i have been getting hurt so much lately. before i went to puc i got a paper cut on my finger. and it is in the creases where your fingers bend so every time i bent my finger or something came in contact with it, it would hurt like a mother! then after puc i was taking a shower and i saw two bruises on my leg. i probably got it from puc but i do not know how. then i got a cut from who knows where. and on friday i was “trying to be slick” and a got a splinter on my finger. but the worst injury i got was also the most embarrassing. i went to ozzie’s room to give him a check for northern. when i was opening the door, jessie and kyle were coming. so when i opened it, jessie pushed it back so it would not hit him. and since i am short the door knob hit me on my boob. it hurt so bad! you do not even know the pain! it is probably like when a guy gets kicked in the nuts. but i would not know. after that i was talking to phil. bryan walked in and i told him that i got hit in the boob. at first he thought that phil did it. but when i told him that it was the door knob he started laughing. so did megan. yeah. i know i am short! so what. but now i have a bruise on my boob. it is the worst bruise i have ever gotten in my life. that is not good. cancer! let’s hope that never happens. so much pain.
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
Monday, February 28, 2005
i have been getting hurt so much lately. before i went to puc i got a paper cut on my finger. and it is in the creases where your fingers bend so every time i bent my finger or something came in contact with it, it would hurt like a mother! then after puc i was taking a shower and i saw two bruises on my leg. i probably got it from puc but i do not know how. then i got a cut from who knows where. and on friday i was “trying to be slick” and a got a splinter on my finger. but the worst injury i got was also the most embarrassing. i went to ozzie’s room to give him a check for northern. when i was opening the door, jessie and kyle were coming. so when i opened it, jessie pushed it back so it would not hit him. and since i am short the door knob hit me on my boob. it hurt so bad! you do not even know the pain! it is probably like when a guy gets kicked in the nuts. but i would not know. after that i was talking to phil. bryan walked in and i told him that i got hit in the boob. at first he thought that phil did it. but when i told him that it was the door knob he started laughing. so did megan. yeah. i know i am short! so what. but now i have a bruise on my boob. it is the worst bruise i have ever gotten in my life. that is not good. cancer! let’s hope that never happens. so much pain.
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
i hate econ! it is the worst class. all of my other classes are ok. but whenever i walk into econ i feel so much negativity. the class itself is ok. but i guess it is just some of the people that are in there. they remind me of so much crap. and i do not want to deal with it. i feel like certain things are being rubbed in my face. whenever i am in there i always want to leave. it is such a relief when i get out of the room. i hate it so much! i wish i could just switch periods. but i can’t. i need physics and art. having econ third period is the only way i can graduate. fuck! three more months. i just need to keep telling myself that. i hate the effin class!
ok. if a girl likes a boy and the boy knows about it (and possibly, just possibly, he might like her too, which i highly doubt), the girl deserves to either know about his feelings, and he must be very clear and honest about it, or HE SHOULD ASK HER TO JR/SR BANQUET! damn. the girl deserves one night, even if it is just a “fantasy.” it is our freaking senior year! last chance. no turning back. do one or the other! unless you plan to just string them along until who knows when. effin!
(this entry is either going to screw me over or make my day. eh, we‘ll see.)
Friday, February 25, 2005
from "The Idler" No. 23. Saturday, 23 September 1758
Life has no pleasure higher or nobler than that of friendship. It is painful to consider that this sublime enjoyment may be impaired or destroyed by innumerable causes, and that there is no human possession of which the duration is less certain...
Those who would gladly pass their days together may be seperated by the different courses of their affairs; and the friendship, like love, is destroyed by long absence, though it may be increased by short intermissions. What we have missed long enough to want it we value more when it is regained; but that which has been lost till it is forgotten, will be found at las with little gladness, and with still less if a substitute has supplied the place...
i am so sad. this is how it is going to be during college. but this is how it is for me with some people right now. =(
Life has no pleasure higher or nobler than that of friendship. It is painful to consider that this sublime enjoyment may be impaired or destroyed by innumerable causes, and that there is no human possession of which the duration is less certain...
Those who would gladly pass their days together may be seperated by the different courses of their affairs; and the friendship, like love, is destroyed by long absence, though it may be increased by short intermissions. What we have missed long enough to want it we value more when it is regained; but that which has been lost till it is forgotten, will be found at las with little gladness, and with still less if a substitute has supplied the place...
i am so sad. this is how it is going to be during college. but this is how it is for me with some people right now. =(
Thursday, February 24, 2005
i don’t care. i shall wear my heart on my sleeve. or my blog. whatever. i am tired of having feelings for someone when i know that it will and can never happen. you see them everyday and you know you shouldn’t be thinking certain things. but “some of us prefer illusion to despair.” (i like referring to bryan’s blog.) i have to stop myself from thinking that it could, might, will. NO! it won’t! i really need a slap on the face (and not from megan) so i can just stop. i know it will NEVER happen. i just want it to stop COMPLETELY. i am tired. i can’t take it anymore. i do not want to worry anymore. hearts heal, don’t they? four months of school left. maybe then... i can’t believe i am actually considering going to PUC. when i went up there i felt really comfortable. i am not usually like that. maybe i am just “coming out of my shell.” but it was so much fun! especially when it was just me and megan at the dorm. if we roomed together it would be so fun! but i do not know. day after day i am considering it more and more. i wish that i could take LSU’s nursing program and put it at PUC. then i would go there for sure! but the chance of that happening is zero. =( i will just have to choose then. this is so hard! i have a roommate for LSU already. but i love PUC. I LOVE YOU ANGWIN! haha. it is so beautiful up there. if i go to LSU i can visit bryan at PUC and we can eat at giunis. he promised. this is so hard! i really do not know what school to go to. i went to PUC college days so i could miss school. i never thought i would actually like it up there! waa! i am in a pickle. i don’t want to grow up. PUC? LSU? help.
partyboybryan87: i'm watching scrubs
xxji2z3n1ferxx: gay!
partyboybryan87: and turk and carla picked a date for their wedding
partyboybryan87: april 24th
oh yeah. we are leaving on april 24, 2005 for northern. great.
everything reminds me...
partyboybryan87: i'm watching scrubs
xxji2z3n1ferxx: gay!
partyboybryan87: and turk and carla picked a date for their wedding
partyboybryan87: april 24th
oh yeah. we are leaving on april 24, 2005 for northern. great.
everything reminds me...
Sunday, February 20, 2005
yay! i am at puc.. i am not going here for college though. but bob and ivy are. and megan might. bryan is so happy. megan's a maybe!!! jennifer's not. FISHES! CHICKEN! i felt pretty comfortable when i got here. that is pretty weird because i have never really been here for a whole 24 hours. but it was realy comfortable. bryan was scared for a while but then he was with his people (haha) he got really comfortable. it is his home. anyways... classes were really boring. i knocked out because we only got a few hours of sleep. we had to switch rooms last night. we are staying with brig's cousin and pastor chung's cousin. they are so nice! they have so much food! i love it! we went to the jelly belly factory. bryan passed on his arm pain to me while we were on the bus. we both got kind of pissed off because the people were being such big asses! damn! the tour was so boring. we were going to get ice cream but we decided to wait until northern. i do not think i am going on the tour when we go to northern. i am just going to get ice cream and hang out at the cafe. the bus ride back was better. jelly bean fights! haha... today was interesting. i never go to breakfast. but i think tomorrow we actually will. stacey knocked out durning church. my cousin came. it is his birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! well i guess it was yesterday because it is 2 am at the moment. whee! but the highlight of my trip, so far, was the dating game! bryan and megan were one of the contestants! bryan won! he won a date with adrin.. i think that is how you spell her name. megan did not win though. it was so great! =) the tsunami releaf concert was good. there was rapping and hip hop dancing which was surprising to bryan. and now i am at the dorm. our hosts are not here. they are par-taying. haha! megan, bob, ashley, and brig are knocked out. ivy left already. i do not really know what to say now. oh! i learned some korean! i can carry a short, and i emphasize the word SHORT, conversation with bryan. yay for me! well that is all for me. peace out! =)
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
"'Cause even if it breaks your heart to be 'just friends', if you really care about someone, you'll take the hit."
people always leave... but sometimes they come back.
singles’ awareness day. it was not as bad as i thought. it actually went pretty well. i really thought that i would be totally bitter and hating it because of what happened last year. but not the case. when i got to school people were so surprised that i was wearing a skirt. I CAN’T BELIEVE I WORE A FREAKING SKIRT! people were literally announcing it to everyone. LITERALLY! i got some compliments so that made me happy.. one of the reasons why this day was not so crappy. but for some reason when i got to econ, i got brought down. it was so depressing. but then art cheered me up. from then on i felt pretty darn good. i helped get ready for the box lunch. i did not get to see the room until later. but when i saw it, it was so beautiful! our box lunch was special because it was not a normal one. we had two. kind of... we used the copy room for our “ghetto” one. it was just this cheap thing with techno music. we fed them cookies, mini burritos, california rolls, cheese, crackers, and water. the guys spent $85 on that. or so they thought. haha! they were trying to be happy but you could tell they were disappointed. but after a while, we told them that we were going to get them dessert and to close their eyes and get up. when you walk into lilybeth’s room the lights are off. there is a pathway you have to walk through of lights and candles. that led you to a candle lit table underneath icicle lights and paper hearts that were on the ceiling. the guys sat down where we put chocolate roses and they girls could sit anywhere else. the girls served the guys. there was roast, bread, pancit, california rolls, spaghetti, lasagna, enchiladas, and i think that is all. then dessert came... DESSERT!!! joanna brought those really good candy apples from her work. it was a green apple dipped in caramel, then dipped in white chocolate with graham cracker bits all over. yum... then we had berries with whipped cream. it was so sexy! haha! sarah made a seven layer cake. it had this brownie/cake layer and it had fudge and caramel, and whip cream, and all this other stuff. so friggin good! =) i was so full! we did not finish in time so people ditched english and bible to clean. it was pretty funny... we didn’t really know how well ms. rich takes bribes. but it was food. i got a lot of candy today.. but no flowers. whatever. =/ i went home and it was such an interesting night. i was talking to bryan about certain things. then chris IMed me about the most random thing. i was kind of scared but i felt like i was being more open than i have been in the past. i do not really know what northern is going to be like. i have a feeling i will be outside of my room a lot and just listening to music. bryan called me at around 11 pm because he had to vent or talk or something of that nature. we talked for about an hour and a half about all the drama. northern is going to be great. =/ so much drama. at least i am not really a part of it. once this thing blows up it will be so weird. i feel so out of place with the northern group this year. i think it will not be as fun as last year, but gotta make the best out of it. to quote bryan “i hate valentine’s day.”
people always leave... but sometimes they come back.
singles’ awareness day. it was not as bad as i thought. it actually went pretty well. i really thought that i would be totally bitter and hating it because of what happened last year. but not the case. when i got to school people were so surprised that i was wearing a skirt. I CAN’T BELIEVE I WORE A FREAKING SKIRT! people were literally announcing it to everyone. LITERALLY! i got some compliments so that made me happy.. one of the reasons why this day was not so crappy. but for some reason when i got to econ, i got brought down. it was so depressing. but then art cheered me up. from then on i felt pretty darn good. i helped get ready for the box lunch. i did not get to see the room until later. but when i saw it, it was so beautiful! our box lunch was special because it was not a normal one. we had two. kind of... we used the copy room for our “ghetto” one. it was just this cheap thing with techno music. we fed them cookies, mini burritos, california rolls, cheese, crackers, and water. the guys spent $85 on that. or so they thought. haha! they were trying to be happy but you could tell they were disappointed. but after a while, we told them that we were going to get them dessert and to close their eyes and get up. when you walk into lilybeth’s room the lights are off. there is a pathway you have to walk through of lights and candles. that led you to a candle lit table underneath icicle lights and paper hearts that were on the ceiling. the guys sat down where we put chocolate roses and they girls could sit anywhere else. the girls served the guys. there was roast, bread, pancit, california rolls, spaghetti, lasagna, enchiladas, and i think that is all. then dessert came... DESSERT!!! joanna brought those really good candy apples from her work. it was a green apple dipped in caramel, then dipped in white chocolate with graham cracker bits all over. yum... then we had berries with whipped cream. it was so sexy! haha! sarah made a seven layer cake. it had this brownie/cake layer and it had fudge and caramel, and whip cream, and all this other stuff. so friggin good! =) i was so full! we did not finish in time so people ditched english and bible to clean. it was pretty funny... we didn’t really know how well ms. rich takes bribes. but it was food. i got a lot of candy today.. but no flowers. whatever. =/ i went home and it was such an interesting night. i was talking to bryan about certain things. then chris IMed me about the most random thing. i was kind of scared but i felt like i was being more open than i have been in the past. i do not really know what northern is going to be like. i have a feeling i will be outside of my room a lot and just listening to music. bryan called me at around 11 pm because he had to vent or talk or something of that nature. we talked for about an hour and a half about all the drama. northern is going to be great. =/ so much drama. at least i am not really a part of it. once this thing blows up it will be so weird. i feel so out of place with the northern group this year. i think it will not be as fun as last year, but gotta make the best out of it. to quote bryan “i hate valentine’s day.”
