quote: one word: AMAZING!

BEACH DAY! woot woot! it was SA's beach picnic thing. i got to spend time with chris! yay! freaking briggitte, sheila, and jina threw me in the water and chris didn't even help me! i swallowed some water though. it was acutally very funny! chris is the hardest person to throw in the water. people should really spend time with their special someone if they are going to be with them. if you choose an object over them then maybe you aren't ready to have a special someone. and i do believe that people need and want attention from their special someone. you can't have a relationship if you don't spend time together. even just talking. is that so hard to do? seriously! but aside from that, today was great! i can't believe i lost in big two. that's crap! so i will lose next time. but it will is all worked out. we have a plan to even it out. ok. i think i will go now. peace out.

quote: i'm a campaign manager.. wow!

jed has a blog? since when? hmm... quite intersting. omg. jed makes me so confused! strongbad? star runner? what is this? yay! i got PR! i am happy. but i feel so bad for winning. ok. i don't want to be like jed and write a buttload on my blog. so long! =)

quote: lizards are scary!

jed is stupid! he tried to hit me with paper. squirt smells like andrew.. or andrew smells like squirt. lizards are weird. ok.

quote: you are an idiot! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

i'm blogging because chris needs something to read. haha! i love you babe! i can't spell hassle. so what?!? andrew is the stupidest guy i know. seriously. he tried to serenade me with an eminem song. but it was the nice part. haha! ok. maybe you had to be there. but whatever. today kind of sucked. but it relieved my mind off of the speaker for the vespers! thank you so much jed! seriously! i couldn't do it without you! but still. today sucked! foshizo! MY KIZZER! i didn't get to do something that i really wanted to do today. stupid coach! it was planned and everything. piece of crap! squirt is so cute! i don't understand why chris doesn't want to kiss him. but that's ok. we had a stpid officers meeting today. i really hate those. i am not sure if i want to run for an office next year. it's kind of yeah. but i think that i will. if i make it then that's great. if i don't then i'm cool with that. ok. sorry chris! i can't think of anything else to write. oh! christopher sungtae ha is the hottest and sexiest person ever! bye! =)

quote: WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!?

first, BIG SUR WAS FUN! ok. that's all i'm going to say. now... WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!? oh my gosh! what is going on? if you are going to have a relationship with someone, make sure it's ONLY WITH THAT ONE PERSON! don't make it seem like you like someone else. i understand that people like to spend time with other people. but you don't have to be all up on them and touchy feely. tsk tsk! why are people like that?
geez. friends are so complicated. MY KIZZER! why you gotta have competition, huh? it's just seems so wrong. oh well! they can't work it out themselves.
what is the point of long term relationships while you are still in high school? isn't it the time in our lives where we should have a lot of bFs/gFs so that we know what we want in a guy. i know that if you have someone and are pretty sure you are satisfied with them then you want to stay with them. but what if you leave that person and go "explore" other things and you find something better? then what? see. i don't know anymore. i'm not saying i want to stop the relationship that i have but i just want someone to answer my question. no one seems to know that answer and it really bugs. aren't we supposed to be exploring new things and not just settle for what you have now? it's so complicated! does anyone know what the point of long term relationships are? anyone?

quote: i think we're going to break up soon.

I'M GETTING FISH! i think that i will name them boba and bubbles. yah. that sounds about right. ok. back to my day. it was crap! i went to the mall and my mom just pissed me off so bad! i hate going shopping with her. i saw the panda and koala shirts at american eagle but she wouldn't let me get it! that's so gay! they are like the coolest shirts ever! UGH! anyway. back to the real reason to why i am blogging. i think that chris and i are going to break up some time soon. i can't take it anymore! we fight so much and it's not just one thing. it is a collection of all these different things that have collected over time. i just can't take all this getting mad. but then again that part is my fault. i don't understand why he puts up with it. he says it's because he loves me and he cares and he doesn't know how he could live without me. but i think that we are better off seperated. i just want to give up! i'm so tired of feeling like my heart is being torn. if we broke up we would eventually get over each other even if it took a long time. i don't want to give up the best thing that happened to me. but now, it's just getting to be so horrible. we have drifted apart so much. and with summer coming we are going to drift apart even more. I HATE THIS!

