quote: WE BROKE UP!

CHRIS BROKE UP WITH ME! yes. he did. he did last night. he was going to do it in person at school but i read his xanga and i figured it out. i called megan, jen, and rachel. i was freaking out. yah. we broke up. he broke up with me. it's so weird. i called jen after and then i called kris. kristina really made me feel better. she wants to castrate him. it's so funny! but i don't want her to do that. school today was so weird. i got to school and i told andrew and michelle. for some reason i started to cry. and then bryan came and i cried. rachel and bryan hugged me. i felt a little better. megan hugged me and so did jina. i got lots of hugs today. man. i didn't even want this break up. it's so hard for me. but i thank God that i have such incredible friends that care about me and love me and are there for me whenever i need them. i went through the day putting on a happy front. sometimes it was really hard for me to seem happy but i did it anyway. sometimes i would be walking and be all happy then all of a sudden i would have a mood swing and be sad. i hated it. marvin and khaing were going through it and i was so pissed off so see them together and happy and back together. i mean i am really happy for them but it just sucks that it can't happen to me. i got a notes from jen and erin. they were like warm and fuzzies. aww. i was not in the car washing mood. i really wasn't. it was hot and i felt like crap. my bitter anger showed later in the afternoon. bryan, megan, kyle and i went to burger king. it was so scary because i sat in the back seat of kyle's car and it was folded so i didn't have an actual seat. so i had to hang on to the seat in front of me. kyle has ADD. it's so funny! i was going to ride in the back again but megan was like, "no, i want to be dangerous." haha! i farted so many times. one time bryan actual got to smell it. sucker! bryan and megan gave me a note too. it was so sweet! i love you guys! you guys are the best! all of my friends are the best. jenelyn and i are supposed to go out tonight. so yah. man. i want him back. i have a song. it's "'til i get over you" by michelle branch. yup. i don't know what else to say. THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT HELPED ME OUT! I LOVE YOU GUYS!