Thursday, February 10, 2005
wow. haven’t blogged in a while. today was pretty fun. i was really giddy. i do not know why. i love art! it is my favorite class. all of the stress that i have just seems to disappear when i paint. west was being kind of retarded in art. it was so funny! when i was walking to physics i got kind of pissed off because i saw something. i was telling bryan that boys are gay and they lie and all that. then i went outside with bryan and jon jon. i was venting to them about how boys are gay. which is ironic considering that they are guys. =) we did not really do much in physics. i am pretty excited about the projects we have to do. ((this blog seems kind of boring. will anyone even read this?)) the freshmen did really well in chapel! victor can sing! he is so cute. he is like a little brother. they have so many talented people in their class. i talked to adam about his issues. aww! boys and girls suck! i got chocolate in chapel. yay! we watched this weird show in precal. i dunno. at least we did not have to do work. i talked to megan and bryan at lunch. MEGAN CAN GO TO PUC! i am so happy. she tried to tell me a million times but for some reason i did not get it. i got so sad. we were talking about our yearbook page. so many memories. four years went by so fast! i am going to cry on graduation day that is for sure. i gave blood! squeezing the ball every five seconds was probably the hardest thing! but i get a pint, or 12 oz in california, of free ice cream at baskin robins. but the highlight of my day was when i was walking to my locker and ms. rich was in front of me. then connie yelled from the balcony “hey ho!” and i was just like “hey...” i didn’t want to say “hey slut!” i was kind of scared ms. rich heard connie but i highly doubt it. ah megan, if you read this, i hate you! hahah...
Monday, December 27, 2004
december 26, 2004 was the best day after christmas i have ever had! my parents dropped me off at glendale galleria. i thought that i would be shopping alone but when i got to american eagle, gian popped out of nowhere and kevin was there with him. we went to abercrombie. i was looking through the sales table and i found a bag hidden in there. it was so cute! i did not know whether to buy it or not. i checked if it was on sale and IT WAS! but i was still unsure. i aksed gian and kevin if i should get is and they talked me into it. that bag was the best impulse buy i have ever done! they wanted to eat so i just went along with them. we ate at itchiban. philadelphia rolls are so good! then i went by myself to shop. i got these bags for only $10. then i went to american eagle and got the hoodie i have been wanting for a long time. christmas money is great! i came across those soft pillow carts. so i bought one for someone and a smaller one for our white elephant game later on that night. i was so tired of walking. so i went to borders to wait for jen to pick me up. i saw jen, teo, and andrew there. weird. i wrapped my presents and jen and i went to kevin's house. i was in a pissy mood but not too pissy. we played the white elephant game. i got this checkers thing. then for the secret santa, teo got me and he got me my phantom of the opera cd. yay! we ate. the prime rib was soooooooo good! and so was the strawberry chessecake. =) i was getting out of the car when jen dropped me off at home when i saw someone that looked like jed. so i called his name and it was jed. that was so werid! he wa there with ronan, xyra, and their cousin jasmine. they came to my house. xyra was taking pictures of the view from my balcony. then we went to their aunt's house which they were sleeping over at that night. we watched this filipino movie called "all my life." it was so long! then we watched "shaolin soccer." that has got to be the weirdest movie i have ever seen! it was fun! i went home at about 1 am. it was a tiring day. but so worth it!
Thursday, December 23, 2004
and two months later...
haha! sorry about that. i guess blogging just isn't my thing. today i went to watch the nutcracker at uci. it was better than i expected. on our way there my cousin was telling me about a wedding she went to recently. her friend was getting married. before that, him and his fiance were picking out wedding bands. she liked this white gold one with diamonds that was $1000. but he said he could not afford it so they got a cheaper one. and on the wedding day when it was time to exchange rings he pulled out the white gold with diamonds wedding band. she was so surprised and happy. it was so cute! and he played the yukaleli or however you spell it and sang since he is part hawaiian. that is so cute! anyway... my family ate out somewhere and my mom and her sister got into a fight. i have never seen my mom get into a fight with her siblings. it was kind of scary.. the food was good though! (happy family, megan!)
these past two months have been good. i got to reconnect with a friend but i think that is over. the pattern is usually that we talk a lot for a short time then we don't talk for about two months or so.. then the cycle continues. i guess i should be used to it by now but everytime it happens i get sad. =( hindi bali.. mahal ko siya parin.. pero mag kaibigan lang kami.. err. is it just timing? i don't know. i have been trying to figure it out for the longest time and i just can't.
i have some new information that has gotten me on edge for the past month or so. can't say what but it just has. it makes me wonder so many things. ah.. just thinking about it makes me feel sick. it is nothing gross.. it is just one more thing for me to worry about.
on a lighter note.. IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS! TWO MORE DAYS! i cannot wait! i am actually more excited for the day after christmas because i get to go shopping and i get to hang out with my friends. i miss kristina.
jenelyn's cousin is having her baby tonight or early tomorrow morning. i am so excited! i can't believe it has been nine months! i think she is naming it makayla or something like that.
i guess that is all i have to say. for not blogging for two months, i don't have much to say. haha! bye!
haha! sorry about that. i guess blogging just isn't my thing. today i went to watch the nutcracker at uci. it was better than i expected. on our way there my cousin was telling me about a wedding she went to recently. her friend was getting married. before that, him and his fiance were picking out wedding bands. she liked this white gold one with diamonds that was $1000. but he said he could not afford it so they got a cheaper one. and on the wedding day when it was time to exchange rings he pulled out the white gold with diamonds wedding band. she was so surprised and happy. it was so cute! and he played the yukaleli or however you spell it and sang since he is part hawaiian. that is so cute! anyway... my family ate out somewhere and my mom and her sister got into a fight. i have never seen my mom get into a fight with her siblings. it was kind of scary.. the food was good though! (happy family, megan!)
these past two months have been good. i got to reconnect with a friend but i think that is over. the pattern is usually that we talk a lot for a short time then we don't talk for about two months or so.. then the cycle continues. i guess i should be used to it by now but everytime it happens i get sad. =( hindi bali.. mahal ko siya parin.. pero mag kaibigan lang kami.. err. is it just timing? i don't know. i have been trying to figure it out for the longest time and i just can't.
i have some new information that has gotten me on edge for the past month or so. can't say what but it just has. it makes me wonder so many things. ah.. just thinking about it makes me feel sick. it is nothing gross.. it is just one more thing for me to worry about.
on a lighter note.. IT IS ALMOST CHRISTMAS! TWO MORE DAYS! i cannot wait! i am actually more excited for the day after christmas because i get to go shopping and i get to hang out with my friends. i miss kristina.
jenelyn's cousin is having her baby tonight or early tomorrow morning. i am so excited! i can't believe it has been nine months! i think she is naming it makayla or something like that.
i guess that is all i have to say. for not blogging for two months, i don't have much to say. haha! bye!
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
i figured out who replaced me. at first i was not certain who it was. it was a group of people. but there is one person that totally replaced me. well not totally. but then again, we shall see. on a different topic... doesn’t it piss you off when people lie to your face? for example, someone says they want to be your friend but they do not do anything about it. if they do not want to be your friend they should just tell you instead of lying to your face. if it were me, i would rather have someone tell me the truth instead of thinking that we may have a friendship and just sit there waiting for it to happen. i am fine talking to someone. but when they have a problem talking to you, they should tell you why so you do not spend time wondering what will happen. that really makes me mad! and it is not like there are any feelings left! so what is the freaking problem! man! if i blogged earlier today i think i would be so much more worked up about this. but i am calm right now. ugh! i am so frustrated! yeah. i am replaced. things we used to do they now do. i just want to know if i am wasting my time.
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Sunday, October 10, 2004
i had SATs today. boo! surprisingly my head did not hurt. that is a first. then rachel and i went to target. i bought my cool turquoise butterfly chair. i am so happy! it was only $10. it used to be $20. we went to starbucks. i tried the espresso brownie. yum! then we went to yoshinoya. i was so hungry! after taking the SATs my brain was in much need of food. we went to rachel's house so erin could pick us up. rachel and darren talked on the phone. gag! haha! just kidding! erin and noemi came. we got to mark's house and practiced. erin's cousin came. the habanera was so hard! but we are halfway done so it is all good. we did the haukilau or however you spell it. that song is stuck in my head! it has been for the entire day! now we're going, to the haukilau...
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
in the eye of the storm by max lucado
there is a window in your heart through which you can see God. once upon a time that window was clear. your view of God was crisp. you could see God vividly as you could see a gentle valley or hillside. the glass was clean, the pane unbroken. you knew God. you knew how he worked. you know what he wanted you to do. no surprises. nothing unexpected. you knew that God has a will and you continually discovered what it was.
then suddenly the window cracked. a pebble broke the window. a pebble of pain. perhaps the stone struck when you were a child and a parent left home - forever. maybe the rock hit in adolscence when your heart was broken. maybe you made it into adulthood before the window cracked. but then the pebble came... whatever the pebble's form, the result was the same - a shattered window. the pebble missiled into the pane and shattered it. the crash echoed down the halls of your heart. cracks shot out from the point of impact, creating a spider web of fragmented pieces.
and suddenly God was not so easy to see. the view that had been so crisp had changed. you turned to see God, and his figure was distorted. it was hard to see him through the pain. it was hard to see him through the fragments of hurt. you were puzzled. God wouldn't allow something like this to happen, would he? tragedy and travesty weren't on the agenda of the God you had seen, were they? had you been fooled? had you been blind?
the moment the pebble struck, the glass became a reference point for you. from then on, there was life before the pain and life after the pain. before your pain, the view was clear; God seemed so near. after your pain, well, he was harder to see. he seemed a bit distant. your pain distorted the view - not eclipsed it but distorted it. maybe these words don't describe your situation. there are some people who never have to redefine or refocus their view of God. most of us do.
i just thought that that was a pretty cool description. and that is how i feel now. my relationship with God is so off right now. it has been for a while. things are just so different. there are times when i feel like i should reconnect but after a while i just do not care anymore. but even though i am so distant from God he still seems to be leading me in subtle ways. like the college i wanted to go to. well, my life feels kind of off. there are a lot of fun things happening but things just seem off. i do not know what it is. there are just some things that i miss and wish could get back. but if i push then i do not think i will ever see it again. but if i do not do anything about it then it will never happen either. but it cannot just be me that does it. it takes two to tango.
there is a window in your heart through which you can see God. once upon a time that window was clear. your view of God was crisp. you could see God vividly as you could see a gentle valley or hillside. the glass was clean, the pane unbroken. you knew God. you knew how he worked. you know what he wanted you to do. no surprises. nothing unexpected. you knew that God has a will and you continually discovered what it was.
then suddenly the window cracked. a pebble broke the window. a pebble of pain. perhaps the stone struck when you were a child and a parent left home - forever. maybe the rock hit in adolscence when your heart was broken. maybe you made it into adulthood before the window cracked. but then the pebble came... whatever the pebble's form, the result was the same - a shattered window. the pebble missiled into the pane and shattered it. the crash echoed down the halls of your heart. cracks shot out from the point of impact, creating a spider web of fragmented pieces.
and suddenly God was not so easy to see. the view that had been so crisp had changed. you turned to see God, and his figure was distorted. it was hard to see him through the pain. it was hard to see him through the fragments of hurt. you were puzzled. God wouldn't allow something like this to happen, would he? tragedy and travesty weren't on the agenda of the God you had seen, were they? had you been fooled? had you been blind?
the moment the pebble struck, the glass became a reference point for you. from then on, there was life before the pain and life after the pain. before your pain, the view was clear; God seemed so near. after your pain, well, he was harder to see. he seemed a bit distant. your pain distorted the view - not eclipsed it but distorted it. maybe these words don't describe your situation. there are some people who never have to redefine or refocus their view of God. most of us do.
i just thought that that was a pretty cool description. and that is how i feel now. my relationship with God is so off right now. it has been for a while. things are just so different. there are times when i feel like i should reconnect but after a while i just do not care anymore. but even though i am so distant from God he still seems to be leading me in subtle ways. like the college i wanted to go to. well, my life feels kind of off. there are a lot of fun things happening but things just seem off. i do not know what it is. there are just some things that i miss and wish could get back. but if i push then i do not think i will ever see it again. but if i do not do anything about it then it will never happen either. but it cannot just be me that does it. it takes two to tango.