quote: eeewwww. gross!

superficial people are so gay! i was watching that one show "are you hot?" oh my goodness. it's so stupid! it's a bunch of people that are judging you by the way they look. it's so stupid! ugh. whatever. i don't care anymore! T.A.T.U. is a weird band. they are lesbians! why do they have to make out in their music video. i hate it when people are shooting a video and they are making out and they go in for a close up. i mean come on! we don't need to see what's going on up in there!!! their tongues are everywhere! it's so gross! is it really necessary for them to do that? honestly! hey! junior senior banquet is tomorrow. i get to serve stuff. heh! BLAH!

quote: we're on a break.

i would have to say that the past week was the crappiest week ever! i caused so much trouble between chris and i. i must be the most stupid person ever. look where we are now. it sucks so much! i can't even describe how i feel right now. why am i so retarded? i feel like crap! CRAP! this spring break is going to suck. wow! i has been a year since i told him that i liked him. i can't believe it! last spring break i talked to him like everyday of the week. this spring break when we are acutally together, we aren't even talking. this sucks.

quote: SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT! I'M SO SCREWED!

the past to days were crap! yesterday, my parents got my grades. i got a bad grade in spanish because stupid ms. gordon only put on 3 entries for our grades. so it looks like im stupid. man! i cried so much! this morning, my eyes were all puffy and stuff. school was ok. we had the surprise thing for joanna today. it went well. everything was going ok. i was going to get shaved ice and everything.. then chris called. he tells me that snyder just got off the phone with my mom because she asked about my grade. he told her that there might me a distraction and that i have a boyfriend. crap. and it all went south from there. i asked teo if he could run me over with his car. i would rather die than face my parents. but eventually i had to. i walked in and my dad was like, "hey! how's the boyfriends?" geez. they gave me a lecture and all that gibberish. i cried like a mother! oh well! they want me to sit away from chris and break up with him. the sit away part i will do. but i'm not breaking up with him. screw that!

quote: kick away the need... DANG IT! kick it away!

it is such a sad yet joyous day for me. today, my "baby" commit suicide. rachel was throwing it to me. but i was not aware. it was all so sudden. i saw something fly. i asked rachel if it was my beloved "baby," my eraser. she nodded. i tried to look for it under the tables during biology. no where. yes. no where to be found. i thought it was under the front table. i was mistakened. the last time i saw my beloved was when it jumped off of my backpack. i ask, "why? why leave me now?" yes i knew that it was bound to happen some day. but i was hoping that it would die and not commit suicide or get kidnapped or lost. i hoped that it would die like a normal and natural death, by being used up by all the erasing that it has to do. but no. it died a tragic death. i mourn for the loss of my beloved eraser by being hyper and happy on the outside. but truely, on the inside, i am in pain. in pain because my "baby" is gone. forever. but wait. it may not be. it may still be alive. it may still be in mr snyder's room. there, on the floor, waiting for me to come and bring it home. but that is just a maybe. a small maybe. it is a maybe hanging by a small thread. after a while, if i do not find "my baby" i will eventually end my mourning. but do not fret. i have a new eraser in my life. rachel gave it to me for my birthday. i was planning on using it when "my baby" was gone. and i guess, i guess now is the time for me to use it. i did not name "my baby" before. but i will now. my new one is called DAVE. yes. DAVE. i plan to have many joyous times with dave. he is good to me. people say he is better than "my baby," but i beg to differ. "my baby" was with me ever since third grade. we have been through so much. i will keep those memories in my heart forever. "my baby" R.I.P. remember, i bought you in chinatown for $1. i hope you are happy in your "eraser heaven." it is a good place. no more rubbing on paper or desks. just a calm and peaceful environment. GOOD-BYE "MY BABY"... HELLO DAVE.

