It all started when I wondered whether 'ballsy' was a legit word to use in Scrabble and decided to look it up. That's when I came across this blog. Now, I have no idea who this girl is, but I found her blog interesting. I especially liked the statement "If the God of the universe created us, and knows us inside and out, and calls us worthy and beautiful and captivating, then honestly, what else do we need?"
And no, 'ballsy' cannot be used in Scrabble.

I am so unmotivated. Being at home and on vacation has made me very lazy. There are little things that I should be doing in order to make life a little bit more organized, but I keep putting them off. When I'm home, all I do is lounge around or go online. And that's when I found this: The Condom Wedding Gown.

According to my calculations, that dress should cost about $3100. It's quite an interesting dress, and apparently there are more of them. It's to commemorate World AIDS Day.

It's in China...
and are very colorful...
They even have hats...
I admit that this is very crass, but I am very bored. I can't wait until summer school. The one hour commute back and forth will probably kill me, but I think it's worth it. It's cheaper than dorming. As much as I complain when I'm in school about being in school, I do like it.

I can't believe I've been in nursing school for a whole school year. It went by so quickly. I took my Med-Surg final today. It didn't drain me like the Pharm final, but I felt so unsure after the test. I wasn't sure when grades would be up except for the vague time frame of "this afternoon." Usually, after I take a test, I can preoccupy myself with something and calm down. But for some reason I was so anxious and nervous for the five hours from finishing the test until I found out my grade. I tried napping but kept waking up thinking about the test. Now that I know my score, I can relax and start enjoying vacation. No more studying during the weekends and staying up studying for tests, at least not for another two weeks when I start summer school. Fun.

Have you ever felt like someone sucked the life out of you? I just took my pharmacology final, and I feel like it sucked out the life, my brain and my soul. This test was particularly difficult due to the fact that there were so many adverse effects, indications, and contraindications. Last night I took a three hour nap, studied, took a one hour nap, then study some more. Now that pharm is done, it's time to repeat the cycle all over again for the Med-Surg final tomorrow. Who knew that only having two finals could drain a person so much?

It was time to try something new. Giselle and Monica have been nagging me for weeks to go with them to the hip hop class Emson taught at the Drayson Center. I never really wanted to because it's not my thing, and I had a twelve hour clinical on the days he had class. But since I didn't have clinicals this week, I promised them I would go. Luckily Jenelyn came over and went with me. As much as I hate to admit it, I liked hip hop class, and I would go again.

Yesterday I had my client presentation. I was ill prepared to talk about one of my patients, but somehow I managed to pull it off. My biggest critique was that I should slow down a little. Oops. After presentations, our clinical instructor treated us out to lunch. Free food is always welcomed.

Last night was a mini reunion. Blossom came over from Riverside and all of us girls went to Monica's apartment to catch up. We stayed up until 1 AM talking about nonsense, but it was worth it. Now it's time to study for finals. I only have two, but I know this will be the most difficult finals week I will ever have, at least until grad school. =D

Having a four day weekend was excellent. I got a lot of much needed sleep. On Sunday, Briggitte had a little barbecue at the Riverside house. Giselle and I stayed in the kitchen the whole time so we could be near the food. As more people came Giselle and I kind of became the hostesses of the kitchen. Briggitte's house always has good food. The next day I went to Glendale for a little shopping. I am never going to the Americana on a weekend ever again. Every time I get into a crowded place I am tempted to scream at people to get out of the way. But I don't.
I completely forgot that it's a Tuesday so I left for Loma Linda right when rush hour started. When I got to the dorms there was no parking because people were still in class. But the girl's dorm had free pancakes so that made up for it. It was breakfast for dinner, which I love!
Well, Lakers just won Game 4 versus the Spurs. It's kind of lame how I attempted to keep up with the game. We don't have a TV in our room so I went on Yahoo Sports and kept refreshing every couple of minutes to check the score. It was worth it.
Now it's time to sleep so I can wake up at 5 AM for my very last Med-Surg I clinical. Woot.