Friday, September 03, 2004
i just got back from my first behind the wheel experience. it was an interesting experience. at first i thought that we were just going to an empty parking lot and practice. but then i got behind the wheel and started driving around the steet. i was pretty freaked out considering the fact that I HAVE NEVER DRIVEN BEFORE IN MY LIFE! the closest thing i got to being behind the wheel was sitting down in the driver's seat because i was tired. well we drove, and drove, and drove... my butt started to hurt after about two hours of driving. we went over the time limit by thirty minutes. it was really traffic that is why. i hate traffic! grr... we went through residential areas and local streets. on our way home my instructor told me to go onto the freeway. i was like "why?" do people normally go on the freeway the very first time they drive, ever?!?! it was pretty scary. but i have decided that i like going fast! woohoo! but i could not really go that fast because there were too many cars. but that is ok. next time.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
it is the last day of vacation. i am so sad. this vacation was probably the best vacation that i have had! i went out so much! at least once a week. there was even one point where i did not sleep over at my house for three consecutive saturday nights. that was fun! i am surprised my parents let me. they are getting to be more lenient with me. yay! so when i drive i will probably never be home. but that is ok. they can get used to me not being home since i am going away for college. well this summer has been excellent! i shall miss you summer 2004. i bid you farewell!
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
"pieces of me" by ashlee simpson
it was a long hot day. jen and i went to school at around 2 pm because she had to give some of the teachers something. then we went to the west covina mall. i bought a messenger back and jen bought a back pack. we looked at the earrings at claire's. then we went to ikea to get stuff for my room. i got a lot of frames for cheap and got these cool blue vases that i am going to put flowers in. i finally got a cd rack. my mom will be so thrilled. i bought jen some of those cookies that taste like ferrera rocher. yum. then we went to lsu. we hung out with kristina and laura at the learning center. pearl was there too. but she is only there for the summer then going back to puc. erin came and we went to applebees to eat. it was so good! i really do not want to go into detail. it was just really fun! then we said bye to each other. jen and i left. she helped me with my stuff. she said bye to my dad. this may be the last day i see jen. aww! i am so sad!
it was a long hot day. jen and i went to school at around 2 pm because she had to give some of the teachers something. then we went to the west covina mall. i bought a messenger back and jen bought a back pack. we looked at the earrings at claire's. then we went to ikea to get stuff for my room. i got a lot of frames for cheap and got these cool blue vases that i am going to put flowers in. i finally got a cd rack. my mom will be so thrilled. i bought jen some of those cookies that taste like ferrera rocher. yum. then we went to lsu. we hung out with kristina and laura at the learning center. pearl was there too. but she is only there for the summer then going back to puc. erin came and we went to applebees to eat. it was so good! i really do not want to go into detail. it was just really fun! then we said bye to each other. jen and i left. she helped me with my stuff. she said bye to my dad. this may be the last day i see jen. aww! i am so sad!
Monday, August 16, 2004
Sunday, August 15, 2004
yesterday i went to my cousin's house after church. we ate and watched "13 going on 30." good movie! my auntie gave me a coach bag but i do not know if it is real or fake. but that is ok. then my dad took me to khaing's house for her party. i do not really want to talk about it. let's just say it was interesting. yeah.
well today i went to the mall with my family. i got some stuff. not much to say. sorry but i do not feel like writing. i will blog later, maybe.
well today i went to the mall with my family. i got some stuff. not much to say. sorry but i do not feel like writing. i will blog later, maybe.
Friday, August 13, 2004
wow! i totally did not realize that it was FRIDAY THE 13 until i came home and read phil's away message. oOOoo... scary day.
but it was not too scary for me. i went out with the pTc chicks today. we met up at west covina mall to buy our care bear shirts at hot topic. i hate their return policy! but whatever. i will just get a better shirt. after the mall we went to this filipino restaurant. i forgot what it was called. but it was cool because kristina and i were talking to them in tagalog. but erin and jen were just like "yeah. uh huh." funny stuff. then we went to tkt to take pictures. (we are not going to take all pTc pictures anymore because jen cannot be there.) we had to wait for a little bit so we decided to eat. the food was soooo good! i love filipino food! maybe it was because i have not had it in a long time. but none the less, it was de-li-shay-us! we decided to cut our wardrobe in half. so we only wore two different outfits. we wore jean and our care bear shirts and the other one was black dresses. well it was not all black. but yeah. we all have our own care bear character. i am bedtime bear. so i had a shirt and the bear. it was pretty cool. they are in our colors too. of course we made fun of jen and gave her a guilt trip about leaving us. then we waited for our pictures and ate. then we went to ikea. there are so many things that i want to get for my room! yay! i am excited! fantastic day! woot! =)
but it was not too scary for me. i went out with the pTc chicks today. we met up at west covina mall to buy our care bear shirts at hot topic. i hate their return policy! but whatever. i will just get a better shirt. after the mall we went to this filipino restaurant. i forgot what it was called. but it was cool because kristina and i were talking to them in tagalog. but erin and jen were just like "yeah. uh huh." funny stuff. then we went to tkt to take pictures. (we are not going to take all pTc pictures anymore because jen cannot be there.) we had to wait for a little bit so we decided to eat. the food was soooo good! i love filipino food! maybe it was because i have not had it in a long time. but none the less, it was de-li-shay-us! we decided to cut our wardrobe in half. so we only wore two different outfits. we wore jean and our care bear shirts and the other one was black dresses. well it was not all black. but yeah. we all have our own care bear character. i am bedtime bear. so i had a shirt and the bear. it was pretty cool. they are in our colors too. of course we made fun of jen and gave her a guilt trip about leaving us. then we waited for our pictures and ate. then we went to ikea. there are so many things that i want to get for my room! yay! i am excited! fantastic day! woot! =)
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
well, things are back to the way it has been for the past six months. i cannot believe it has been six months. well almost six months, at least. i guess i will just have to get used to this. one more year... sigh.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KHAING SABE!
me so full! i went out with jen, khaing, and masaki for khaing's birthday. jen and i picked up khaing at paseo after she got off work. it is so gay that she had to work during her birthday. stupid boss! we went to watch "little black book." masaki met us there. i liked the movie. it is not a typical love story. i recommend you watch it. then we went to pizza hut and khaing ordered pizza. we went back to her place to eat. we watched the teen choice awards. then we had ice cream cake. ice cream cake. yum. i ate so much! we all did! i am going to go watch "bruce almighty" and run. bye suckers!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KHAING SABE!
me so full! i went out with jen, khaing, and masaki for khaing's birthday. jen and i picked up khaing at paseo after she got off work. it is so gay that she had to work during her birthday. stupid boss! we went to watch "little black book." masaki met us there. i liked the movie. it is not a typical love story. i recommend you watch it. then we went to pizza hut and khaing ordered pizza. we went back to her place to eat. we watched the teen choice awards. then we had ice cream cake. ice cream cake. yum. i ate so much! we all did! i am going to go watch "bruce almighty" and run. bye suckers!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
i am tired. i had to wake up at 7:30 am to call my piano teacher and to reschedule. i tried to go back to sleep. i got a little rest. my dad woke me up at 9:30 am to get ready to go to anaheim to get uniforms. i was so out of it. it took us about thirty minutes to get to the true grits store. we were there for a while, trying on uniforms. i hate uniforms. but i am kind of glad that i do not have to pick out what to wear everyday. well i still do but now my options are limited, which makes it easier for me. we then went to jack in the box to eat lunch. then we went to sga to buy my bible book. i had to ask pastor peeke who my bible teacher is. jo, lori, and i were confused. we got to choose our bible classes or something like that. well i was going to tell holly what i wanted when i saw chris there. that was so uncalled for! my heart started beating really fast because i was so scared! my mom was there and people were saying his name. i was so scared that she was going to say something to me. but she did not. phew! well then, we went to hawaii supermarket to buy some things. then we went home. it was such a hot day today! but it is nice and cool in my house. yay!
Sunday, August 08, 2004
back to LA county. this weekend has been fun! church was pretty boring. but then we went to the cafe and they started talking about college. it was so weird! only kevin and i are the only ones left in high school. boo! but that is ok. we will have our time. it is all good. anyways, jen and i left for riverside at around 6 pm. we got starbucks on our way there. woohoo! i have not had starbucks in a while. i feel bad for erin because she has to drive an hour everyday to get to school and back home. she should just dorm. but that is not her decision. well we got to riverside. i played frisbee with kevin and daryl. the other people talked to erin’s neighbor, sam. i do not know him but i think i met him before. erin, kristina, and teo came and we ate. then we had to pick up kristopher at LSU. we went to the drive in movie. it was so cool! i can finally say that i have been to a drive in movie. jenelyn kept calling it a drive thru movie. aiya. we watched “collateral.” good movie. i would recommend it. we stayed at the drive in for a little bit longer and then us girls took kristina home. erin and i were going through all the lollipops that kristina had to find the flavors we liked. strawberry. yum! we went back to erin’s place. there was this cat that would not leave. stupid cat! dogs are better! haha! derek and mylene were there. we started watching “fahrenheit 9/11” but then we ended up playing poker. we played for about four hours or so. kristopher and i were the last ones left. we decided to just forget about it. i think i played well. heehee! we watched “shrek 2!” funny movie! we did not sleep until 6 am. us girls just talked about different things. i could not sleep for a while because it was waaaay too hot and daryl was snoring so loud! but i got about a good four hours of sleep. we woke up and ate. then we did some karaoke. jen was being so stupid! we ended up not helping kristina with her dorm. oh well. jen and i went home. it was so freaking hot! well not i am home now and i am really not tired. so yeah. jen and i are going to paint tomorrow. i am excited! if i like it i think i will hang it in my room. but we shall see. PIECES!
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
well my week has been pretty boring. after i got home from jen's house on sunday i started to read but then fell asleep. i only got about four hours of sleep saturday night. then i read "the little prince." it was a pretty good book. then on monday i read "the reader." it is a pretty erotic book. haha! damn it! i hate my keyboard!!! i cannot type correctly. screw this! that was all i needed to say anyway. bye!
Sunday, July 25, 2004
GIRL'S NIGHT OUT! WOOHOO!
i am at jenelyn's house right now. i did not want to go home so i slept over. well it is not like that... we had a girl's night out and i knew that we would be getting home late. so i asked jen if i could sleep over so that i would not have to go home and face my parents calling me all night and asking me when i would get home. it was easier this way. well since i am already blogging i might as well tell you about my day.
saturday. i actually went to church! holy crap! but i did not get to enjoy it much because my neck and my back were bothering me. i should really go to a chiropractor and get my back looked at. i do not want to be like phil.. haha! love you phil! anyways, i was with jenelyn. we were looking for the guys but none of them picked up their cell phones. stupid boys! so jen convinced me to come with her and her family to eat out at cocary. on our way out of the parking lot we saw the guys coming out of the hospital. that was the last we saw of them.
jen and i got to her cousin's house. starleth does not look pregnant at all. maybe a little. but she looks more fat than pregnant. everyone thinks so, so do not think i am this horrible person. even she says so. we rode with katherine's boyfriend, eddie. he drives pretty crazy. we got to cocary in alhambra. as we were looking for a space to park, one opened up. but there was this other car, a benz, that was trying to go after it as well. it was pretty stupid considering that we were there first and had the right of way. but they still tried to get it. it is a good thing that eddie has a small car because as soon as the car pulled out of the parking space, eddie just went for it. we were so scared that we were going to get into a fight or that when we got back to the car it would be all scratched up.
cocary was good. jen and i both said that we were not going to eat anything but we ended up eating something. their chicken was pretty good. i was new to the whole "cooking it yourself" thing since the last time i did that jessica did it for me. but it was pretty fun. we went back to jen's cousin's house and jen took me home. i had to kill about four hours so i did not know what to do. i eventually just fell asleep. i woke up and got ready to go out.
jen came a little early since she was pretty bored. we went to paseo where khaing works. khaing has a job! she sells himalayan salt crystal lamps on a cart at paseo. nice. the lamps are so freaking expensive. no offense khaing. but they are! $50 is the cheapest that they have. when we got to paseo jen and i looked around at some of the stores. then we went to see khaing. khaing told us to make reservations at islands so that we would not have to wait when she got off work. i had the hardest time going up the stairs. stupid exercises! after making the reservations at islands we ran into javier and patrick. WEIRD! we talked to them for a little bit and went back down to khaing. it was good seeing school people! jen and i looked at odd sunglasses. they had ones that were shaped as swans. nice. shephora has this really good lip gloss. it is really thick and only $10. it may sound expensive but once you try it you will think that it is a bargain. moving on... after khaing got off work we went to islands. erin met up with us there. we ordered our food and talked. jen actually finished her burger! that is amazing! we paid the bill.
jen and i went to khaing's house. for some reason i was really hyper on the way there. we were going to watch "anchorman" at khaing's house since she has the dvd but jen was too tired so we went back to her house. she showed me some of her old baby pictures. it's a boy! haha! just kidding. then we read some of the things that i wrote in her scrapbook. i cussed a lot! actually i only said s***. i do not know why. well now i am here, online, since jen is sleeping. i was reading people's blogs and xangas. very interesting. bryan's was probably the most interesting to me. he goes shopping quite a bit and buys CLOTHES and NECKLACES. WTF is that! i am telling you, he is becoming more and more feminine everyday. it scares me a little. but i saw it coming. and bryan, i still love you, no matter what choice you make. hahaha!
well i am going to go now because it is getting late and i am getting sleepy. good night everybody! or to the three or four people that actually read my blog. =( pieces!