quote: *sigh* the bitter and the sweet... what can i say... i just have more sweet.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! my valentines day was excellent and dee-lite-fool. woot woot! i have a valentine and YOU don't. it's ok. don't fret. it's all good. i got two message in a balloon. not one. but TWO! but chris only meant to get me one. they accidentally gave me two. oh well. more candy for me! heeh! ok. i can't tell you much or else you guys will hit me or something. but i will tell you this.. I HAVE SPIDE SENSE!

quote: woohoo! it's my birthday! sweet 16!

today was acutally more than just ok. it was excellent! yah! i was pretty mad at first because i didn't want people knowing about my birthday. but oh well. freaking michelle, chris, rachel, and veronica! man! piss me off! it got better as the day went by. i was so hyper today! yeah! LET'S DANCE! ha ha ha! poor chris. he seemed so sad/mad today. but that all went away. stupid ms. gordon. but thanks to her trusty helpers in the balloon committee, i got my balloons from chris. wow! i actually got balloons! it was so embarrassing getting them at LAB though. that was the last class that i would think they would sing happy birthday to me. no seriously. even snyder sang. hmm... weird. the rest of the day went by great! chris got my flowers! OMG! that is sooo sweet! i can't believe that he actually got that for me! awww! i went to japanese village with jen and mark. we ate mexican food. WOW! soo YUMMY! i ate mango mochi and kona coffee mochi! yay! i got stars to make for "people." tee hee! we had this complicated plan on how to get the flowers into my house. haha! A HOOT! ok. that's all. happy birthday to me! wee!

quote: chicago!

yay! i gotto see him 3 times! woot woot! 3 times is a lot compared to other times. hahaha! we're funny. crack me up funny! i can't wait until tuesday. actually, i can't wait until friday because i get my frap ad nM&Ms! YAY! food. i'm going to win a bet and i'm happy. vacation is crap. i'm bored! someone take me somewhere! i'm mad a vince! he took erin to the loft but he didn't take me. i get to go there twice now! TWICE! sucka! hey! we should have a joint party! come on! we are going to turn 16 and we should have lots and lots of fun! yeah! we can go to todai and then have a party at kevin's. because of course we can't have it at my house or at erin's house. yah kevin's house! woot squared!

quote: megan is in the philippines. i'm so jealous!

aiya! i was so bored today! i didn't even want to go to that 50th anniversary thing. i don't even know those people! they seem so stuck up. eh. stupid high class filipinos. anyway. it was boring. do people expect for me to go with them somewhere when they don't even tell me? i mean seriously. do you people think that i know what's going on when you don't tell me crap!?!? my gosh! you know what, you guys can just do whatever you want. i will just stay here and do my own thing because what you guys are doing is really pissing me off. it may be a stupid thing to be upset about but that's how it is for me. damn it. i give up. it doesn't really matter to me anymore. i don't want to be a part of this whole thing anymore. it just gets me more and more angry. ::subject warp:: megan is gone! nooo! this sucks. i don't get to talk to her for like forever! at least i get some stuff from the philippines that i actually like. the only things that i get from the philippines is that mango/tamarind stuff. it's pretty good though but i keep getting those stuff. and all the other stuff is getting old. yay! i get stuff. oh crap! i have to go christmas shopping. eh. there's aren't many people to buy for so it's ok. feelings: sad, mad, upset, blah, happy, bored.

quote: omg. who cares about cliques!

omg! it pisses me off. people think that they are the only ones that do anything. well guess what... YOU'RE NOT! geez. people do things too. and you know what? i don't like you in that position! grr. i never wanted you there! and stop talking about cliques. GET OVER IT! it's not loke you're not in one. and it's not like you are doing anything about it anyway. so don't be a hypocrite and tell us what to do when you aren't doing it either. stupid person! piss me off...

