"i'm not lying. i'm just making fiction with my mouth." from the ever so wise homer simpson

i'm really bored on a friday night. everyone is either tired or mad. i'm kind of scared. i was wrong. friend drama is sometimes necessary. this is boring. i have done all i can do to my laptop and now im bored.

i decorated my myspace. how weird. but i like it. it's bluuuuuuue!

xxji2z3n1ferxx: you know how we digest meat?
xxji2z3n1ferxx: it rots in our stomach
myw0rstpains: thank you
xxji2z3n1ferxx: welcome
myw0rstpains: for ruining steak even more for me

JENELYN! your boyfriend is retarded! after saying what he said, OF COURSE YOU WERE BROKEN UP! WHAT THE F*** DOES HE EXPECT! he cannot be that stupid! he is playing you like a fiddle.. wait, that's the correct saying, right? oh my gosh! i do not approve! NO MORE!

*please refer to the blog on august 30 that begins with "FUCK!" oh, and that blog was because of isaac and gilmore girls. UGH!

"and i can see the pain in your eyes says everybody's changing and i don't know why.. but everybody's changing and i don't feel the same.. because everybody's changing and i don't feel right"

my fortune says "you will be happily surpised by a long time friend." will i really?

my family and i were going out and my mom used the phrase "pissed off." haha! and my did made a "shit" joke. what is going on!?!? my parents are being weird..

i want a guy "with the bad boy look without the bad boy attitude."

February:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

25 Questions You'd Never Think to Ask.

1. when you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? my hair
2. how much cash do you have on you? $0 all i have are my debit and credit cards
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? fest
4. favorite plant? sampaguita plant
5. who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? byron
6. what is your main ring tone on your phone? cat’s dance.. thanks kristina
7. what shirt are you wearing? pink hollister polo
8. do you "label" yourself? between "mainstream" and non "mainstream"
9. name brand of your shoes currently wearing? barefoot
10. bright or dark room? bright
11. what do you think about the person who took this survey before you? he’s skinny
12. do you know what an 8-track is? yep
13. what were you doing at midnight last night? running
14. what did your last text message you recieved on your cell phone say? "kristina said 40 year old virgin tomorrow at 4:15"
15. do you ever click on "pop ups" or banners? accidentally
16.what's a saying that you say a lot? "i’m done." or "stupid hor!"
17. who told you they loved you last? ryan cowan
18. last furry thing you touched? khaing’s cat
19. how many hours a week do you work? none
20. how many rolls of film do you need to get developed? i got digital, yo!
21.favorite age you have been so far? 18!!
22. your worst enemy? i dunno
23. what is your current desk top picture? this wallpaper i got off orisinal.com
24. what was the last thing you said to someone? "ok."
25. if you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to erase all of your regrets, what would you choose? a million bucks

things change. people change. people drift.. faster than you expected.

FUCK! i hate it when people think they are better than others because of their race or social status or the way they were raised or whatever else their excuse is! or maybe they do not think they are better. maybe they think that it just "won't ever work out" because it is INCONVENIENT for everyone. well "everyone" may not be the people that are actually involved! maybe, JUST MAYBE, these people like each other, or even LOVE each other, and that really gives you no right to get in the way. and it really pisses the crap out of me when families embed this kind of thinking into their childrens heads and end up ruining someone else's life. i understand that people have a closed mind about this and that they just "want the best for their kids." but i think that is bullshit! it's never all about the kids! it's about them! maybe not entirely, but the fact of the matter still remains the same. people do not like to step out of their comfort zones, but maybe if they did, they might find something amazing out there!

let it go, the damage in your heart.

i want pop rocks! do they still sell those? they were really good. i miss being a kid.. =/

blogging is cathartic..

"slip, trip, and kiss me."

"you steal my heart when you take my breath away."

"i just got to shake you off."

i was looking at my yearbook and started to read some of the things people wrote. i am sure they all meant what they said when they wrote it but now it all just seems like bullshit. it has only been three months and all that they wrote went to hell. i am sure i am guilty of this as well. it's just sad.. even with the friendships you thought it would never happen to.
i watched 40 year old vigrin today. it's so funny! the ending is the best.
cal: tell me you're a virgin.
andy: i'm a virgin.
cal: see, i like that because.. you don't have chlamydia.

i was watching the previews and there was this funny part..
guy #1: you're an idiot! if you look up the word idiot in the dictionary, you know what you'll find?
guy #2: i know, a picture of me.
guy #1: no! the definition of the word idiot!

good times.

i have rediscovered my love for lifehouse.

"breathing"

"you and me"

*"everything"
find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now
'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
everything..

guesstures is a fun game! board games have been one of the highlights this past week. i slept over khaing's house last night. i hate cawin! he is in the freaking bahamas now! stupid HOR! haha! ..i like saying that. santos or kris, give me photoshop cs2!! please. =P ok, i'm tired.