i am at jenelyn's house right now. i did not want to go home so i slept over. well it is not like that... we had a girl's night out and i knew that we would be getting home late. so i asked jen if i could sleep over so that i would not have to go home and face my parents calling me all night and asking me when i would get home. it was easier this way. well since i am already blogging i might as well tell you about my day.
saturday. i actually went to church! holy crap! but i did not get to enjoy it much because my neck and my back were bothering me. i should really go to a chiropractor and get my back looked at. i do not want to be like phil.. haha! love you phil! anyways, i was with jenelyn. we were looking for the guys but none of them picked up their cell phones. stupid boys! so jen convinced me to come with her and her family to eat out at cocary. on our way out of the parking lot we saw the guys coming out of the hospital. that was the last we saw of them.
jen and i got to her cousin's house. starleth does not look pregnant at all. maybe a little. but she looks more fat than pregnant. everyone thinks so, so do not think i am this horrible person. even she says so. we rode with katherine's boyfriend, eddie. he drives pretty crazy. we got to cocary in alhambra. as we were looking for a space to park, one opened up. but there was this other car, a benz, that was trying to go after it as well. it was pretty stupid considering that we were there first and had the right of way. but they still tried to get it. it is a good thing that eddie has a small car because as soon as the car pulled out of the parking space, eddie just went for it. we were so scared that we were going to get into a fight or that when we got back to the car it would be all scratched up.
cocary was good. jen and i both said that we were not going to eat anything but we ended up eating something. their chicken was pretty good. i was new to the whole "cooking it yourself" thing since the last time i did that jessica did it for me. but it was pretty fun. we went back to jen's cousin's house and jen took me home. i had to kill about four hours so i did not know what to do. i eventually just fell asleep. i woke up and got ready to go out.
jen came a little early since she was pretty bored. we went to paseo where khaing works. khaing has a job! she sells himalayan salt crystal lamps on a cart at paseo. nice. the lamps are so freaking expensive. no offense khaing. but they are! $50 is the cheapest that they have. when we got to paseo jen and i looked around at some of the stores. then we went to see khaing. khaing told us to make reservations at islands so that we would not have to wait when she got off work. i had the hardest time going up the stairs. stupid exercises! after making the reservations at islands we ran into javier and patrick. WEIRD! we talked to them for a little bit and went back down to khaing. it was good seeing school people! jen and i looked at odd sunglasses. they had ones that were shaped as swans. nice. shephora has this really good lip gloss. it is really thick and only $10. it may sound expensive but once you try it you will think that it is a bargain. moving on... after khaing got off work we went to islands. erin met up with us there. we ordered our food and talked. jen actually finished her burger! that is amazing! we paid the bill.
jen and i went to khaing's house. for some reason i was really hyper on the way there. we were going to watch "anchorman" at khaing's house since she has the dvd but jen was too tired so we went back to her house. she showed me some of her old baby pictures. it's a boy! haha! just kidding. then we read some of the things that i wrote in her scrapbook. i cussed a lot! actually i only said s***. i do not know why. well now i am here, online, since jen is sleeping. i was reading people's blogs and xangas. very interesting. bryan's was probably the most interesting to me. he goes shopping quite a bit and buys CLOTHES and NECKLACES. WTF is that! i am telling you, he is becoming more and more feminine everyday. it scares me a little. but i saw it coming. and bryan, i still love you, no matter what choice you make. hahaha!
well i am going to go now because it is getting late and i am getting sleepy. good night everybody! or to the three or four people that actually read my blog. =( pieces!
Thursday, July 22, 2004
hmmm... i thought that things were different. but all of a sudden it changed. it was so familiar and comfortable. we were both laughing and talking about the weirdest things. that lasted for about two days. then it went back to the same thing. maybe it was too soon to start talking again. or maybe this is just how it is going to be from now on. after a long time of not talking at all we talk online for a little bit. then it all fades away and they just stop talking to me. but i like the familiarity of our conversations. so comfortable and fun. we actually laughed. and they were geniun laughs. i thought things were different. i guess not.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
i have gone back to my old routine of blogging... every once a month or so. and it is time for me to blog once again. how is everyone doing? summer treating you well? it is hard to believe that it is more than half way through. july seems like a really boring and hot month for me. but i went to the getty museum last friday. it was beautiful! the garden is a really nice place to sit. if i could i would just sit there for hours. i do not have much to say so i am going to cut this short. bYe!
Saturday, July 03, 2004
i have to get my camera sent! boo! stupid LDC screen! anyway, friday was ok. i was supposed to go to the beach with erin, khaing, jen, kristina, and other people but i could not. oh well. my day accomplished a lot. my dad and i went to glendale. i rushed to american eagle and got a bag that i have been eyeing for a while. it went on sale so i bought it. then my dad and i went to circuit city and bought my stereo since my old one cannot read cd's anymore. my dad had to drop off something to one of his patients. then we went to kmart since i had to buy a disposable camera since i have to get my digital camera fixed. good thing the cameras were on sale. then i went home and cleaned. my mom and i had a fight. whatever. i do not care anymore.
my saturday was boring! i went to church and then to the cafe. my family came over to celebrate my mom's birthday and my uncle's birthday. but to be honest, it seemed like it was mostly for my mom. i talked to my cousins. eric drew a panda for me. i am going to make it my background. for the rest of the night my family karaoked. yep. it is a typical filipino get together.
my saturday was boring! i went to church and then to the cafe. my family came over to celebrate my mom's birthday and my uncle's birthday. but to be honest, it seemed like it was mostly for my mom. i talked to my cousins. eric drew a panda for me. i am going to make it my background. for the rest of the night my family karaoked. yep. it is a typical filipino get together.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
i went out with steph today. we spent our time at japanese village. we ate at some restaurant. the sushi was only $3.50. that is not bad. but if you think about it, it is about $.60 per roll. that is a lot! steph and i went to this book store and she got some cool japanese stickers. she gave me the one that had pandas on it so i could put it on my phone. yay! we went to the block that had japanese village on it. we went to a bunch of different stores. steph bought be a chocolate cream puff. yum. steph was going to get these cute little slippers. i liked the pink ones and the turquiose ones. then we went to this anime store that had toys and posters and all this other stuff. steph and i found a box that had 5 items for $5. so we were looking for a bunch of items that we wanted to buy. i got a pencil and keychain and steph got a pen and some other thing. then we split pins. we went to this market where we got wash clothes that we were going to make into bags. it is cool! i also got those melon gummy candies. those are so good! after that, we went to this other place. it was small and did not have that many things in it. steph liked this cute little wallet. i told her to get it. then i saw this little hello kitty bag that was shaped as a hamburger. it was so cute! and it was only around $3. steph and i decided to come back and get them. but steph did not get the wallet because she did not have enough money but i got the bag. yay! i am happy! today was a fun day! i got to hang out with steph. woot! peace out.
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JENELYN JOY RAMOS!
today was pretty good. i did not really do anything during the early afternoon hours but i did later on.
jen came to my house around 4:30 pm and we left for west covina mall. we got there and i returned some things from american eagle. then we looked around more. forever 21 had a 2 for $9 sale on camis so jen and i got some. express had a big sale. there was a turquiose polo there for only $10. nice. but they did not have my size. oh well. kristina met up with us there. then jen got cheese on a stick from hot dog on a stick. (that sounds funny.) i bought two camis and a shirt from ae for only $7. nice.
kristina, jen, and i left to get starbucks. kris and i split a venti. they gave us two grandes. that is a lot! but i am not complaining. kris was telling jen the wrong directions to chili's because they were not ready yet. by the way this was a surprise party for jen. she thought it was only going to be laura, khaing, erin, kris, me, and her. but then a bunch of other people were there. jen was getting annoyed. but then we got there. she was so surprised. jen is the easiest person to surprise because she is kind of slow. (i love you jen!)
we got inside and said hi to people. rachel and i matched like crazy! we were both wearing jeans, pink polos with a white tank top under, and heart necklaces. cool! we took pictures. then we ate. it was fun! i laughed for the stupidest things. we were there for a long time! after we took pictures and got the check all done, we stayed outside for like thirty minutes just talking. i was trying to get ryan jealous by hugging rachel and all this stuff. we took weird pictures. it was so fun! so many people were there! i missed all of them and i got to see them today! yay! well all said our good-bye's and we our seperate ways. today was so fun! aww yay!
today was pretty good. i did not really do anything during the early afternoon hours but i did later on.
jen came to my house around 4:30 pm and we left for west covina mall. we got there and i returned some things from american eagle. then we looked around more. forever 21 had a 2 for $9 sale on camis so jen and i got some. express had a big sale. there was a turquiose polo there for only $10. nice. but they did not have my size. oh well. kristina met up with us there. then jen got cheese on a stick from hot dog on a stick. (that sounds funny.) i bought two camis and a shirt from ae for only $7. nice.
kristina, jen, and i left to get starbucks. kris and i split a venti. they gave us two grandes. that is a lot! but i am not complaining. kris was telling jen the wrong directions to chili's because they were not ready yet. by the way this was a surprise party for jen. she thought it was only going to be laura, khaing, erin, kris, me, and her. but then a bunch of other people were there. jen was getting annoyed. but then we got there. she was so surprised. jen is the easiest person to surprise because she is kind of slow. (i love you jen!)
we got inside and said hi to people. rachel and i matched like crazy! we were both wearing jeans, pink polos with a white tank top under, and heart necklaces. cool! we took pictures. then we ate. it was fun! i laughed for the stupidest things. we were there for a long time! after we took pictures and got the check all done, we stayed outside for like thirty minutes just talking. i was trying to get ryan jealous by hugging rachel and all this stuff. we took weird pictures. it was so fun! so many people were there! i missed all of them and i got to see them today! yay! well all said our good-bye's and we our seperate ways. today was so fun! aww yay!
Sunday, June 27, 2004
*WARNING! to those who have not watch and are planning to watch the notebook you may not want to read part of this entry.
good weekend. i ditched church. oh well. the guys made this new game with the cards in their wallets. it was pretty stupid!
at around 7 pm jen came to pick me up. then we got khaing at her house. jen drove us to erin's house at riverside. we were all so loud! oh well. we got to erin's house. i rang the door bell and i see a man's legs. i could not figure out who it could have been. then the door opens wider and it was masaki! khaing's face was hilarious! we went inside and ate. then we went to the theaters to watch the notebook. wow! that was a good movie!
*i started to cry when allie's mom was saying that noah and allie were not meant to be together because they were different. i totally knew what they were feeling! then the end was so sad but sweet at the same time. they died together. aww!
after the movie ended you could hear people snuffling or whatever you call it. it was funny! khaing, erin, jen, kris, and i went to tgif's. i felt so weird because it was happy hour and everyone else that was there was 21 or over. it took forever for them to give us our food. the stawberry lemonade was good! we told the waitress that it was jen's birthday. well it is! or at least it will be. haha! we got this ice cream cookie sundae. yum!
we went back to erin's house. erin's hair is scary! it is just sitting in her closet and seems like it is going to jump on you and eat you! we watched down with love. it is a pretty good movie! i liked it. the twists were unprobable but funny. we all went back up to erin's room but we did not sleep. i hate sleeping in between jen and khaing! they hit each other and i am in the middle. and khaing pokes me and jen uses me as a tandayan. we started talking about gay marriage and cloning and stuff. it was pretty interesting.
we all woke up late. but that is ok. we had to leave because erin had to go somewhere. jen, khaing, and i took kristina home. we stayed at her house for a while. i waded in the pool for a while. then khaing, jen, and i went to ikea. there are so many things i want to get there! yay! i am so excited that i get to redecorate my room this summer! woohoo!
good weekend. i ditched church. oh well. the guys made this new game with the cards in their wallets. it was pretty stupid!
at around 7 pm jen came to pick me up. then we got khaing at her house. jen drove us to erin's house at riverside. we were all so loud! oh well. we got to erin's house. i rang the door bell and i see a man's legs. i could not figure out who it could have been. then the door opens wider and it was masaki! khaing's face was hilarious! we went inside and ate. then we went to the theaters to watch the notebook. wow! that was a good movie!
*i started to cry when allie's mom was saying that noah and allie were not meant to be together because they were different. i totally knew what they were feeling! then the end was so sad but sweet at the same time. they died together. aww!
after the movie ended you could hear people snuffling or whatever you call it. it was funny! khaing, erin, jen, kris, and i went to tgif's. i felt so weird because it was happy hour and everyone else that was there was 21 or over. it took forever for them to give us our food. the stawberry lemonade was good! we told the waitress that it was jen's birthday. well it is! or at least it will be. haha! we got this ice cream cookie sundae. yum!
we went back to erin's house. erin's hair is scary! it is just sitting in her closet and seems like it is going to jump on you and eat you! we watched down with love. it is a pretty good movie! i liked it. the twists were unprobable but funny. we all went back up to erin's room but we did not sleep. i hate sleeping in between jen and khaing! they hit each other and i am in the middle. and khaing pokes me and jen uses me as a tandayan. we started talking about gay marriage and cloning and stuff. it was pretty interesting.
we all woke up late. but that is ok. we had to leave because erin had to go somewhere. jen, khaing, and i took kristina home. we stayed at her house for a while. i waded in the pool for a while. then khaing, jen, and i went to ikea. there are so many things i want to get there! yay! i am so excited that i get to redecorate my room this summer! woohoo!