quote: bible videos... sigh.

wow mama! i haven't blogged in a while. sorry megan. the banquet was fun! =) i had tons of fun. the bus ride was the best. it always is. but this year was special... hehe. i LOVED sunday night. it was the best! for real. i think that we sang pretty well. don't you agree? well that's just my opinion so you don't have to take it. lilo & stitch was so cool! freakin chris! he practically memorizes the whole movie. loser butt! but i still love you. omg. the christmas banquet was a wonderful night. or should i say excellent and delightful. ha ha ha! i crack myself up. gee gosh! they didn't even have any stupid cockroaches at that stupid yacht club or however you spell it. ergh. people have to start appreciating cockraoches. hmm yes. anyway, off the topic of the banquet... THE BIBLE PROJECT!!! so much work to do. i mean we are already done but it was just so stressful. my goodness. i will never do that again this sophomore year. seriously. i won't. i will just stick with book reports and some of the other things that we can do for bible projects. i am not up for the type of stress in the near future. but it was really funny when we were filming. freaking bob! it took him forever just to get the one line down. but it was funny. this week pooped me out. ha ha ha! funny word. but at least i got to have some fun today. so it's ok. i'm tired. time for ZzZzz. payce... (funny work)

quote: megan hates me... well she used to. wow! everyone hates everyone. what a lovely world.

DAMN YOU, SUPERFICIAL PEOPLE!

yo! what's up g dawg? erh? holy mother... i haven't blogged in a long time. eh. it's not like anyone reads this. except for danny. geez. people are bored... hahaha! it's so cold in my house. it is usually normal temp. hmm.... in-ter-es-ting. we are never going to go to SANTA MONICA. sorry. that was probably my bad. YAY! christmas banquet is going to be so cool! i am so happy! it will be fun! only four more days until the big day. dang. it sounds like i'm getting married.. "the big day..." but that won't be happening in another ten years or so. so it's ok. i finally got shoes to go with my dress. they are ok shoes, i guess. but they make me four to five inches taller. woow! at least i can be closer to chris' height than i am now. i mean the difference between us is ten to eleven inches. TEN TO ELEVEN FREAKING INCHES! that's almost oen whole foot! that's what i get for being short and going out with a tall korean boy. it's ok. by then end of this whole banquet thing, i will have spent about $120. that's not bad. i guess. shoes were more expensive than i wanted them to be. but it's ok. i can live with it. oh my freaking gosh! what happened to me today was weird. i was walking with my dad at santa anita mall. we were done buying my shoes and we were going to leave. this lady stops us and tells my dad that she was looking at me and thinks that i'm "so cute." ok...? then she starts talking to me about acting, commercials, modeling, and pictures. i was like, "what the...?" i tried making up excuses to get out of it but she would turn the tables on me. like for instance, i said that i was shy. (LIES!) and she said that they are doing this so they could get rid of my shyness. damn it. my dad said that it was up to me. i really didn't want to do it so i just turned her down. it was so weird. i find it funny. i am not into that modeling stuff. and besides, why do i have to do it? i already have people that care about me and love me just the way i am. sorry. but i am not superficial. i'm not like some people. geez. and when she was talking about all that stuff that she had to offer i was thinking, "you MUST be those fake people that try to rip people off by telling them that they are meant to be all that stuff because why would you pick ME out of all the people in the mall?" seroiusly. but eh, whatever. i bet she just picked random people and stopped them when they passed by. she even made me smile and turn my head to a certain angle. weirdo. ok. it was a funny experience though.

quote:i don't have one. eh...

i'm so bored. stupid vacation. as of now, i have absolutely no feelings for anything or anyone. i am totally numb. maybe it's because i am really tired. hmm. i don't know. whatever. it kind of sucks to feel this way. it's like i don't care about anyone or anything. ha! funny. carefree! woop ti woop. but theh, once in a while, i feel fear. eh. too lazy to type. peace out.