Today we had a four hour long pharmacology class. I always get really bored in that class unless Zelne is teaching. Last week Nancy Sarpy was our instructor, and I ended up doing this the whole time:
Yeah, really productive. I would listen in from time to time and start writing out words that I heard in class. Doodling passes the time very quickly.

Last year I started making pillows. The one I like the most if the Hello Kitty one that I made for Giselle.
I would like to make another pillow, but I'm too lazy to think of what I'd like.
I don't know what else to say. I'm tired.

I tend to blog at times when I need to study.
But anyway, this past weekend I ate my body weight in Korean BBQ. I usually don't get my money's worth when it comes to all-you-can-eat places, but Saturday was an exception. I think the restaurant actually lost money because of us. It was for Nelson's going away dinner. He's leaving for five years to go to the Philippines and become a P.T.

In five years I hope to...
- be working.
- be in grad school (I can work and go to school at the same time.)
- not be married (yes, NOT. 26 is still too young for me.)
- have my bajillion dollar undergrad loan paid off.
- own my own house or start the process of owning my own house.
- be a bridesmaid in a friend's wedding (so someone better get married soon.)
- be a traveling nurse.
Most of my goals focus on my career and none really focus on my social life. And I'm OK with that, but does that say something about me?
I highly doubt that I'll accomplish all of those goals, but it's worth a shot.

I realize it's only Tuesday, but it has been a physically and mentally challenging week. Yesterday was the pharmacology midterm. I tried to get back to the dorm early on Sunday so I could study. I can never study at home. I managed to study from 3 PM to 2 AM with minimal breaks in between. Then I took a three hour nap and studied from 5 AM to 8 AM. The test wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but 90 questions on pharmacology and drug calculations just wears me down. After the test I went back to the dorm to take a nap, but I don't think it helped. The rest of my classes felt like hurdles I had to jump in order to get back to my dorm so I could sleep. My body was so fatigued that I was too tired to chew my food. I ended up taking an unintentional three hour nap after dinner then slept for 9 more hours. I feel a lot more well rested which is great because I have to wake up tomorrow at 5:30 for clinicals. Such is the life of a nursing student.

But this weekend I got to go to the new Americana on Brand. It's like the Grove but on steroids. There were so many people there because it was opening weekend. I'm going to hate driving in Glendale even more. It wouldn't matter so much if most of my family didn't live there.

DENNIS, I SEE WHAT YOU'RE DOING!

My friend Dennis has decided to make a blog called "Gibberish: Part Deux." It's supposed to be a spin off of my blog. It's kind of a mix of my life, Kristina's and Dennis' lives. The blog is kind of strange but funny nonetheless. So if you ever feel like reading about my life through the eyes of Dennis, and probably Kristina, feel free to go to this site, or you can go to the right side of this blog and click on "Gibberish: Part Deux."

Like I promised Connie and Giselle, I would blog about tonight. Giselle, Connie and I met up at the Cheesecake Factory in Santa Anita mall. We had fun catching up and just being retarded. Then we went to take sticker pictures. It was a very high school-like night. Our pictures didn't exactly turn out the way we wanted them to, and we got screwed over with our second set. It was fun to see familiar faces and have it be the way it used to be.

When I got home, I had a lot of responsibilities to do since my parents are out of town for a couple weeks. It's kind of nice to have the apartment to myself, even for a couple weekends. I'm going to party it up! Studying for pharmacology and Med-Surg, yeah!

Today was my first 12 hour clinical, finally. Janet, my clinical instructor, is awesome! She makes you feel relaxed and comfortable. At first, I was really annoyed that I got the patient that I did because he had an NG tube and diarrhea. It sucked having to clean up five bowel movements, but the rest of the day was pretty great. I got to give med via NG tube, hang an IV piggyback, give a Lovenox shot (I just like giving shots), put in a Foley catheter, and watch a wound packing. I really want to pack a wound. I love guts and gore. I'm exhausted.