Saturday, June 19, 2004
i found my new song:
half crazy by musiq
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lala la
Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
we used to chill we used to hang
we used to do some many things together
half crazy by musiq
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la lala la
Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
I'd hate walk away from you as if this never existed
Cause when we kissed the moment after I looked at you different
Lately I gotta watch what I say
Cause you take things personally nowadays
You used to laugh now you get mad
Damn I just want my friend back
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
(can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
oh oh oh oh oh yeah
What happened to the one I used to know
The one I used to laugh and joke with
The one I used to tell all my secrets
We used to chill and be down for whatever whenever together
And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
we used to chill we used to hang
we used to do some many things together
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Monday, June 14, 2004
senior year is supposed to be fun. but i was thinking about it and i do not think it will be that fun for me. i mean the rest of the year will be good except for the major events where you ask people or people ask you to go with them. i do not know who to ask to sadies. and no one is going to ask me to the christmas banquet and jr/sr. man. i am depressed now. =/
Sunday, June 13, 2004
it seems like i look at people's blogs just to see if they have anything interesting i can do on it, like quizzes or games. haha!
i feel like i have a lot to say. well, this weekend was pretty good. i had a lot of fun with my friends.
saturday. i did not go to church. i went to the cafe instead. oh well. we talked about daryl's party. it is coming up so soon! jonathan sy was there. i have a feeling he is going to be hanging around with us a lot. it is pretty strange for some of us because jonathan and teo had major differences before and now they are the best of friends.
after the cafe kristina and i went to my house to change. i did not know what to wear so vince and daryl had to wait for us for thirty minutes. vince thought that it was weird because kris and i were switched. i was wearing pink and she was wearing turquiose. nice.
we had to go to daryl's house so he could change. that was the first time i have been to his house. it is pretty nice. his room is a typical boy's room. i should have figured.
kris and i wanted to go shopping so we went to glendale galleria. did some shopping but decided to wait until later when we would go back. all of us were really hungry so we got animal style fries and in-n-out. yummy! i bought it for kris and me. but kris bought me a strawberry shortcake scone at starbucks. yay! i got a caramel frap.
then we walked to the exchange to watch "harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban." as we were walking daryl had his arm around my neck. then we started talking about "spots" and he starts moving down my back. it was so scary but at the same time funny. we bought our tickets and snuck in our food. the movie was scary! i liked it.
we walked back to american eagle and bought some stuff. i got two shirts and a polo. but i think i am going to return one of the shirts. we went to mark's house for the party.
i felt bad because we were supposed to be there at 1 pm to help set up and prepare but we got there at 7 pm. that is way passed filipino time! i had to be searched in order to get in. it was pretty weird. but i never had to get searched again.
at first the party was, well, crap. but then more people came and it got started! bryan, jessie, chris, and this girl were there for jina because she had someone's keys. briggitte, jina, steph, jo, and luong came. chris and i did not talk. not even eye contact. awkward. more people came. i hung out with kris most of the night. kristopher's mom made her famous salad. she makes the best salad ever! the dj had been playing for a while and i started getting into it. jen was crazy! her dancing makes me laugh so much! she grabbed kris and i so we danced. after that we only stopped to rest for a little bit then went back to dance. briggitte and them saw me dancing. it was funny. i got steph to dance. we did the robot.
byron stepped on my toe. at first i thought nothing of it. then i felt something wet on my slippers. i was bleeding. it was on the middle toe of my right foot. kris was freaking out more than me. and teo was getting so grossed out. it was not even that bad!
i danced more. there was this one time i was dancing with daryl. then this guy comes up behind me and dances. i did not even know him. he left and the other guy came. it was the weirdest thing ever! i tried to get jonathan to dance but he just would not. i danced with megan. it was pretty funny! masaki was dancing dirty with khaing. shame shame shame! the party ended at 12 am. i danced for three hours at the party. sheesh! i talked to people and said bye to everyeone. teo and erin took me home. i still think it is weird how they are a couple now. i do not know. i am just not used to it.
sunday. i had a recital today. i actually got a big trophy this year! yay! i am happy. but i still got 2nd place. brian is so good! geez!
jonathan's party was today. i feel bad that i could not got. i wanted to. we were going to play tic tac toe and badminton. i think i would have had fun. but it is not my fault i did not have a ride home. so jonathan cannot get mad at me. haha!
this weekend was so good! i find myself wanting to dance when i get a chance to. but i need to get into the music first.
i am going to see ms. saigon on thursday with kristina, her mom, and maybe jen. yay! i am so excited! i have been wanting to see that for so long! my family went when they were at new york and lea salonga was still in it. i would prefer seeing it if lea salonga and gian's uncler were in it but they are not. oh well. wow! i blogged a lot! nice. =)
i feel like i have a lot to say. well, this weekend was pretty good. i had a lot of fun with my friends.
saturday. i did not go to church. i went to the cafe instead. oh well. we talked about daryl's party. it is coming up so soon! jonathan sy was there. i have a feeling he is going to be hanging around with us a lot. it is pretty strange for some of us because jonathan and teo had major differences before and now they are the best of friends.
after the cafe kristina and i went to my house to change. i did not know what to wear so vince and daryl had to wait for us for thirty minutes. vince thought that it was weird because kris and i were switched. i was wearing pink and she was wearing turquiose. nice.
we had to go to daryl's house so he could change. that was the first time i have been to his house. it is pretty nice. his room is a typical boy's room. i should have figured.
kris and i wanted to go shopping so we went to glendale galleria. did some shopping but decided to wait until later when we would go back. all of us were really hungry so we got animal style fries and in-n-out. yummy! i bought it for kris and me. but kris bought me a strawberry shortcake scone at starbucks. yay! i got a caramel frap.
then we walked to the exchange to watch "harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban." as we were walking daryl had his arm around my neck. then we started talking about "spots" and he starts moving down my back. it was so scary but at the same time funny. we bought our tickets and snuck in our food. the movie was scary! i liked it.
we walked back to american eagle and bought some stuff. i got two shirts and a polo. but i think i am going to return one of the shirts. we went to mark's house for the party.
i felt bad because we were supposed to be there at 1 pm to help set up and prepare but we got there at 7 pm. that is way passed filipino time! i had to be searched in order to get in. it was pretty weird. but i never had to get searched again.
at first the party was, well, crap. but then more people came and it got started! bryan, jessie, chris, and this girl were there for jina because she had someone's keys. briggitte, jina, steph, jo, and luong came. chris and i did not talk. not even eye contact. awkward. more people came. i hung out with kris most of the night. kristopher's mom made her famous salad. she makes the best salad ever! the dj had been playing for a while and i started getting into it. jen was crazy! her dancing makes me laugh so much! she grabbed kris and i so we danced. after that we only stopped to rest for a little bit then went back to dance. briggitte and them saw me dancing. it was funny. i got steph to dance. we did the robot.
byron stepped on my toe. at first i thought nothing of it. then i felt something wet on my slippers. i was bleeding. it was on the middle toe of my right foot. kris was freaking out more than me. and teo was getting so grossed out. it was not even that bad!
i danced more. there was this one time i was dancing with daryl. then this guy comes up behind me and dances. i did not even know him. he left and the other guy came. it was the weirdest thing ever! i tried to get jonathan to dance but he just would not. i danced with megan. it was pretty funny! masaki was dancing dirty with khaing. shame shame shame! the party ended at 12 am. i danced for three hours at the party. sheesh! i talked to people and said bye to everyeone. teo and erin took me home. i still think it is weird how they are a couple now. i do not know. i am just not used to it.
sunday. i had a recital today. i actually got a big trophy this year! yay! i am happy. but i still got 2nd place. brian is so good! geez!
jonathan's party was today. i feel bad that i could not got. i wanted to. we were going to play tic tac toe and badminton. i think i would have had fun. but it is not my fault i did not have a ride home. so jonathan cannot get mad at me. haha!
this weekend was so good! i find myself wanting to dance when i get a chance to. but i need to get into the music first.
i am going to see ms. saigon on thursday with kristina, her mom, and maybe jen. yay! i am so excited! i have been wanting to see that for so long! my family went when they were at new york and lea salonga was still in it. i would prefer seeing it if lea salonga and gian's uncler were in it but they are not. oh well. wow! i blogged a lot! nice. =)
| J | Jolly |
| E | Emotional |
| N | Natural |
| N | Nerdy |
| I | Insane |
| F | Fashionable |
| E | Exciting |
| R | Responsible |
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Friday, June 11, 2004
You are going to marry Brad Pitt. He is always
friendly to anybody he ever meets and he is
very talented as an actor. He is also very
sincere and friendly. He will respect you until
the day he dies. Congrats!!
Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit
brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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^it is funny because it is true. =)
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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your shit.
What swear word are you?
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Dragon:
Dragons are very mysterious creatures who often
live alone in caves with hoards of gold. You
keep yourself from others and contain many
armoured plates for defence. However, you will
be kind to others if they are kind to you. You
are very thrifty and rarely waste any money.
What Mythological Creature Are You (Many Results and Beautiful Pics)
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You are totally in love.You try to hide it but you
cant.You are nice and pritty in your own way
and you are a bit of a daydreamer.Have fun and
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Are you in love?
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^i guess it is true.
Your half- angel. Not exactly human, but not quite
angel, you walk on earth freely. Half-Angels
have no wings, but tend to show some signs.
Some ways to notice these are that the girl
never menstrates, she cannot bleed, and her
touch seems to give of a glow. No one really
knows how half-angels are born. Some say that
when a child is born, one of the angels blesses
her with her gifts. Others say that they are
cursed creatures, because half-angels cannot
die, while their familly and friends around
them do. Hlaf-Angels are very beautiful and
Kind, and have the power to speak to animals,
but at the same time, sad that they are this
way. Some Half-Angels love being human. Being
able to see, smell, hear, taste,and feel are
all miracles to them. They crave to be more
human-all the time.
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vacation sucks ass! i have not done anything so far. but then again it is only the first week of vacation. last night i stayed up until 3:30 am to clean. do not judge me! cleaning calms my nerves. haha! then i cleaned somemore today and i am going to clean more tonight because there are stuff everywhere. i need to get out of the house! but there is a party tomorrow so i will probably go to that. i might to go the party on sunday but most likely not. we will see. i have a freaking recital on sunday! i cannot wait until i do not have to take piano anymore. one more year...
i was cleaing my room today and i realized that in one year i will not be living here anymore. this is my last year to live at home because i will be going off to college. i may come home during vacations and stuff but that is not my full time home. it scared me a little. it scares me now. after my last year here i will be moving out for good and living in my own apartment or some other type of home. I AM SO EXCITED!
on a different note, my dad walked into my room and asked me when i was going to learn how to drive. then he tells me that i am going to learn this summer. my parents really want me to drive. it is because of my dad and our little situation. when i get my license i know that i am going to have to drive myself everywhere. but that is fine with me. =)
LET'S GO OUT, PEOPLE! I AM SO FUCKING BORED!
i was cleaing my room today and i realized that in one year i will not be living here anymore. this is my last year to live at home because i will be going off to college. i may come home during vacations and stuff but that is not my full time home. it scared me a little. it scares me now. after my last year here i will be moving out for good and living in my own apartment or some other type of home. I AM SO EXCITED!
on a different note, my dad walked into my room and asked me when i was going to learn how to drive. then he tells me that i am going to learn this summer. my parents really want me to drive. it is because of my dad and our little situation. when i get my license i know that i am going to have to drive myself everywhere. but that is fine with me. =)
LET'S GO OUT, PEOPLE! I AM SO FUCKING BORED!
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
things from people's aim profiles:
to do something totally crazy for someone because it hurts you inside that your not with that person. because you have that image in the back of your mind that one day you two will be together. to do everything humanly possible just to get noticed or to humiliate yourself just to get one glance and a smile. and that in the end you found out what you only believed, that the juice is worth the squeeze. that by doing the unthinkable you can achieve the unreachable and that is more perfect that love in itself, it is love with meaning. - bkxbawler
girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough . As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die - forbidden pinoi
There are these two twin old men that go into the same bar everyday. The bartender at the bar hates one of the twins, but the only way he could tell the difference between the one he hates and the one he likes is because the one that he hates drinks very slow, but the one that he likes drinks fast. So one day the bartender decides to kill the one that he hates. So when they came in that day he put the same amount of the drink in their cups, the same amount of ice, and the same amount of poison. The twin that he hates dies and the other lives. How can this be?