quote: I HATE JED DE LA PAZ! (piss me off, man! piss me off!)

it was such a fun day! yeah! filipino club outing! omg. the flip side cracked me up! seriously! you're a coconut! or are you a rotten banana? hmm... omg. it was so funny! omg! max made my day. no. max is not a person. it is a restaurant. it has really good food! i got tapsilog! YUMMY! man. megan should have gotten something to eat. i could tell that she really wanted some of my delicious food. the restroom incident: we went into the restroom and i need to go really bad. i tried to open one of the doors but something seemed to be pushing on it really hard. i was like "what the..." and i pushed harder. then i saw part of a ladies shirt in there. i was like "oh crap!" i ran in the other restroom. megan and i were laughing so hard! i couldn't go to the restroom because i was laughing so hard and i was standing. and it i tried to, i would pee in my pants. if that's too much info for you, then that's too bad! ok. omg. then, i was washing my hands, then the lady was going to come out of the restroom. i was so scared! megan told me to go. so i ran out if the restroom. oh man! scary stuff! ok. it was really funny! i couldn't stop laughing. HAHAHA! that made my day! it was just so funny! man! why do we have to give tip to people. geez. food is good. ooh. eeeww! vince kissed me on the cheek! GROSS! it was a friendly kiss but still GROSS! stupid dork! but i guess that we are even now. oh! i bought two AE shirts! yay! i like them both. but jed and megan like the fish one better. hmm. IT'S A SIGN! haha! omg! freaking jed! he was messing with my mind for one hour and twenty five minutes! geez. ok. for the first few minutes it's ok. it's not so bad. but after about an hour and twenty five minutes of it, you start to get a little agitated. just a little. OMG! i was so pissed off! he lied about how he was soo much! half filipino half hawaiian. wtf is that?!?! 9th grader that chris doesn't know. wtf! i hate you jed! seriously. i was getting so mad! stupid dork!

quote: stay what you are.

meng! parents piss me off! i hate living up to their stupid expectations and their stupid crap. lectures... lectures... and more lectures. aiya. whatever. i think that we did well today. but we only had one stupid mike and we weren't loud enough. GRRR! oh well. it's over now so we can't do anything about it. hindi bali. yay! filipino club outing! i am so happy. oh man! i have to take a flyer for it. crazy! i am going to have so much fun there! yeah! go FLIP SIDE! i really want to watch that movie. it seems really good and funny and all that other stuff that goes witha filipino movie. haha! man! i screwed up so much! i am so sorry! i shouldn't have even done what i did. it was so stupid! I AM SOOOO SUPER SORRY!!! i am the worst person ever. I LOVE YOU! crap! i still have to buy a banquet dress. i need to LOOK for one. geez. i am such a dork. i have one in mind but i know that i am not going to get it. freakin $129. crud! so much stupid money just for one WINDSOR dress. stupid windsor! they are so expensive. i am just going to go to the one on vally. seriously. it seems so much cheaper. well most places are cheaper than windsor. i don't understand why windsor is so expensive. it's just the brand. aiya! who cares about the stupid brand. MONEY! hello! are people that shallow? i'm not saying that if you buy a dress at windsor, then you are shallow. i have gotten a dress from there before. but i mean, people that but things for the brand. that's who is shallow. i mean seriously. expensive stuff isn't always the best. but sometimes i can be impulsive and go against what i am saying right now. but everyone is guilty of that. so eyah. ok. what do i have to spend for the banquet? dress, shoes, hair, boutonniere, and half of pictures. that's not too bad. it's still more than $100. but if it's $100 or less, i will be soo happy! you don't even understand. i am so low on cash. and i still have to think of where i am going to go for A.A.W. mother humper! chorale people don't have to go through this! aiya! but at least we have a choice of where we want to go. haha! suckers. but we are all suckers, so whatever. awww. *SUCKERS FOREVER*