quote: i ask one thing from you.. please don't take me for granted.

boo! i can't sleep over kevin's house. the weird thing is that i really don't care. i mean i want to be there and all that stuff.. but it's not a big priority of mine at the moment. but it sucks that i can't sleep over. i wanted to watch fear dot com. and those other movies. it's ok. i will just watch it some other time. dudes! i never have anything to talk about in this stupid blog! nothing good or bad ever happens to me that i actually want to write about. dang it! why do people have to be so stupid! others aren't doing anything to them but yet they do all this other stuff to piss that other person off. do you follow? eh. i don't care if you do or not. i know what i am talking about and that is all that matters to me. dang! i got mean over the summer! i have to try to be nice! GET NICER! aahh! it's so hard though! how come everyone else has stuff in their life but my life just seems to... normal. well no one's life is normal but my life just has nothing in it. i have stress. does that count? you know what really gets to me? when people say something and you can't understand it and you ask them to repeat it but then they say "oh it was nothing." that really pisses me off! i mean i do it too. i know i am a hypocrite for saying what i said but it just pisses me off to the extent to where i want to cuss them out! sorry but that is just how i feel. if you feel the same way then just tell me and i will try not to do it to you. i have no patience! seriously. people take too damn long to decide on where to eat or what to do. it is so annoying! gosh. whatever. i hide my feelings and i am pretty good at it. i don't know why. i guess i am just scared of getting hurt. it's hard to trust people. it's hard to let them get close to you. not physically but emotionally and mentally. well it is for me. i can't let people get close to me in that way. it's just to hard. but i have to learn to do that because i will have to one day. but that day hasn't come yet. at least i don't think it has. or has it? crap.

quote: there is a difference between friends and TRUE friends.

it's so boring today! i hate it! there is never anything to do during the weekends. oh well. i don't care. actually, yes i do. SOMEONE TAKE ME OUT SOMEWHERE! grr. i hate being at home and being bored! it is so annoying! grr.. that's all the crap that i have to put. peace out.