They come at night without being called and are lost in the day
without being stolen. What are they?
to do something totally crazy for someone because it hurts you inside that your not with that person. because you have that image in the back of your mind that one day you two will be together. to do everything humanly possible just to get noticed or to humiliate yourself just to get one glance and a smile. and that in the end you found out what you only believed, that the juice is worth the squeeze. that by doing the unthinkable you can achieve the unreachable and that is more perfect that love in itself, it is love with meaning. - bkxbawler
girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough . As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....You're not pretty you're beautiful. i dont want to be with you forever. i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die - forbidden pinoi
There are these two twin old men that go into the same bar everyday. The bartender at the bar hates one of the twins, but the only way he could tell the difference between the one he hates and the one he likes is because the one that he hates drinks very slow, but the one that he likes drinks fast. So one day the bartender decides to kill the one that he hates. So when they came in that day he put the same amount of the drink in their cups, the same amount of ice, and the same amount of poison. The twin that he hates dies and the other lives. How can this be?
They come at night without being called and are lost in the day
without being stolen. What are they?
i blog? yes, i blog.
today sucked. i went to elac to take english and math assessment tests. the english test was a joke. it kind of felt like i was taking a esl test. but the precal one was not as easy. it is so stupid because they want you to pass a precal test to get into precal. what the hell. that is not how it is supposed to work. oh well. what can i do. i only drank milk before i went to go take the tests so after the three hours of annoying test taking my head started to hurt. we had orientation after and my brain was throbbing. but i got taco bell after. yay. i guess that is really all i can talk about.
graduation was fun. so many parties. there is another one for mark, jen, erin, and kris on saturday at mark's house. and there is a end of the year one on sunday night at jonathan sy's house in pasadena. everyone go! it will be fun! =)
today sucked. i went to elac to take english and math assessment tests. the english test was a joke. it kind of felt like i was taking a esl test. but the precal one was not as easy. it is so stupid because they want you to pass a precal test to get into precal. what the hell. that is not how it is supposed to work. oh well. what can i do. i only drank milk before i went to go take the tests so after the three hours of annoying test taking my head started to hurt. we had orientation after and my brain was throbbing. but i got taco bell after. yay. i guess that is really all i can talk about.
graduation was fun. so many parties. there is another one for mark, jen, erin, and kris on saturday at mark's house. and there is a end of the year one on sunday night at jonathan sy's house in pasadena. everyone go! it will be fun! =)
Sunday, May 30, 2004
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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this one so so true! -->
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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i am a bunch of chucks --->
Sneakers- funny, laid-back, and goofy, you love to
make people laugh and have a good time. You
enjoy comfort and don't care to much about what
people think of you. You like to hang out with
your buddies and just have a good time. [please
vote! thank you! :)]
What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. You collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.
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Saturday, May 29, 2004
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.
Which kind of candy are you?
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You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!
What kind of kiss are you?
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this one is really stupid! -->
A GIRLY-GIRL. You dont have a lot of self-esteem
and people are always bringing you down for
being sad. What do they know, anyway? You feel
like youre too mature for your age and are
frustrated by the trend-followers who refuse to
accept you because youre not like them.
Your virtues: Intelligence, understanding nature,
modesty.
Your flaws: Lack of social life, inferiority
complex, timidity..
You might like this game, but maybe it's not your
thing. Take a look anyway if you are
curious:
www.life-blood.vze.com
What kind of girl are you?
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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well i appearantly was not a good enough girlfriend for her son!
Power Rangers Movie!
What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Beauty, you are beautiful not only outside, but
inside as well. You have a kind heart and are
compassionate. You feel the pain of others and
you are a better person for it. You shine with
purity and wisdom and will expirience the love
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What's your dominant personality trait?
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Saturday, May 22, 2004
blah blah blah. this week was ok. not much to talk about but the beach. we are stupid. megan, bryan, and i sat three to a seat even though there were ten empty seats around us. it was pretty fun though. megan ate all of bryan's food. we played the abc game. i was behind by so much! oh well. but i still got second place. stupid bryan! we got to the beach. megan got thrown in during the first ten minutes. we just sat around and talked. that was kind of fun. then lunch came and everyone went to their potlucks. i was not asked so i just sat there. chris was with everyone so i did not want to go there. it would have been really weird. i guess i do not like being with my friends if he is there. it just gets me depressed. everyone looked like they were having fun so i went to jenelyn. she gave me food! =) but she also gave me this nasty chocolate thing. it was so gross! then i met up with bryan and megan again. we sat three to a seat on the way back home too. we fell asleep. some people played this slapping game. you could hear some veins pop. over all the beach was ok.
yesterday we had a vespers. (jed was really happy.) the speaker was talking about how he met his wife. it was so sweet! but then i just thought about me and chris and i just got depressed. but the message that he told us was really good.
i was listening to my northern mix cd. there are so many songs that i can relate to! there is one song in particular, "you and i both" by jason mraz. i love that song! i really like the part where it says "and it's okay if you have to go away. just remember the telephone works both ways. and if I never ever hear it ring if nothing else I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else and that's okay cause I'll remember everything you sang." i am so sad! then i started thinking about memories of chris and i. i was thinking about last february when he had a surprise party for me. it was so sweet! then i started thinking about all the other memories. and that reminded me of "one year, six months" by yellowcard. "All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you." grr! he seems so unphased. but i guess that i should not be surprised. he is fine. and he will be totally over me by the time summer vacation is over. i hate this...
yesterday we had a vespers. (jed was really happy.) the speaker was talking about how he met his wife. it was so sweet! but then i just thought about me and chris and i just got depressed. but the message that he told us was really good.
i was listening to my northern mix cd. there are so many songs that i can relate to! there is one song in particular, "you and i both" by jason mraz. i love that song! i really like the part where it says "and it's okay if you have to go away. just remember the telephone works both ways. and if I never ever hear it ring if nothing else I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else and that's okay cause I'll remember everything you sang." i am so sad! then i started thinking about memories of chris and i. i was thinking about last february when he had a surprise party for me. it was so sweet! then i started thinking about all the other memories. and that reminded me of "one year, six months" by yellowcard. "All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you." grr! he seems so unphased. but i guess that i should not be surprised. he is fine. and he will be totally over me by the time summer vacation is over. i hate this...
Sunday, May 09, 2004
sTaR sEaRcH wAs So MuCh FuN!
saturday. went to the hospital then to church then to the hospital again then home. kristina was going to pick me up to go to star search since jen could not. i called her cell and krystal answered. she said they could not pick me up because they got into an accident. she was crying. i was like "WTF! what happened?" but my relatives took me to school. i saw vince and then and i told them what happened. rj, sy, and collin were there. cool beans! i talked to them. vince and i have the same camera! woohoo! it was so weird. but i got mine for a cheaper price. during intermission i had to sell for our booth. we made maybe $100. that is not bad. chris put an ice cube down my shirt. i talked to old seniors and ronan. it was so good to see all those people! i missed them. mark and teo were doing this whip cream thing to people but teo was not going to do it to me because he is scared of me. i think that is pretty weird. i talked to danny about kristina. he told me that she was on the fast lane and this car was swerving towards her. so to prevent crashing into him kristina swerved left and hit the center divider. it is ironic because she is always so scared about crashing into them. "the wall is my friend..." kristina got burns on her face and arms because of the airbag dust or something and krystal got burns on her neck from the seat belt. bastard! i talked to more people after star search and said bye to everyone. jenelyn and i went to ralph's to buy my mom mother's day presents. i got her a card, balloon, and flowers. whee! i showed them to her when i got home. i am pretty sure she likes them. haha! peace out yo, homie g.
saturday. went to the hospital then to church then to the hospital again then home. kristina was going to pick me up to go to star search since jen could not. i called her cell and krystal answered. she said they could not pick me up because they got into an accident. she was crying. i was like "WTF! what happened?" but my relatives took me to school. i saw vince and then and i told them what happened. rj, sy, and collin were there. cool beans! i talked to them. vince and i have the same camera! woohoo! it was so weird. but i got mine for a cheaper price. during intermission i had to sell for our booth. we made maybe $100. that is not bad. chris put an ice cube down my shirt. i talked to old seniors and ronan. it was so good to see all those people! i missed them. mark and teo were doing this whip cream thing to people but teo was not going to do it to me because he is scared of me. i think that is pretty weird. i talked to danny about kristina. he told me that she was on the fast lane and this car was swerving towards her. so to prevent crashing into him kristina swerved left and hit the center divider. it is ironic because she is always so scared about crashing into them. "the wall is my friend..." kristina got burns on her face and arms because of the airbag dust or something and krystal got burns on her neck from the seat belt. bastard! i talked to more people after star search and said bye to everyone. jenelyn and i went to ralph's to buy my mom mother's day presents. i got her a card, balloon, and flowers. whee! i showed them to her when i got home. i am pretty sure she likes them. haha! peace out yo, homie g.
Monday, May 03, 2004
philx516: walk in confident and you will pass
hOtNsExYpAnDa: that is stupid
philx516: lol
philx516: damn
philx516: my plan is stupid
hOtNsExYpAnDa: hahaha
philx516: are you gonna study for it at all this week
hOtNsExYpAnDa: yeah
hOtNsExYpAnDa: probably
hOtNsExYpAnDa: maybe
hOtNsExYpAnDa: i dont know
hOtNsExYpAnDa: hahah
philx516: pshh nerd
hOtNsExYpAnDa: whatever
hOtNsExYpAnDa: you wont stupid and get a 3
philx516: You will get a ...... 5!!!!
hOtNsExYpAnDa: WHAT!?!?!
hOtNsExYpAnDa: whatever
philx516: I have foresight =-O
hOtNsExYpAnDa: i will be lucky if i even get a 2
hOtNsExYpAnDa: foresight my ass!
philx516: lol I wasn't planning to foresight your ass :-D
hOtNsExYpAnDa: that is stupid
philx516: lol
philx516: damn
philx516: my plan is stupid
hOtNsExYpAnDa: hahaha
philx516: are you gonna study for it at all this week
hOtNsExYpAnDa: yeah
hOtNsExYpAnDa: probably
hOtNsExYpAnDa: maybe
hOtNsExYpAnDa: i dont know
hOtNsExYpAnDa: hahah
philx516: pshh nerd
hOtNsExYpAnDa: whatever
hOtNsExYpAnDa: you wont stupid and get a 3
philx516: You will get a ...... 5!!!!
hOtNsExYpAnDa: WHAT!?!?!
hOtNsExYpAnDa: whatever
philx516: I have foresight =-O
hOtNsExYpAnDa: i will be lucky if i even get a 2
hOtNsExYpAnDa: foresight my ass!
philx516: lol I wasn't planning to foresight your ass :-D
Sunday, May 02, 2004
BAA MOTTO: do it. do it now!
i miss northern. i am finally blogging considering that we got back two days ago. on sunday i had to go to La central at 6 am. i woke up at 5:33 am but that is ok since i live right next to it. we were all tired. we loaded the van and went on our way. i barely slept on the way up. we got to santa cruz. i hit on bryan. it was so funny! briggitte got thrown in by jason, byron, and eddie. so freaking hot! then we got to our hotel. it said "welcome san gabriel academy" at the front. nice. the five girls were in a suite. we went to safeway and bought groceries. 24/$2.40 ramen! us girls cooked our first dinner together. it was so cute! i dipped my feet in the jacuzzi. it was nice. but then my feet started to get prunny. yuck! good first day.
on monday we went to the jelly bell factory. the tour was kind of boring but it was a joy to see briggitte freaked out by the oompa-loompa's. we went to this spot with a nice view. but i got a little freaked out that i might fall over. there was this log that most of us signed. it had "i ate pussy right here" on it. how pleasant. we ate at emeryville. so expensive! i tried the thai tea and green tea gelato. i liked the green tea one better. we had a few hours to go around downtown sf. the girls went around the shopping center to see what we were going to get on thursday. we wanted to watch "13 going on 30" but it was too expensive. everyeon was playing games at the metreon so briggitte and i looked around the metreon. VAN HELSING! you know! we went to pac bell park. the game was ok. there is not much to say about that. i have a picture of bond's ass.
on tuesday i was high! we had two hours of unlimited play at portal 1 at the metreon. i played hyperbowl, a bunch of racing games, ddr, and the basketball game. so much fun! my hands got really sore the next day! we ate at blondie's. that was probably the best pizza i have ever had! we went to fisherman's warf and ghirardelli square via cable car. i laughed at everything! we went to sharper image. it was so good! we got massages on their chairs. we waited for the cable car. briggitte started speaking her mind about the michelle thing. it was crazy! i felt a little weird so i went into another conversation. we went to union square. we took this picture with this heart and steph looks like she is between a butt and looks very happy. =) we went to the ten story macy’s and to the cheesecake factory at the very top. then we went to get jamba juice. i got the small strawberry tsunami. the lady asked me if i wanted an original one for free. i got it and then she gave me my small one. nice! fun day!
wednesday. we went on the golden gate bridge and took pictures. then we went to telegraph and spent an hour at amoeba music. they have some great stuff! we ate at blondie’s again. we made bears at the basic brown bear factory. ozzie’s looks like him. we got to haight and ashbury. we did not find the store with the sexual stick figures. but we got bracelets for $0.25. then we had a bbq. ozzie made really good burgers! we were watching the laker game. BRYAN IS SUCH A GUY! it was weird. at night we went into the pool and jacuzzi. the security guard came since it was 11 pm and the pool was closed at 9 pm. the guys chilled at our room. we played blackjack. but every time we lost we had to drink a cup of water. there was this 7 up that tasted salty and steph really did not want to drink it so i did. it did not affect me. jason, mike, and eddie were dying! good times.
thursday. it was our last day. we got screwed over at the exploratorium. we went to the palace of fine arts. jessie jumped from this really high spot. on his way down he said “fuck you!” it was so funny! the houses in that area are so nice! we went to the metreon and had time to shop. i got shirts for $5. jon jon actually went into a&f. i got people’s presents. the strawberry creme frap is really good! we went to the hotel and had another bbq. yum! we watched the second to the last “friends.” i cried. it was crazy! then we watched “will & grace.” we went into the jacuzzi. i hit on bryan again. i tried to make a move on him. so funny! we talked about relationships and people’s problems. fun stuff. we have nicknames for the two different groups of guys there. the Ns are the nice guys: phil, bryan, jon, and jessie. the Bs are the bitches: jason, mike, eddie, and byron, but not so much. we were going to get pedicures there but it was either $20 or $25. guys up at northern are so horny!
aww friday. =/ we loaded the van. i slept most of the way. but after we ate i was alert. i miss northern. a lot.
northern quotes:
briggitte: i'm not racist, i just tell the truth!
byron: look, there's a gay guy
jason: look, another one
steph: WHERE, WHERE, WHERE ARE ALL THE GAYS?!
me: aww, you're chandler!
bryan: you know, i took like 5 online quizzes, and they all said chandler.
briggitte: he's funny though.