I got beef. Today was supposed to be the first real day for my Med-Surg clinical. I woke up at 5:30 AM to get ready. I ate a big breakfast so that I could survive my 12 hour shift, then I went to the VA. A couple of us waited there for our clinical instructor. Our regular instructor was Janet, but she couldn't make it this week so she was going to send Sunah. We get a call from Sunah saying that she can't make it, and that clinicals in canceled. All of us were angry because we have two care plans due, and we can't do them now. Gaah! I had to wake up so early, and I slept horribly last night. And now that I'm back at the dorm, I can't fall back asleep because I'm wide awake with anger. This is crap. I'm just going to read for Med-Surg.
On the bright side, I do get three days of no school (Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday) so I can study for Med-Surg and catch up on my reading.

I should really be reading for pharm but...

I was thinking about certain events that have happened in my life over the past few years, and some of them just escaped me. It's like there are chunks missing from my memory. (That's not very good.)So I went over previous blog entries just to see what I had to say, and I came across more embarrassing entries. Each time I go through my blog, I discover more and more embarrassment from the past. I can't believe I was so open. I am always tempted to delete it, but I just know that I'll regret it. It's all in the past now, and most of the time I get a big kick out of reading my daily ramblings.

I don't think spring break was long enough. As my as I enjoyed seeing my nursing friends again, I wish I was back at home sleeping. It was a mellow break, although much busier than I anticipated. I'm anxiously waiting for June 18 after 12 pm to come so I can start summer vacation. But that will be short lived if I take summer school.

My brain hurts. This quarter I have Med-Surg and Pharmacology. The requirements for Pharm aren't so bad, but once I got to Med-Surg, my brain started to ache while reading the syllabus. I have to completely change my study habits and be more disciplined. Gah, my head is starting to hurt just thinking about it.

I'm super fidgety right now, and I'm kind of scaring Giselle. When it comes close to a test, I get really antsy and move around a lot. I'm not sure why this happens to me, but the onset happens within 24 hours of a major test.

Today, Giselle and I took a break from studying and took a little stroll around the girls' dorm. I brought my camera, and we had a little photo shoot around the dorm. There are a lot of pretty places around the dorm. It was a good way to take a break from studying.

I haven't been studying for finals since 3. I think it's because I studied last night and this morning, giving me a total of about 7 hours. I think I should be OK, I hope.

No more classes this quarter, but I still have three finals. To celebrate, Giselle and I went to Victoria Gardens. We originally went there just to eat, but of course we ended up doing some shopping. After browsing and splurging a little, we ate at Lucille's. Aah, protein overload. I don't care. It was delicious!

Over the past couple of days I've gotten at chance to do some reading for pleasure. I have four books that I'm trying to read, but it's taking me a long time to get through them. I appreciate that I've had the time to read. I probably should be studying for finals, but I need a break from school.

It's time to do more reading for pleasure. =D

Kristina and I got to go to the Hotel Cafe Tour at the HOB Anaheim. Most of the performers were unknown to me, but the reasons I went were because of Cary Brothers and Ingrid Michaelson. Both of them sound so much better live. I melted when Cary Brothers played "Blue Eyes." Ingrid Michaelson sang a new song called "The Chain" with two other girls. I loved it! She was really funny and entertaining. I definitely got my moneys worth that night. =D

The Chain


So for every Monday in March, Chipotle is giving away free meals to every LLU student. I went yesterday, and the line was so long. It went by quickly because no one had to pay. I wonder why they are doing this for us. I'm not complaining, I just want to know. Free Chipotle is always welcomed.

Tonight Kristina took me to Bikram yoga. I underestimated how hot and humid the room was going to be. It was 90 minutes of humid fun. While doing it, it was like torture, but after I got out of the room, I felt so good.

Now I'm going to read a David Sedaris book and drink my hot chocolate. It's dark chocolate because I hate normal hot coco. =D

My week just got a lot better. Today I had a patho test which did not go very well for me. I only started studying last night, and my focus was everywhere else but my studies. Even during the test I had a difficult time focusing. After the test, our teacher has the answers to the test, so I calculated my grade. It wasn't a horrible grade, but I was not pleased. A few minutes ago I looked online for the final results, and it turns out that she dropped a few questions which bumped my grade up 7%. I also got all of my homework done for the week so I can just focus on writing my Advance Directive paper. I am quite the happy camper. =D