two twin old men that go into the same bar everyday. The bartender at the bar hates one of the twins, but the only way he could tell the difference between the one he hates and the one he likes is because the one that he hates drinks very slow, but the one that he likes drinks fast. So one day the bartender decides to kill the one that he hates. So when they came in that day he put the same amount of the drink in their cups, the same amount of ice, and the same amount of poison. The twin that he hates dies and the other lives. How can this be?
They come at night without being called and are lost in the day
without being stolen. What are they?
i blog? yes, i blog.
today sucked. i went to elac to take english and math assessment tests. the english test was a joke. it kind of felt like i was taking a esl test. but the precal one was not as easy. it is so stupid because they want you to pass a precal test to get into precal. what the hell. that is not how it is supposed to work. oh well. what can i do. i only drank milk before i went to go take the tests so after the three hours of annoying test taking my head started to hurt. we had orientation after and my brain was throbbing. but i got taco bell after. yay. i guess that is really all i can talk about.
graduation was fun. so many parties. there is another one for mark, jen, erin, and kris on saturday at mark's house. and there is a end of the year one on sunday night at jonathan sy's house in pasadena. everyone go! it will be fun! =)
today sucked. i went to elac to take english and math assessment tests. the english test was a joke. it kind of felt like i was taking a esl test. but the precal one was not as easy. it is so stupid because they want you to pass a precal test to get into precal. what the hell. that is not how it is supposed to work. oh well. what can i do. i only drank milk before i went to go take the tests so after the three hours of annoying test taking my head started to hurt. we had orientation after and my brain was throbbing. but i got taco bell after. yay. i guess that is really all i can talk about.
graduation was fun. so many parties. there is another one for mark, jen, erin, and kris on saturday at mark's house. and there is a end of the year one on sunday night at jonathan sy's house in pasadena. everyone go! it will be fun! =)
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