(bryan gets all sad)
briggitte: funny in a good way.
me: bryan has a "gay thing"!
phil: where?
bryan: have you read megan's away message where jimmy fallon talks about the guy who collected 1,000,000 pennies and was like, "i wonder how much that is...must be like 4 million dollars."
me: that's not bad
me: say yes or no.
phil: yo...nes
steph: no...wait
steph: all the guys are going to get a boner!
ozzie burps
someone: can you burp on command?
me: do it now!
ozzie: oh yeah. right after i burp.
sheila: press it long and hard
sheila: it's so beautiful i want to gag.
steph: (falling to her knees) NOOOOOO!
today i had a piano test. the guy said that my sight reading was the best he heard all day. nice. i told my mom and she said that my teacher told her that i am better at sight reading than brian. finally. something i am better at than brian.
i miss northern. i am finally blogging considering that we got back two days ago. on sunday i had to go to La central at 6 am. i woke up at 5:33 am but that is ok since i live right next to it. we were all tired. we loaded the van and went on our way. i barely slept on the way up. we got to santa cruz. i hit on bryan. it was so funny! briggitte got thrown in by jason, byron, and eddie. so freaking hot! then we got to our hotel. it said "welcome san gabriel academy" at the front. nice. the five girls were in a suite. we went to safeway and bought groceries. 24/$2.40 ramen! us girls cooked our first dinner together. it was so cute! i dipped my feet in the jacuzzi. it was nice. but then my feet started to get prunny. yuck! good first day.
on monday we went to the jelly bell factory. the tour was kind of boring but it was a joy to see briggitte freaked out by the oompa-loompa's. we went to this spot with a nice view. but i got a little freaked out that i might fall over. there was this log that most of us signed. it had "i ate pussy right here" on it. how pleasant. we ate at emeryville. so expensive! i tried the thai tea and green tea gelato. i liked the green tea one better. we had a few hours to go around downtown sf. the girls went around the shopping center to see what we were going to get on thursday. we wanted to watch "13 going on 30" but it was too expensive. everyeon was playing games at the metreon so briggitte and i looked around the metreon. VAN HELSING! you know! we went to pac bell park. the game was ok. there is not much to say about that. i have a picture of bond's ass.
on tuesday i was high! we had two hours of unlimited play at portal 1 at the metreon. i played hyperbowl, a bunch of racing games, ddr, and the basketball game. so much fun! my hands got really sore the next day! we ate at blondie's. that was probably the best pizza i have ever had! we went to fisherman's warf and ghirardelli square via cable car. i laughed at everything! we went to sharper image. it was so good! we got massages on their chairs. we waited for the cable car. briggitte started speaking her mind about the michelle thing. it was crazy! i felt a little weird so i went into another conversation. we went to union square. we took this picture with this heart and steph looks like she is between a butt and looks very happy. =) we went to the ten story macy’s and to the cheesecake factory at the very top. then we went to get jamba juice. i got the small strawberry tsunami. the lady asked me if i wanted an original one for free. i got it and then she gave me my small one. nice! fun day!
wednesday. we went on the golden gate bridge and took pictures. then we went to telegraph and spent an hour at amoeba music. they have some great stuff! we ate at blondie’s again. we made bears at the basic brown bear factory. ozzie’s looks like him. we got to haight and ashbury. we did not find the store with the sexual stick figures. but we got bracelets for $0.25. then we had a bbq. ozzie made really good burgers! we were watching the laker game. BRYAN IS SUCH A GUY! it was weird. at night we went into the pool and jacuzzi. the security guard came since it was 11 pm and the pool was closed at 9 pm. the guys chilled at our room. we played blackjack. but every time we lost we had to drink a cup of water. there was this 7 up that tasted salty and steph really did not want to drink it so i did. it did not affect me. jason, mike, and eddie were dying! good times.
thursday. it was our last day. we got screwed over at the exploratorium. we went to the palace of fine arts. jessie jumped from this really high spot. on his way down he said “fuck you!” it was so funny! the houses in that area are so nice! we went to the metreon and had time to shop. i got shirts for $5. jon jon actually went into a&f. i got people’s presents. the strawberry creme frap is really good! we went to the hotel and had another bbq. yum! we watched the second to the last “friends.” i cried. it was crazy! then we watched “will & grace.” we went into the jacuzzi. i hit on bryan again. i tried to make a move on him. so funny! we talked about relationships and people’s problems. fun stuff. we have nicknames for the two different groups of guys there. the Ns are the nice guys: phil, bryan, jon, and jessie. the Bs are the bitches: jason, mike, eddie, and byron, but not so much. we were going to get pedicures there but it was either $20 or $25. guys up at northern are so horny!
aww friday. =/ we loaded the van. i slept most of the way. but after we ate i was alert. i miss northern. a lot.
northern quotes:
briggitte: i'm not racist, i just tell the truth!
byron: look, there's a gay guy
jason: look, another one
steph: WHERE, WHERE, WHERE ARE ALL THE GAYS?!
me: aww, you're chandler!
bryan: you know, i took like 5 online quizzes, and they all said chandler.
briggitte: he's funny though.
(bryan gets all sad)
briggitte: funny in a good way.
me: bryan has a "gay thing"!
phil: where?
bryan: have you read megan's away message where jimmy fallon talks about the guy who collected 1,000,000 pennies and was like, "i wonder how much that is...must be like 4 million dollars."
me: that's not bad
me: say yes or no.
phil: yo...nes
steph: no...wait
steph: all the guys are going to get a boner!
ozzie burps
someone: can you burp on command?
me: do it now!
ozzie: oh yeah. right after i burp.
sheila: press it long and hard
sheila: it's so beautiful i want to gag.
steph: (falling to her knees) NOOOOOO!
today i had a piano test. the guy said that my sight reading was the best he heard all day. nice. i told my mom and she said that my teacher told her that i am better at sight reading than brian. finally. something i am better at than brian.
Thursday, April 22, 2004
YAY!
our northern problems are solved! we had a meeting at lunch today. (i got thai food for our algebra potluck! woot!) everyone was so nervous. we started talking. we tried to get new ideas and some people said they would try to get people. tomorrow after school is the deadline for people to be our drivers. but the only reason why we could not just take one fifteen seater was because there would be too much luggage. so since it was only the luggage was the only problem briggitte's dad would be able to drive up with us on sunday with all the luggage then come down. and on friday caitlyn's dad could take our luggage down. we were all so excited! we are so close! we are pretty sure that it is going to be that way. i am happy! the chorale people are gone today. they are on their way to hawaii. they are probably there already. chris i gone. =/ i did not even get to say good-bye. well i did on the phone but what kind of a good-bye is that!?!? oh well. i hope that everyone has fun! i know that i will up at northern! woohoo! party 24/7! but this saturday i am going to bryan's party dinner thing. no one is ever going to agree on a movie. 13 going on 30! i know the guys do not want to watch that. oh well. i guess we will see. NORTHERN HERE WE COME!
our northern problems are solved! we had a meeting at lunch today. (i got thai food for our algebra potluck! woot!) everyone was so nervous. we started talking. we tried to get new ideas and some people said they would try to get people. tomorrow after school is the deadline for people to be our drivers. but the only reason why we could not just take one fifteen seater was because there would be too much luggage. so since it was only the luggage was the only problem briggitte's dad would be able to drive up with us on sunday with all the luggage then come down. and on friday caitlyn's dad could take our luggage down. we were all so excited! we are so close! we are pretty sure that it is going to be that way. i am happy! the chorale people are gone today. they are on their way to hawaii. they are probably there already. chris i gone. =/ i did not even get to say good-bye. well i did on the phone but what kind of a good-bye is that!?!? oh well. i hope that everyone has fun! i know that i will up at northern! woohoo! party 24/7! but this saturday i am going to bryan's party dinner thing. no one is ever going to agree on a movie. 13 going on 30! i know the guys do not want to watch that. oh well. i guess we will see. NORTHERN HERE WE COME!
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
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northern in two weeks! i need to make a northern mix for the ride up and the ride down. well that would only be one mix but i would listen to it on the ride up and the ride down. yeah. anyway. i just realized that there is no one to miss me anymore. wow. that sounds so conceited. but i mean there is no one that will say "aww! i missed you so much!" or "man! why do you have to go? i am going to miss you like crazy!" that just made me a little sad. just something else to get over.
i was watching EVERWOOD last night and it made me really sad. ephrim and i are like this! we are going though the same crap! but i have been through what he is going through right now. but i felt his pain! and watching it brought back all this other crap for me too.
well we did our debate today. we have to finish tomorrow. we are getting KILLED! oh well. at least we know that we tried and that we did our best. that is really all that matters. i like my team. we are a cool bunch!
life has been ok. chris and i are ok. we are not best friends but we are friends. so that is good. not being best friends like planned is just another thing to get over. ok. i am going to get going now. payce yo! =)
northern in two weeks! i need to make a northern mix for the ride up and the ride down. well that would only be one mix but i would listen to it on the ride up and the ride down. yeah. anyway. i just realized that there is no one to miss me anymore. wow. that sounds so conceited. but i mean there is no one that will say "aww! i missed you so much!" or "man! why do you have to go? i am going to miss you like crazy!" that just made me a little sad. just something else to get over.
i was watching EVERWOOD last night and it made me really sad. ephrim and i are like this! we are going though the same crap! but i have been through what he is going through right now. but i felt his pain! and watching it brought back all this other crap for me too.
well we did our debate today. we have to finish tomorrow. we are getting KILLED! oh well. at least we know that we tried and that we did our best. that is really all that matters. i like my team. we are a cool bunch!
life has been ok. chris and i are ok. we are not best friends but we are friends. so that is good. not being best friends like planned is just another thing to get over. ok. i am going to get going now. payce yo! =)
Sunday, April 11, 2004
why didn't you fight for me?
"..now i think that moral fiber is about finding that one thing that you really care about.. that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. and when you find her.. you fight for her. you risk it all. you put her in frnot of everything.. your future, your life.. all of it..and maybe the stuff you do to hlep her isn't so clean.. but you know what? but it doesnt matter.. cus in your heart you know.. that the juice is worth the squeeze. thats what moral fiber is all about." - sean's profile
i do not know why i feel this way but i do. i feel bad but it is just how i feel. =/
well so much for being best friends.
"..now i think that moral fiber is about finding that one thing that you really care about.. that one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. and when you find her.. you fight for her. you risk it all. you put her in frnot of everything.. your future, your life.. all of it..and maybe the stuff you do to hlep her isn't so clean.. but you know what? but it doesnt matter.. cus in your heart you know.. that the juice is worth the squeeze. thats what moral fiber is all about." - sean's profile
i do not know why i feel this way but i do. i feel bad but it is just how i feel. =/
well so much for being best friends.
