steph (eating a lemon): this is sour!
me: it's a LEMON!

i am at my cousin's house and i am really bored.. so i thought "i should BLOG!" so here i am blogging. but now i have another dilemma.. what to blog? oh! my panda's back! i put it back a long time ago but for some reason i felt like i needed to put that here. i missed it sooo much! it is my favorite panda! it can be a pillow and it is perfect for hugging. and it is not too hard or too soft. so yeah. i got was eating at some chinese restaurant and my fortune said "a refreshing change is in your future." then last friday i got panda express and i got a fortune that said "you will find happiness in mind and heart." well then... we were in art and byron kept singing starting line songs. "PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME WITHOUT SAYING GOOD-BYE!" (i am saying the most random things on this blog!) i was listening to a mix cd that bryan gave (one of the seven gazillion that i have from him!! thanks though!) and now there are a bunch of lyrics stuck in my head. "for all this i'm better off without you." i don't know who sings that or what it is called. i really like this one monica song.. "don't you touch her like you used to touch me... don't you love her like you used to love me." such a sad song! well, graduation is in a month! crap. "here's to the nights we felt alive. here's to the tears you knew you'd cry. here's to good-bye. tomorrow's gonna come too soon." i am going to cry FOR SURE! i just hope that i do not do it while walking at graduation. there are so many people that are being mr. brightside. it seems like that is all everyone is lately.. "this is my devilish jealousy, which i pray God may be false, but it makes a very hell in my mind, which the God of heaven remove, or i shall be very unhappy." samuel pepys is not alone.. even though he lived like 300 years before us. I JUST CAN'T LOOK IT'S KILLING ME AND TAKING CONTROL! i know that i have felt that recently. the last two or three days of northern made me mr. brightside. it really took over wednesday and thursay. but northern was still fun. and the guys room did not smell as bad as last year! then again they had like five air fresheners in there. and damn guys! when girls are in a room puts some pants and a shirt on! freakin a! the last day was pretty cool because we got a lot of time in the city. i know my way around the place so well. i love it! i got to walk around alone and shop and just be by myself. that was fun! i don't know what else to write about northern except that last year was better! haha! BAA '04! we had more free time last year.. that is ozzie's system. bryan has this charlie brown thing and there is one panel that reminds me of me. it is like this one girl talking to this boy and asking if he is basically better than charlie brown. and he is but she does not understand why she like charlie brown more. it's like that song.. kind of. "he's everything you want. he's everything you need. he's everything inside of you that you wish you could be. he says all the right things at exactly the right time but he means nothing to you and you don't know why. you're waiting for someone to put you together. you're waiting for someone to push you away. there's always another wound to discover. there's always something more you wish he'd say." haha! sorry bryan.. but it's not like it matters anyway. i guess that is all. peace out, yo!