Thursday, April 08, 2004
i miss...
i miss playing cards in the hallway. i miss walking to school. i miss the convenience of things. i miss going to the cafe after school. i miss walking to school with kristina. i miss white memorial school. i miss everyone living in the high rise. i miss going to people's houses in the high rise. i miss summer day camp. i miss staff training. i miss raging waters. i miss swim day. i miss the funny feeling you get inside when you like someone. i miss holding hands. i miss kisses on the cheek. i miss kisses on the hand. i miss kisses in general. i miss rings. i miss hugs. i miss bear hugs. i miss having someone come up behind you and squeeze you. i miss being with someone. i miss the first time you hold someone's hand. i miss just sitting there with your significant other and not saying a word. i miss knowing that just sitting there spending time together without saying a word brings us closer together. i miss having a best friend. i miss being able to talk to someone about anything. i miss playing with hair. i miss someone playing with my hair. i miss being held. i miss i miss my friends. i miss too many damn things!
i miss playing cards in the hallway. i miss walking to school. i miss the convenience of things. i miss going to the cafe after school. i miss walking to school with kristina. i miss white memorial school. i miss everyone living in the high rise. i miss going to people's houses in the high rise. i miss summer day camp. i miss staff training. i miss raging waters. i miss swim day. i miss the funny feeling you get inside when you like someone. i miss holding hands. i miss kisses on the cheek. i miss kisses on the hand. i miss kisses in general. i miss rings. i miss hugs. i miss bear hugs. i miss having someone come up behind you and squeeze you. i miss being with someone. i miss the first time you hold someone's hand. i miss just sitting there with your significant other and not saying a word. i miss knowing that just sitting there spending time together without saying a word brings us closer together. i miss having a best friend. i miss being able to talk to someone about anything. i miss playing with hair. i miss someone playing with my hair. i miss being held. i miss i miss my friends. i miss too many damn things!
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
this song is dedicated to all of my friends whom i love so very much I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!
When every moment gets too hard
The end of the road can feel so far
No matter how much time we'll part
I'm always near you
I'll be the shelter in your rain
Help you find your smile again
I'll make you laugh if you have a broken heart
Wherever you are
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
So many people come and go
Nothing can change the you I know
You'll never be just a face in the crowd
And time will show
Through the seasons and the years
I will always hold you dear
Never you fear
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
I'll be around when every candle burns down low
And I want you to know...
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
I Will Be Your Friend by Coco Lee
When every moment gets too hard
The end of the road can feel so far
No matter how much time we'll part
I'm always near you
I'll be the shelter in your rain
Help you find your smile again
I'll make you laugh if you have a broken heart
Wherever you are
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
So many people come and go
Nothing can change the you I know
You'll never be just a face in the crowd
And time will show
Through the seasons and the years
I will always hold you dear
Never you fear
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
I'll be around when every candle burns down low
And I want you to know...
Cuz I'm never gonna walk away
If the walls come down some day
All along when you feel the pain
I'll be there when you call my name
You can always depend on me
I believe until forever ends
I will be your friend
I Will Be Your Friend by Coco Lee
Sunday, March 28, 2004
'til i get over you by michelle branch
everytime i feel alone
i can blame it on you
and i do, oh
you got me like a loaded gun
golden sun and sky so blue
we both know that we want it
but we both know you left me no choice
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what it's like
to wake up every single day
smile on your face
you never tried
we both know we can't change it
but we both know we'll just have to face it
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
if only i could give you up
but would i want to let you off of this soapbox baby?
we both know that we want it
but we both know you left me no choice
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
we both know that i'm not over you
i'm not over you
*(chaque fois que to ton va, je pretend que tu fais bien)
everytime you walk away, i pretend that i'm okay
everytime i feel alone
i can blame it on you
and i do, oh
you got me like a loaded gun
golden sun and sky so blue
we both know that we want it
but we both know you left me no choice
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
sometimes i watch the world go by
i wonder what it's like
to wake up every single day
smile on your face
you never tried
we both know we can't change it
but we both know we'll just have to face it
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
if only i could give you up
but would i want to let you off of this soapbox baby?
we both know that we want it
but we both know you left me no choice
chaque fois que to ton va
you just bring me down
je pretend que tu fais bien
so i'm counting my tears 'til i get over you
we both know that i'm not over you
i'm not over you
*(chaque fois que to ton va, je pretend que tu fais bien)
everytime you walk away, i pretend that i'm okay
Thursday, March 25, 2004
quote: why does it hurt so much? will it always hurt this much?
alright. i am being vulnerable. i am putting all of my emotions at the moment on the table. whenever i do this my mind always seems to go blank. after chris and i broke up of course i cried my eyes out. then after a while i stopped crying but everything just seemed so screwed up. chris and i did not even have a relationship anymore. we would not talk at all and when we did for some reason we would end up fighting. that is my fault. i was so anxious for spring break to come because maybe i could clear my head and start getting over him. but for some reason that is not the case. we talk online a little but i do not know. spring break has been crap for me. i cannot even spend time with my friends because my dad is in the philippines and no one can drive me anywhere. the last time i saw anyone from school was on saturday and that was jenelyn. i have only talked to about five people online this whole week and that sucks. i really just want high school to be over with. it seems like the pain just keeps coming back and it never goes away! i just want to feel better! and last night did not help at all. i was going to go to sleep but i ended up thinking of how much i missed him and all the things we have been through. then i started to think about how i handled this whole break up and how i drove him away. now he probably does not want to be my friend anymore. and even if we did get anther chance to be together i doubt that he would want to. i know that he deserves to be happy and i want him to be happy. but it hurts to see him so happy and realize that i am not the one that makes him happy anymore and never will be. i kind of envy him because it seems like he can just brush it off his shoulders and be happy. i wish that i could be happy. i do not know how he does it. how can he get over someone he has been with for about two years and be happy? i wish i knew his secret because i could use some of the joy right about now. i thought that my tears would be all gone by now. but they just keep coming! i just miss him. i miss how we used to talk on the phone for hours and never get tired of each other. we would talk about everything. have you ever been with someone that was also your best friend? (jed gets it.) and when you guys break up it is the hardest thing in the world to let go of. i am still trying to let go. it is just so damn hard! i am sorry if people are fed up with me and this whole thing. but if you are then just tell me and I WILL STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM YOU! aiya! i need emotional support! hmm... i used to get that from him. now everything has changed. i cannot even talk to him anymore. about anything! but i should not expect anything from him since we are not together or really friends. which sucks. last night i had horrible dreams. it was like my nightmares were coming true. i was sitting in a room with *****. (i do not want to mention her name.) and i asked her who she was going to go with to junior senior. i suggested that she go with chris because i think that something will happen between them. then she calls him and they start talking and i guess sparks fly and yeah. that is a nightmare for me, that chris will move on faster than i will and with another person. then i had all these other dreams about me and chris and i could not sleep. i kept tossing and turning. i was half awake and half dreaming. it was horrible! my heart felt to heavy because it hurt so much. it was a horrible night! i wish i could be happy. i wish i could talk to him. i wish i could be his friend again. i wish lots of things. i hate how things are. i hate how i drove him away. i hate that i lost my best friend. my spring break sucks. everyone got to do something. i have been so lonely! just sitting here alone with my thoughts. do you know how that can drive a person nuts?!?! well i really do not know what else to write. it is time for me to stop being vulnerable. peace.
alright. i am being vulnerable. i am putting all of my emotions at the moment on the table. whenever i do this my mind always seems to go blank. after chris and i broke up of course i cried my eyes out. then after a while i stopped crying but everything just seemed so screwed up. chris and i did not even have a relationship anymore. we would not talk at all and when we did for some reason we would end up fighting. that is my fault. i was so anxious for spring break to come because maybe i could clear my head and start getting over him. but for some reason that is not the case. we talk online a little but i do not know. spring break has been crap for me. i cannot even spend time with my friends because my dad is in the philippines and no one can drive me anywhere. the last time i saw anyone from school was on saturday and that was jenelyn. i have only talked to about five people online this whole week and that sucks. i really just want high school to be over with. it seems like the pain just keeps coming back and it never goes away! i just want to feel better! and last night did not help at all. i was going to go to sleep but i ended up thinking of how much i missed him and all the things we have been through. then i started to think about how i handled this whole break up and how i drove him away. now he probably does not want to be my friend anymore. and even if we did get anther chance to be together i doubt that he would want to. i know that he deserves to be happy and i want him to be happy. but it hurts to see him so happy and realize that i am not the one that makes him happy anymore and never will be. i kind of envy him because it seems like he can just brush it off his shoulders and be happy. i wish that i could be happy. i do not know how he does it. how can he get over someone he has been with for about two years and be happy? i wish i knew his secret because i could use some of the joy right about now. i thought that my tears would be all gone by now. but they just keep coming! i just miss him. i miss how we used to talk on the phone for hours and never get tired of each other. we would talk about everything. have you ever been with someone that was also your best friend? (jed gets it.) and when you guys break up it is the hardest thing in the world to let go of. i am still trying to let go. it is just so damn hard! i am sorry if people are fed up with me and this whole thing. but if you are then just tell me and I WILL STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM YOU! aiya! i need emotional support! hmm... i used to get that from him. now everything has changed. i cannot even talk to him anymore. about anything! but i should not expect anything from him since we are not together or really friends. which sucks. last night i had horrible dreams. it was like my nightmares were coming true. i was sitting in a room with *****. (i do not want to mention her name.) and i asked her who she was going to go with to junior senior. i suggested that she go with chris because i think that something will happen between them. then she calls him and they start talking and i guess sparks fly and yeah. that is a nightmare for me, that chris will move on faster than i will and with another person. then i had all these other dreams about me and chris and i could not sleep. i kept tossing and turning. i was half awake and half dreaming. it was horrible! my heart felt to heavy because it hurt so much. it was a horrible night! i wish i could be happy. i wish i could talk to him. i wish i could be his friend again. i wish lots of things. i hate how things are. i hate how i drove him away. i hate that i lost my best friend. my spring break sucks. everyone got to do something. i have been so lonely! just sitting here alone with my thoughts. do you know how that can drive a person nuts?!?! well i really do not know what else to write. it is time for me to stop being vulnerable. peace.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
quote: "the worse thing is that i lost my best friend."
look! i am blogging! this is new. i know i do not usually blog and i have to tell people when i do. but then i only told bryan and chris so it is so stupid! wow! the last time i blogged was on december 29. that is so crazy! my entry was very gag me. but that is ok. well since then chris and i broke up because his mom wanted us apart since we are too young and i am not korean. great. i am trying to get over it but it is really hard. i mean it already hurts that i lost my boyfriend and that we will never be together but what hurts even more is that i also lost my best friend. we used to talk all the time on the phone. we would talk about stupid stuff and sometimes even gossip. he was my best friend. and now everything has changed. we still talk but not talk talk. we say hi and mess around with each other but we do not talk like we used to. i know that it is not his fault and i am not blaming him or anyone. i just miss those times. i wish we could talk more and stay connected. i want the connection that we had. but i know that we will never have it back. for my extra credit english poem i am going to write about this. i am going to title it “forever” because i lost my best friend forever. i miss my best friend.
look! i am blogging! this is new. i know i do not usually blog and i have to tell people when i do. but then i only told bryan and chris so it is so stupid! wow! the last time i blogged was on december 29. that is so crazy! my entry was very gag me. but that is ok. well since then chris and i broke up because his mom wanted us apart since we are too young and i am not korean. great. i am trying to get over it but it is really hard. i mean it already hurts that i lost my boyfriend and that we will never be together but what hurts even more is that i also lost my best friend. we used to talk all the time on the phone. we would talk about stupid stuff and sometimes even gossip. he was my best friend. and now everything has changed. we still talk but not talk talk. we say hi and mess around with each other but we do not talk like we used to. i know that it is not his fault and i am not blaming him or anyone. i just miss those times. i wish we could talk more and stay connected. i want the connection that we had. but i know that we will never have it back. for my extra credit english poem i am going to write about this. i am going to title it “forever” because i lost my best friend forever. i miss my best friend.
Monday, December 29, 2003
Thursday, November 13, 2003
quote: wow! i haven't blogged in a long time!
this blog is dedicated to NUMBER ONE! hi number one! i do not really have time to blgo anymore. ap us is killing me! we had a test today. i think i did ok. but the cycle begins again! haha! since no one probably reads this except chris, i will just write to chris. hey babe! how are you? i am so bored! it's thursday and it's my kick back day. i love it! i am watching will and grace. it is such a funny show! man. i am really bad at blogging. i never know what to write. AAAHHHH! I AM SO MAD! I CANNOT GO TO THE STUPID FRIENDS TAPING BECAUSE I AM NOT 18! GRRR! oh well! at least i can stay for vespers tomorrow and spend time with number 1! ok. sorry but i do not know what else to write. sorry babe! check back some other time! i love you! bye!
this blog is dedicated to NUMBER ONE! hi number one! i do not really have time to blgo anymore. ap us is killing me! we had a test today. i think i did ok. but the cycle begins again! haha! since no one probably reads this except chris, i will just write to chris. hey babe! how are you? i am so bored! it's thursday and it's my kick back day. i love it! i am watching will and grace. it is such a funny show! man. i am really bad at blogging. i never know what to write. AAAHHHH! I AM SO MAD! I CANNOT GO TO THE STUPID FRIENDS TAPING BECAUSE I AM NOT 18! GRRR! oh well! at least i can stay for vespers tomorrow and spend time with number 1! ok. sorry but i do not know what else to write. sorry babe! check back some other time! i love you! bye!
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